I.
Terrified
of the hours
between myself and tomorrow
terrified
of the time
I'll spend
tomorrow

II.
And when you say we don't need superheros.
This is precisely
what we need them for.

III.
Let me hang
onto your hand
lest I should
fall

I.
He fell for a woman called
Fate

II.
But his wing-man
was Coincidence.

I.
We need
heroes.

II.
I do not believe in
the kind of heroes
that I want to believe in,
that I want to be.

III.
I would like
to carry a shield
a sword
a gun
I would like to become a fighter
when I got angry
I would like to be
genetically messed with
to be strong and fast.

IV.
You know
every book you ever read
they say it's not the strength
it's the honest
love
good
morals.

V.
Where would those
be
without the force
behind them.

VI.
Make me into a superhero,
and then
I can be good
because I'll
have to be.

I.
I don't know you anymore
I don't know your friends
or your place.

II.
I missed
forgot
stopped saying hello when we passed
on the street.

III.
I heard
there was a man
and he was your father.

IV.
I heard his heart
gave up on him
only forty-eight
and gone in a flash.

V.
It's not beautiful,
and we're not heroes.

VI.
And now I regret leaving you
you must have others to turn to but
look what I've done.

VII.
It hurts for you in my chest,
It goes still for you in my mind.

VIII.
But you'll never
accept help from me
not now
because you don't know me
anymore.

I.
And her therapist said
A++ diagnosis
on my part when she told her
I'd done my own research.

II.
What had I said? I said
Trauma
Depression
Social anxiety
I don't want
my diagnosis to be correct

III.
Please
tell me something good
can come of this

IV.
Tell me
you can fix her
because I can't fix a thing
and it's the worst
thing I've ever done
to watch her
fall apart

I.
You wanted to assume
and you still do
you say
that because I can't
live the way
you want me to
I'm wrong.

II.
It is
impossible,
I would
die
I hope you
understand.

III.
Compared me to
a ******
a thief
a torturer
simply because
I couldn't eat how you wished.

IV.
It's ridiculous
how you
go about things.
Assumptions
Assumptions
Assumptions
And where did that ever get you?
Except a handful of
broken bones.

I.
Of all the pieces I want to be
I never dream of being
the whole puzzle.

II.
Is that
wrong?