I wanted it so bad I forgot what I was looking for.
I forgot why. How, even.
it's like this was one big game I was playing in my head, that I'd never known how to play in the first place.
Scrambling to figure out.
But I couldn't,
so I just played by my own rules.

i was sad and you let me cry on your shoulder.
i was happy and you made me happier.
i was confused and you made it clear.

i always loved you even when you hurt me.
even then-

i shoot bullets that went in deep,
and I'm still sorry, ---

you can never forgive me.

Some days I just wanna come home and cry till the sun falls and the stars rise.