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Jan 2020 · 64
Go
Stratus Jan 2020
Go
Run away like your dear life depends on it
Just crush me already and scar my heart
I don't know what I did wrong
But I've been accused
Just let me go
Into the past
Jan 2020 · 46
He
Stratus Jan 2020
He
I know you know
But please let me have what I need
He is the only one that keeps me sane and fulfilled
He gives me warmth and comfort
He is like my sun and moon
Both are things that I can't live without
He's true, honest and loyal
I already know that you disapprove but please
Let me have him because he is all I need
I have morals and principles
And I understand it all
But just let me have him
Because then I'd be happy for once
Jan 2020 · 84
Safe Place
Stratus Jan 2020
I just want to run from here
It used to be so sunny and warm
But gray clouds are rolling in as it starts to storm
This was my only safe place to be but now it's messed up
Jan 2020 · 61
Empty and Cold
Stratus Jan 2020
My body's warmth has been ****** up
I'm left with nothing but emptiness and sadness
My eyes are moist and need to leak
But not here in this room full of judgemental eyes
I wish I could just run out and cry my fears out
Every thought in my head stabs my heart
I can't stop but press on until I'm bleeding
No one will ever hear my quiet sobs nor care
I'll just sit here in this lonely corner
And let my eyes release my pain
Jan 2020 · 51
Savior
Stratus Jan 2020
You opened up the black box
To which I was trapped in
I escaped that prison which was loneliness

We were distant but now are so close
I'd be scared to let you go
My affection for you grew as big as the sea

With you, I feel whole and healed
As if I was never even broken before
You made me feel the things I've never felt before

I was saved by you from my terrible end
<3
Jan 2020 · 54
Sad and Masochistic
Stratus Jan 2020
I tried to stay strong and whole
But I can't help but break down
I've been overwhelmed with emotions
I want to stay calm but I'm about to explode
I just want my neck to be severed
As my body is wrapped in barbed wires
Pain is the only thing on my mind
And I want it like I need it
Jan 2020 · 53
Bad Thoughts
Stratus Jan 2020
I just want to blow my brain out
Or my throat, or even my **** heart
I get a sense of adrenaline when I think of that
And it feels devastatingly great
Jan 2020 · 63
End my pain
Stratus Jan 2020
Put me down like a dog
That's just meant to suffer
For the rest of its short-lived life
Jan 2020 · 55
Untitled
Stratus Jan 2020
I'm so thin and hollow
That I can barely breath
Because the air passes right through me

I wanna spill my ****** guts on the table
For you to know what's on my mind
I don't even know what happened

All I know is that I'm a little more free
But more sad, lonely, and cold
I hate my regrets
Jan 2020 · 62
Who?
Stratus Jan 2020
Who will comfort me now?
He'll come at midnight
Whispering temptations in my ears
and flirting with me

Who will accept me?
He'll take anybody
Of any gender, race, and age

Who will be there with me always?
He'll stalk me every second I breath
Hoping for me to open up to him

