It shines through ,me
Filling me with utter love and compassion
Such love I have never felt
It is an experience
Beyond all I have ever experienced
Yet at the same time
It scares me
It shines as well as sees straight through me
I have no secrets (NO LIES should be added)
And I feel alive
With no worries at all I wish all life could be this way
And with that it is over
I CRY

in wakefulness I sleep
in sleep I live
in life I die
in death I laugh
in laughter I cry
in crying I tear
in tearing I sleep

She looked at me and smiled
I looked at her and gawped
For what had beset my eyes
Was beauty that completely stunned me
Suddenly life made sense
Something so stunning
Made everything better
No
Not better
Perfect
I was filled with total love and reverence at her beauty
My mind and heart felt at peace
Something that has never happened
And then she stopped
And I stared
She smiled again
And it all started again
Except this time
I felt like I knew her
Like we were always there for each other
We could tell each other everything
So that's what I did
As she sat down
I cried
Cried and spoke
I told her everything
All my lies
All my secrets
All my desires
All my losses
All of me
She then said in a voice like silken honey
"I WOULD CONDEMN YOU WERE IT NOT FOR LOVE"
And she was gone
And with that all I knew
Was an emptiness
An emptiness beyond all I have known
An emptiness beyond even her beauty
"I'M SORRY"
I cried to the sky
To my condemned soul
And to the monsters she left with me

IN MY HEAD

Girl girl with red eye
Tell me truth or tell me lie
Truth be harsh But lie be kind
So tell me lie to my eye
Before my soul go to sky
tell me truth or tell me lie