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293 · Jun 2017
A Cycle
All the **** that I said
about how ****** up your heart is
now seems to be stripped off
lying on the bedroom floor

And the clock on your wall
is tic-talking to me now
tail dancing to secrets
its cat eyes motion to the door

But your head on my chest
weighs me down like an anchor
keeps me under the lighthouse
drowning just off the shore

And the worst of it is
you know exactly what you're doing
and you know what it takes
to have me crawl back for more
273 · Jun 2013
The Difference
"In 2 years
I'll regret the things we never did
You will regret the ones we've already done"

She was right
250 · Sep 2017
Regular Somewhere
I want to walk in
bartender gives me a smile
She says, 'hey how's it been?'
And then we talk for a while

She pours me a drink
asks, 'what'll it be?'
'Oh just the regular,
but with a side of green beans'
---
I wanna be a regular somewhere
It's something I'd like to be
A familiar face, man
Comin' in off the streets
---
And now my car's close to empty
And I need to grab milk
So I'll buy half a gallon
And give her a fill

'Back for dairy again, huh?
It'll be two fifty-nine'
'Plus I need some regular gas
Here's twenty this time'
---
I wanna be a regular somewhere
Somewhere where they know me
They give me **** for my habits
And for driving a red SUV
---
Now I pull in the drive way
And I walk through the door
I take a look at the clock
Already ten fifty-four

I make my way to the bedroom
Trying not to wake her from sleep
I lay in my regular spot
And she puts her arms around me
---
I wanna be a regular somewhere
It's something that I've yet to be
'Cause I don't know if you know this -
Sometimes I'm even irregular to me
Thoughts about how dynamic my life is, and how tired I'm getting of it now that I'm getting older
If we're all stars then I want to be a super nova
Not just another white dwarf
I want to be big and bright and expansive
And I want to bring everything my warmth
I don't want to be close to imploding
At least not ever again
I want to give life and shine and my heat
To everyone I can
But what happens when two stars collide
I don't know if you know-
They either **** each other quickly
Or come together to grow
And while I never want to collapse at all
At least not any time near soon
I tell myself I'll get close to another star again
And take a chance to see if we're immune
To see if we could shoot across the sky
Right past other lonely stars so far away
Reaching new galaxies and planets
Turning night cycles to day
But that's only in perfect circumstances
Where I find a perfect matching soul
Because the other truth - the other option
is that we'd both become black holes

The truth is I'm afraid.
Coming to terms with the realization that bettering my life by gaining a real adult career,  focusing on bettering my health, and trying to be a more respectable, happier person overall isn't fixing my fear of commitment and love like I thought it would.
121 · Jul 2020
Go
Go
Growing up has taught me
The kind of man I’m meant to be
I’m not happy when I’m succeeding
and I’m not pretty

Keep your distance
Keep your distance
Keep your distance
From me

I still haven’t figured things out
I doubt that I ever will be
peaceful, coming to terms with that
Makes me feel more free

Keep your distance from me

I used to write of a man lost at sea
Of a mountain man
Of things I’d like to think
I could strive to be

Keep
Keep
Keep your distance from me

I’m drowning on solid ground
Burning and crashing
Surrounded by a thriving town
Burning and crashing
By friends who would never let me down

Keep your distance from me

Please
Oh please
Just give me peace
Covid, losing my job, being comfortable with losing my job, not being comfortable with being comfortable.... it makes a dude write, I guess

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