I seem to have become somewhat of a paradox-
I want to be happy,
but I'm constantly reminding myself of things that make me sad and angry.
I grow lazy,
yet I am ambitious.
I hate my self,
but love who I really am.
I crave attention,
yet I reject it when its shown to me.
I am a conflicted contradiction to my self.
My point is this:
I have know myself my whole life,
and have spent every second of every day with me and never a moment apart.
It has taken me 37 years to figure out that I may never fully understand myself.
So, let me ask you something.
If I can't figure myself out,
What the *** makes you think you already have,
or that you have one goddammed thing figured out about me?
Feel me 1st,
then *** off.

Immovable-

I'm not bound to win,
but I am bound to be true.
I am not bound to succeed,
but I am bound to live by the light that I have.
I must stand with anybody that stands right,
stand with them while they are right,
and stay committed to them-
even if things go wrong.
Immovable-

Be wary around your enemy once, and your friend a thousand times. Your two-faced friends, know more about what has harmed you in the past,
whether or not the wound is still open-
and exactly where it is..

Immovable-

For whenever you may think of me
or whatever you may think of me,
allow me to make something abundantly clear;

Before I am your son & Before I am your father,
Before I am your brother
& before I am your your lover.
Before I am your cousin, nephew, foe or friend-
I am none of these to you,
I do not intend to dare pretend.
But what I am now,
today-
as compared to what has past....

            I am a Muslim,
                             first and last.

Our broken heart's shall either be mended,
before to late-
or else replaced by something,
unspeakable.

I am ever grateful for the little bites of happiness
which I sometimes receive.
But without you here,
                              the joy just turns to ashes in my mouth.                        

          I miss you constantly.
Daddy-