After a long while with no seen,
The first vision of you reminded me of a queen,
The queen I drew in my imagination when I was a kid,
I burnt your image in my heart as I closed my eyelid,
Your red hair floating through the air,
Your white shirt on your snow-white skin … oh, my dear,
I watched you smiling mesmerized by your beauty,
Knowing in my deepest soul that I am very lucky,
To have your eyes in mine,
To drink your words as a sweet cup of vine,
I was floating in a dream, with you my loveliest dream,
Feeling dazzled, by your shiny beauty beam,
Time flew and I know that I will miss,
Your all, the goodbye was sealed with a kiss,
That reached, beyond the lips, the heart of my heart,
My most inner was shaking hit by your smooth dart,
I took with me your scent, your taste, as you left,
Victim of the ******* heart theft,
Happy, hopeful, willing to fly, is how I went,
Convinced, that it was with you, my whole life I should have spent.

Fire became ash, light faded within a flash,
A beautiful story written from scratch,
Lived fully, intensively through many years,
Going through hopes and fears,
Wonderful moments of intimacy and love we have lived,
In foreverness of such times we have believed,
Fate dug the grave of our passion,
As we walked through paths apart from our ambition,
As we parted, and it seemed that we had lost each other,
As the Phoenix burnt without giving place to another,
The emptiness took place in our hearts for a while,
Our souls though showing strong were fragile,
As we were convinced to be done,
The phoenix rose from its ashes in a dawn,
The sparkle, the taste, came back to our everyday,
The death that has frozen us has faded away,
A missing heartbeat, a wonderful smile on beloved faces,
Opening wide the gates of magic, yet unchartered places

Fear and sweet,
Let’s see and wait,
This moments are just magic,
Don’t you waist’em with panic,
In happiness I do live,
And in love I still believe,
Stay for a little while,
And brighten my day with your beautiful smile,
When I hear your laughter,
There’s no sorrow thereafter,
Your voice warm and slow,
Keeps my breath getting low,
Don’t go and leave the door always open,
Don’t close it and leave me heart stolen

You

You’ve been always the man I thought of,
since you’ve talked to me I’m like a loaf,
flowing in winds of wavering,
above seas of suffering,
blind with flashes of pain,
wet through the heart with despair’s rain,
asking myself : what do I want from tis life ?
a rose or a knife ?
happiness or sadness ?
coming together or loneliness ?
answering myself : I want this both and all,
the spring and the fall,
the dark and the light
the day and the night,
dear, I want you and I don’t want you,
I love you and I don’t love you,
I just really don’t know what to answer,
to tell no, I don’t have the power,
to tell yes, I am still wandering,
wondering and wondering and wondering,
if I shall live alone,
if I shall keep my heart rough as a stone,
or if we shall have a real relationship,
going thus together through the life’s trip,
I really must decide, which of the life’s trains I have to ride,
this will may be take a lot of time,
but if you love me, just wait for my sign.

Me

I know all your feelings my dear,
I’m also living heartbreak and fear,
but a big difference between us remains,
even if we’re sharing sorrows and pains,
I know which road I want to follow,
I know that I want you to be my fellow,
for the best and the worst,
sharing the least and the most,
if you don’t know where you are,
just don’t let your mind go too far,
try to discover what or who you need,
think about it without hast or speed,
take your time and I will wait,
‘cause you’ll find the way soon or late,
till then I’ll keep the hope,
sinking, waiting for the saving line you’ll drop

In front of you,
Annoyed, bothered, fed up nothing new,
You breath my air and mask my view,
Ears up an eyes wide open ,
Nothing you spot is ever forgotten,
Eagle eyes and tiger ears,
You became the worst of my fears,
Even my whispers are analyzed,
My every move is scrutinized,
I am kept prisoner with no jail,
Heaven knows I hide well my mail,
But sooner or later, you’ll find the trail,
No matter how smart I’ll be you’ll get the “news”,
So fleeing away from you is no lose

Slogui strange name it sounds;
Its meaning though has no bounds,
It’s a lie that so perfectly said, and hard to check,
That you believe it, to avoid a sure headache,
Slougui means greyhound (),
You can run after it, almost reach it then goes around,
Close and far, catch it if you can,
You will never, whatever is your plan,
It is a lie dressed with the truth,
It is a piece of sht dressed smooth,
Respect the slougui’s masters,
Those for who the word “true” never matters

() In Morrocan spoken langage

As the thunder strikes and the clouds gather,
And the sad sky begins to suffer,
Pouring big tears in a silent cry,
I remembered my mom in a wink of an eye,
Overwhelmed by emotion my heart heaved a big sigh,
My dearest mom is far and ill,
And I cannot even handle her the smallest pill,
Her love, pure, unconditional is always inside,
Whatever I go through, her face is in my mind,
The thought of you being sick is unbearable,
No matter what image the others see, I am never stable,
I can do nothing but to beg the God,
To heal you soon, to take me away from the fear flood,
I trust the Lord and I keep hope,
That this nightmare will soon stop

When it got to rain,
I can't repress some pain,
I remember all my sorrows again,
I remember all the moments we spent,
all the days we went hand in hand,
all the beautiful words we wrote on the sand,
and now, you've left me forever,
but, I promiss you that wherever,
you go, you'll come back one day,
and sorry will you certainly say,
and only then a sun ray,
will show us the way,
the way of a better life to live.

You came wearing the white bride dress,
glowing like a fairytale princess,
there, I was laying on the altar,
aware that I’ve lost my lucky star,
ready to give away my love, life,
coldness invades me from the cold altar stone,
sadness chilling every single bone,
be firm and stab,
I promiss, this time, I won’t grab,
in my most deep I will bleed,
hope, no more will I feed,
if you will be happy, it’s worth sacrifice,
emptied, my whole life will be the price.

