I haven't written a poem on here in a while
I have time and I don't have time,
all at the same time.
What a funny thing to say?
I don't have the words to say the words
I need to say.
Isn't that hilarious?
My hands have moved me here
and my fingers are tapping the keys
but I have no idea what I'm typing.
Sounds a lot like
life.

You were supposed to come out to sea and save me
But I'm hanging on to the edge of your lifeboat
Killing myself
just to stay afloat
Why didn't I let go
I don't know
Maybe it's because I believed you were there to save me

Having a dream is like having money
More times than not your going to have to exchange it for something else

Love is
As love was
Love will only ever be
As it only ever has been
And to be honest
I think that's pretty sad

Sorry
That I loved you too much.
I must have been such a bore.
I must have been too clingy.
I'm sure you hated the way
I said that I loved you
with too much desperation
In my eyes
The way I kissed you
must have annoyed you so much.
My lips were always chapped.
I bite them so often.
It must have irritated you when I hugged you.
I must have held on too tight,
like I didn't want to lose you to the wind.
I didn't.
And I-
nevermind.
I'm so sorry.

If I was a penny coin
Laying there,
My copper dull
And my edges chipped,
Would come and pick me up?

People have walked past me.
Some pick me up then throw me back down once they realise
I was of less worth than they thought.
I've been shoved in the dirt.
I have watched rain pool around my edges
I've been frozen over stuck way under snow.
But would you pick me up and place me deep inside your pocket?

You don't even to use me.
Can you just keep me there,
where it's warm?

Why is it that
Within the silence, I can hear
ten thousand screaming voices
but in the roar of the crowd
I can barely hear a word?

Why is it that
When I close my eyes, I can see
a world outside of here
but when I open them again
I see nothing that I haven't already seen before?

Isn't nighttime the world with it's eyes closed?
Everything looks better.
The lights are luminous and bright.
The streets are almost empty. Nothing is as it seems.
A beautiful lie.

And when daytime comes, eyes are open.
The lights are turned off.
The show is finished.
Everybody gets up from their seats
and heads back to reality.
The ugly truth.

You were talking
but I wasn’t really listening.
I just sat there.
Sat there and just watched
As your lips curved and stretched
at the pronunciation of each word.
I watched the cute little wrinkles
on your face wriggle.
Become shallower.
Become deeper.
With every little movement of your face.
I watched as your bright shiny eyes
followed mine.
I stopped gazing at you and turned
back to your lips
I watched them curve and stretch again

“I don’t love you anymore”

That’s when it became clear to me
The wrinkles on your face-
They were because you were stressed.
Were tired.
In pain.
I looked up at your eyes.
They were indeed very shiny.
It was my mistake
I hadn’t realised you were crying

If the weather was just a little warmer that day,
I’m sure you wouldn’t have left me.
If the sun had come out
and scorched the tarmac.
If the leftover puddles had evaporated and condensed
Into fluffy white clouds.
If the birds had been singing atop the branches
of the old oak tree.
Yes,
I’m sure you wouldn’t have left me that day.

If we didn’t get stuck in traffic that day,
I’m sure you wouldn’t have left me.
If I had woken us up earlier
We would have been en-route before rush hour.
If we didn't almost crash into the old
couple in front of us.
If I had just  gone at the yellow light
And not wait for green.
Yes,
I’m sure you wouldn’t have left me that day

If I had remembered you were allergic to prawns that day,
I’m sure you wouldn't have left me.
If I hadn’t reserved us a place
At that new Chinese place.
If I had just asked you
where you wanted to go.
If I hadn’t ordered
Fried rice with king prawns.
Yes,
I’m sure you wouldn’t have left me that day.

If I was someone you loved,
I’m sure you wouldn’t have left me that day.
If I was someone you’d miss
when we’d been apart for hours.
If I was the only person you could look at
with hearts in your eyes.
If I wasn’t me,
and you weren’t you,
and it wasn't then.
Yes,
I’m sure you wouldn't have left me that day.