I.
All the way from Spain,
the best letter I've ever been written.

II.
I am
amazed
by the sudden spilling of things.

III.
I want
to travel the world
with anyone who
will come.

IV.
I want
to live.

I.
If only
she could love the body she's in
as much as
I do.

I.
I lost
the painting
in the paint.

II.
All over
my canvas
were supposed to be
splatters that made
a
scene.

III.
Look now what I have.
Neither a scene,
not anything else.

IV.
Merely
a set
of splatters.

I.
We were
like ships that pass
in literature.

II.
You and I
we danced
for three years
that felt like a night.

III.
I never loved you,
because I
never loved a man.

IV.
My one regret
in being
who I am today
is I can't be who I am
and still be friends
with you.

V.
Slept light
listened to
that singer
bet you didn't know he was
gay.

VI.
Bet you didn't
know I was
either.

VII.
Remember when
it was flirting
and lies from both ends
but we were so happy
because we knew
what was lies
and what was truth?

VIII.
You
wouldn't
remember
would
you.

IX.
Talk to me about
school.
Not there
for copying the math
am I?
Is that
hard
for
you?

X.
Do you
miss me?

I.
To look at me
you'd think
I was a model.

II.
How many times
has a girl
said "I'm
jealous of your perfect waist
your hips
the way your ribs all show."

III.
Don't be jealous,
be thankful
it's not you.

IV.
I am
beautiful
in the right
that I am sick.

V.
I have no
weight on my bones
because my stomach
cannot make it stick.

VI.
Don't wish you
were like me.
As much as you want my shape
you do not want
my body.

I.
She thrashes
against the sides of her
stomach
arms
legs.

II.
She is as beautiful as
the night
the day
the dawn
the sun
and moon
all in one
and yet
she hides away.

I.
Look at
them all

II.
I knew them
as children
we were all in the woods
I thought
they are so much more then I
am

III.
I figured
they would always be
so important
so much

IV.
And they are
but they
are no longer happy

V.
I wanted to see them
in six years
I wanted to see how happy they would be

VI.
Six years
and look
lungs full of smoke
wrists covered in scars

VII.
I'm
worried
about
you.