just another day.
talking.
learning.
breaking.
crying.
"help".
why don't I just leave
a rope in the corner
a chair
why do this again
repeat
getting ticked off
waiting to blow up
waiting to die
why not get the stress over with
maybe if I just cut to keep the pressure low
scars
all the way up
gallons of blood
a sadness nobody could understand
just...
stop...
I can't breath
not anymore
finally a deed for the world...

a sweet bird
laying in my hands
sleeping softly
my hands,
calloused but soft
full of hard work
I could end it
is it sad?
does it want to die like me?
is it done with life?
just a pop
1...
2...
3...
Crack

What to do now
I have everything;
I have “love”
I have friends who “care”,
I have “joy”
I have money,
But I don’t know what to do now.

Even if you are out there,
Do you even have the power to help me?
Do I even have everything?
At this point I’m lost beyond reason
What do do next,
Where to go next,
What to do next?

Should I end it now or enjoy it while I can?
Even if I ended it now what would happen next?
If I enjoyed it while I can,
I could be,
Truly hap-