In the duration
Of whatever we had
I only spoke of truth
From start till end

When I first said those words
Three words, fragile yet strong
When I said I'll stand by you
Whether right, lost, or wrong
When I said that I want you
Want you to be my future
When I said I forgive you
Regardless of all the torture
When I said I'll handle the pain
That I'll be strong enough for us
That we'll make it, endure it all
That we'll bet no matter the cost
When I said I'm willing to fight
To fight for us against all odds
That I won't let go that easily
I meant everything, real not frauds
You were so difficult to love
Lovable and oh so painful
For my first fluttering heart
And heartache, I am thankful

From the first I love you
That you've heard
And every thing in between
I meant every word
.
Then I lied
A lie to end the truth
A lie to release what's true
.
In the duration
Of whatever we had
I only spoke of truth
And told one lie

When I said I no longer love you
When I changed "love" to" loved"
When I bid a tearless goodbye
What I meant was I've had enough
When I said I no longer love you
I idiotically and honestly still do
But the truth that I couldn't say is
I no longer can nor do I want to

In the duration
Of whatever we had
I lied once
A lie to save myself

I took for granted
Something i once knew
A world of color, a mixture
Of beautiful shades and hues

I realize now how pretty it was
A world of color, now fading
Slowly being engulfed by gray
Water washing away its meaning

Everything is black and white now
Lifeless but easier to understand
I ran, panting, desperate for air
Exhausted and unable to stand

Winded, unable to pace myself
Frantically chasing, there it stood
Trying to hold it with my hand
I extended my arm as far as i could

Still not within my reach
I desperately move onward
Taking every step in the hope
Of finally reaping that reward

If roles were switched
It might even look funny
But it wasn't, so here I am
Smirking and laughing at me

Trying to breathe once more
I realized it way too late
That the world of color I love
Was something that I used to hate

That all I've been desperately chasing
Was a scenery beautifully unfinished
On a washed up battered canvas
Of lines previously drawn and cherished

Of the colors and hues painted once
Afterimages, of the picture we used to make
That I kept reminiscing in my dreams
And kept haunting me while I'm awake

You cradled me in your arms
Cuddling the moon away
With each ticking second gone
This is where I'd love to stay

You gave me your eyes
Your un-faltered gaze
The usual you
Vanquishing worries of my days

Messing up your weave
I played with your hair
You were just staring
Silently sitting there

Comfortable but still heavy
A moment of silence...
Lost all control, broke the breaks
Followed by a moment of weakness

You were my favorite kiss
I've felt the warmness from you
The softest I've ever encountered
The hardest to say goodbye to

Everyone held me in the same manner
Holding me with force and desperation
Held me as if begging me to stay
Clutching me without care nor consideration

Your hands were different
You were piecing my soul together
You held me unlike those before you
You held me in a way I've only now encountered

I've felt like the most fragile being
The most important glass in the universe
You were careful and gentle with force
As if frightened that I'd shatter

But you still tried so ever to hold me
In your hands, to keep me with you
For the longest time you possibly could
For the longest that time allowed you to

We could never be and we both knew
As we exchanged laughter, painful smiles
Inexplainable looks and unforgettable gazes
We did something wrong that felt right for a while

A bid of farewell
Exchanging apologies
I encrypted behind my smile
Words which you'll never hear from me

Words unheard but undoubtedly felt
Despite of your warnings, we both knew
Regardless of the distance you tried to maintain
I still carelessly fell for you

You are my favorite kiss
Twas the most wonderful
I've ever felt in a long time
Yet, the most painful

Ending without a beginning
Overwhelmed by what ifs that I'll never forget
With your back turned towards me
You became this favorite mistake that I'll never regret