Death will gladly take me
As I'll take him
Jan 2020 · 44
Untitled
Stratus Jan 2020
I would love to tear you apart
But something suppresses that feeling
I'm a sadist but I'm a broken soul too
I wanna give you a chance
But I don't know what you're doing
With those words sputtering out your mouth
I'm cold-blooded and I could care less about love
But you were an exception
You were something special and beautiful
So different but similar like the rest
Now you're a mess
And I don't know who you are anymore
Jan 2020 · 48
Untitled
Stratus Jan 2020
I've been so patient with you
But I can't take your mentality anymore
I'm feeling nothing at all now
Not even your love at this moment
I feel like I should just **** you
I sparred you the last time
And I don't want to be nice
Jan 2020 · 62
A Dream
Stratus Jan 2020
You're a dream
A bittersweet dream
Soon to be demolished by Reality
Jan 2020 · 54
A Poem for the Past
Stratus Jan 2020
I'm feeling so cold and alone
Drifting from one spot to another
I feel so disgusting and pitied
I hate the judgment and stupidity in the air
I wish I could just disappear
I feel chained to life as I must suffer
But thoughts of you make me smile
I feel peace and purpose when you're around
All I want to do is be in your arms
And to share your love, warmth, and bed
Jan 2020 · 57
Paths
Stratus Jan 2020
Our paths crossed each other
Then we went one way and held on
We've gotten so close now
I want to keep walking on this path with you
But I see a fork in the distance
It worries me on where you will go next
You might just turn left and leave me alone
We've seen so much between our intertwined existence
I want to see where our path leads us
But hopefully not a dead end
Jan 2020 · 48
Lost
Stratus Jan 2020
I'm shaking cold and I'm so alone without you
I'm wandering through this dark thick forest
I want to find a way out but the light may burn me
Whisper in my ears where I should go
Lead me out or lead me into a trap
I'd still listen to you
I just want to be in your arms safe and sound
I'm so numb that it almost feels good
I can't feel sad or content
I just want to escape this lonesomeness
I don't want to be hurt or hurt you
But I'd rather be sacrificed by you
Jan 2020 · 79
Shoot me
Stratus Jan 2020
Shoot me down all you want
I was fearful before but I forgot something
That I'll just be revived every time that you do
It hurts like hell but I won't run from you
But if you **** me harshly
Then I might be revived but without a heart
I won't have mercy on you then
But look at you now
You're a mess
and so am I
Jan 2020 · 51
Death Row
Stratus Jan 2020
I'm in chains and shackles
And I'm on death row
I won't escape your judgment
I don't fear death but I'm terrified of losing you
Now I'm lying face down and blindfolded on a guillotine  
Will you behead me and my dreams and future?
Or will you let me live on and flourish in your love?
Jan 2020 · 46
Untitled
Stratus Jan 2020
Just say the words
And you'll be safe from me
I'll walk alone once again
I tried but maybe not hard enough
Are you even here anymore?
My eyes began to go blind
And my sense of touch goes numb
Just go and be happy
Just do what you want
I rather die than wait for eternity all for nothing
My heart will always have a place just for you
But if you leave then I'll be left with a gaping hole in my heart
Jan 2020 · 50
Untitled
Stratus Jan 2020
When I say I'm anxious or frightened it is an understatement
Because I'm truly terrified to death
I'm shaking and shivering but would you care?
My head may just fade as I crumple into a ball
I feel like my heart might explode out of fear
I'm not sure anymore maybe I should go idk
This passion still lingers for you
But now I'm terrified and hoping to die
I just want this pain and chaos to end
Heaven or Hell I'm not sure if I could care less anymore
Jan 2020 · 73
Scared
Stratus Jan 2020
I'm so scared
I know what may be coming
And it isn't pretty
I just want to crash already
And burn up into smoke and flames
Jan 2020 · 51
Rain
Stratus Jan 2020
I won't fight you
If you want to take a U-turn
I'll just let the rain pelt down
Freezing me until it burns
Everything moves on and maybe you will too
I'll just disappear into the past
Jan 2020 · 46
Tired
Stratus Jan 2020
I'm drifting off again
I feel so tired of everything
Everything except you
I feel you in my dreams
You're never out of my head
You nourish me so well and our flame keeps growing
I'm feeling so drowsy and weak
All I want is to vibe with you
Hold you, hug you, and kiss you in the still silence
I want you to suffocate in my love
Let's just hold on to each other
While we dream
Jan 2020 · 54
You
Stratus Jan 2020
You
You are the only thing that really matters
I stay alive just for you even in my terrible life
You give me so much and more that I could've asked for
Love, genuinity, loyalty, devotion, care and oh I could I go on and on
You are my purpose now and I hope that it stays like that forever
All I need is You and your love in my life
I hope this journey never ends
Jan 2020 · 50
Unhappy
Stratus Jan 2020
You ask why I look unhappy
But I'll never tell you the **** truth
Because you make me suffer
I get treated like a slave

Always forced to work while no reward
Not even a "thank you" but that'll never be good enough
I smile around you so you won't bother me anymore
You always punish me whenever I get down
But I can't control weather I'm sad or not

I feel so loveless and powerless
All I want is peace and love from the one I can trust
It's so pathetic that my own parents can't even love me right
All they do is yell at me and never try to understand me or listen
They've cornered me on the edge of a cliff but they cant see that
The wind is so harsh and frigid that it only temps me more to die
I'm so tired of this suffering that maybe I should just jump
Just remember that peace and love was all I ever wanted
But maybe it's too much to be asked for
Jan 2020 · 48
If I died....
Stratus Jan 2020
If I died would you cry out of sadness or joy?
If I died would you even care?
If I died would you blame yourself? or blame me?
If I died would you pay your respects?
If I died would you regret your decisions?
If I died would you hope for the worst or best of my soul?

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