You made your choice she said,
looking through me with her honey eyes strayed,
I will ask my heart I replied,
I will go into my deepest inside,
beyond the calm surface of me,
hiding a wild and sad sea,
many opposite feelings tearing me,
I feel despair even in the happiest times,
I see errors in the most perfect rimes,
my boat is slowly sinking,
and I keep on thinking and thinking,
my heart stays mute,
by your sight, his message is acute,
with you he knew what heaven is,
without you, he reached hell down on his knees,
it is not my choice he screamed,
my advice and feelings should be deemed,
unleash me and let me scream my love,
refresh me with hope and get me out of the stove,
let me scream all my passion,
and loose for good my self-possession,
this is what my heart told,
his truth, is now, for you unfold.

Everytime thinking of you,
eveywhere I turn, I only see you,
each day that goes by is a real ordeal for me,
tortured that you haven’t still seen,
what you do mean,
to me, all the words can’t express what I feel,
what is it, I can’t tell,
is this love?
is this really love?
who can answer this question?
and have a good mention,
maybe I can, but not now,
let the time flow and this feeling will grow,
and surely, I am going to know,
if it is the marvelous feeling that’s love,
I am going to prove,
to myself, that it was not an ephemeral passion,
rather it was a pure and hearty emotion,
I hope you’re thinking like this,
and that you’ll see like me that love is,
the secret, the essence of human genesis.

I remember it like it was yesterday,
I saw you and forgot everything I wanted to say,
you were like the picture I drew of you in my head,
many feelings were quarreling inside my heart as I walked ahead,
love, fright and shyness,
love, you can read it in my face,
fright, afraid from tomorrow if I have to leave you,
shyness, I can’t help being shy to meet you,
but all those opposite feelings stopped when you talked to me,
we spoke, spoke and wished we’d stay this way, together, forever be,
unfortunately, everything in this life has an end,
my heart was sad as I shook you hand,
but I told myself that we’ll meet again,
so, I smiled and buried my pain.

Among all the girls I’ve met before,
you’re the one which my heart beats for,
because you’re special,
because you’ve heard my call,
I hold on you more than anything,
with you the life is always pink,
living too far from you is hard for me,
but in spite of this our hearts will be,
close, there’ll be no space between us,
we’ll meet in any case,
so wait for it and support,
our pain will be short.

We’re all looking for tomorrow,
Wondering if it will bring joy or sorrow,
Tomorrow is something unknown
You may be then here or gone,
Tomorrow is just another day,
It will be soon away,
Don’t guess your day will be bad,
Just leave everything to your God,
Tomorrow might make you fear,
But never let despair overrun your life dear,
Let your tomorrow’s color be pink,
Else your short life will shrink.

Every night when I go to sleep,
I do really feel kinda cheap,
Nothingness is in the bed,
Romatism, none, tough heart instead,
So I face my eternal friend,
Who stands always straight never bend,
The wall, mute, but alive,
Its stillness makes me forget all the troubles hive,
Crazy … would you think,
To have as a friend such a “silly” thing,
As I contemplate its face,
I feel much better and start going to another space,
I feel warm hands surrounding me,
I feel smooth darkness invading me,
I feel my eyelids fall in peace,
And I dive into the sleeping bliss,
Thank you, wall, my closest friend off all,
You are always by me, may it be summer or fall,
Your trust and love are burnt in my deepest soul.

in loneliness you've left me dear,
living without you is really a hard affair,
I miss you anytime and anywhere,
I miss you as days go by,
I am going crazy, they say, only me know why,
they can't guess how bad I feel,
they can't imagine how much my disease is real,
neither can you share my pain,
'cause all your efforts to do it would be vain,
I always stare at the phone,
but it stays silent, icy as a stone,
the postman knew me well through the days,
as everyday "no letters" he says,
I don't know ** to get your news,
I'm getting more and more nervous,
baby come back soon and hear my call,
'cause in the despair's well I've started to fall.

It's been days since I'm waiting,
waiting expecting and praying,
that you'll make up your mind,
and prove again how much you are kind,
by giving the right answer,
by telling yes to my hearty shelter,
if you only could reach the deepest of my soul,
you'll see that my heart is like a fool,
crazy for you and everything you do,
but stiffed, doesn't know what to do,
to shout high that his love is real ?
to scream aloud that he's really ill ?
ill of being sure and uncertain,
fed up of the mixture of happiness and pain,
only you can ease my heartbreak,
your medicine will be efficient and quick,
so open the eyes of your heart,
say yes and our eternal joy will start.

After many fights on the love battlefield,
After being wounded and broken my strongest shield,
After being down on the knee,
After being kept prisoner and then set free,
After such a long trip,
There no further room for the smallest rip,
My heart longs for a RIP,
What’s left but to die,
Without asking any why,
It’s anyways anything’s fate,
To become nothingness soon or late

So long we've been far away
and now here's your special day
when the world witnessed the coming of a new bloom
with whom my heart will be kept forever in a strong room
a blessed day for you and me as well
no words or wishes can express what I want to tell
on your birthday I feel my heart aching
as your picture keeps, in front of my eyes, showing,
I guess today you'll look as queen,
a glamorous picture of you I've never seen,
for your special day, I have special thoughts,
warmer than any fur coats,
my never ending love, rises, after being so long on his knees,
like the ash brought to fire by a smooth breeze,
your birthday is a blessed day where a gift was given,
and the happiest page of my life was written,
may the mightily lord bless your life forever,
as you blessed my life with your unhealed love fever.