I cannot feel guilty for having free will, free thought,
having the right to live, the right to stand my ground,
having the right to speak out about the worlds animosities,
Cause free will and thought, is now just modern atrocities,
Demoralizing, analyzing, patronizing, wake up and see,
the false symbolizing and socializing,

Call me racist, cause I don't agree with the BLM movement,
even thought I stated that I agree with the segment of the movement,
just don't agree with the organization behind it and your own actions,
Okay, you scream Black lives matter, Police brutality and to end Systemic racism,
But only focusing on the police, where the focus upon,
Education system, Work systems, Health care system,
Go ahead and tell me where was the riots,
For the police brutality from 2015 - 2019..
Why was it different to get social media and news coverage for the deaths of,
Michael Brown that kicked off the movement,
What happened to the deaths in 2015, 2016, 2017, 2018, 2019. where was the coverage
then we heard all the names from the victims after Michael,
When it was time for George Floyd to be covered, that just 2020.

Call me homophobic, that am against the LGBTQ Plus Community,
Just cause I don't share the same views or stand in a fight with you,
Against homophobic even if it more towards religion,
Call me homophobic, because you see my views that damning,
yet proving that hatred behaviour works both ways,
It funny that I don't stand and scream "How can I be homophobic",
Am pretty sure that I dated equal amount of men and women,
so why should I hate the whole community, why should I have to hate,
Religion and straights, when you commend everyone the same,
That if you don't stand with our cause, we will ruin your life,
Maybe that I see that it not everyone or all to blame,
That am accepting of free will and free thought,
that am more welcoming to the view and opinions,
even if they hurt or offend,
What happens if we switch the tables,
Cause it so clear that the world is okay to be,
Free thinkers and believe in Free will,
If everyone beliefs and views aligned with everyone else, worldwide,
So here the switch up, Let see shall we....

Look what if that slavery was just white oppression,
That the slave owners were just blacks,
What if that white people were killed by police brutality,
News headline read as " Black cop murders unarmed white guy".
What if that Homosexuality was the new religious,
where most of the gays were the catholic paedophiles,
Come here alter boys and girls, please me, shhh don't tell your mothers or your father's.
What happen if Catholics, Christians, straights, was the full on homosexuality,
and the bible was saying that gay's and bisexual person were always the sinners,
Look maybe the ****'s are not as bad as history tell us,
Maybe the 6 millions Jews just committing suicide,
Even that Jesus will come back and punish all the sinner,
Leaving the true believers, saving half of them, as the winner,
Maybe that Donald Trump was sounding racist,
Maybe that he was just trying his best,
Maybe that Boris Johnson is stupid,
But he the best hope for Britain.

Waking up feeling fresh, pills on the side,
Taking all of my strength not to pop them,
Man, I hope this feeling stays, been to hell and back,
too scared to make plans today,
s.h.i.t, am surprised even if my family and friends, know where I am,
It getting too hard to breathe, too hard to think straight,
with all the stuff running a million miles inside my head,
Scars on my legs and my body, a story of the past,
scars forever to last, sometimes, Maybe I am better dead,
People scream, ******* Open up, Open up Like a book,
Then when I do, they all scream shut the hell up, it all about you,
Stare in the mirror and take a ******* hard look,
Thinking about why do they want me to be open, to close me down,
when all I do is sit and listen and help them,
Am I selfish or am I Narcissistic,
Maybe I need him, Maybe I want to be in him,
Maybe it is hard for me to speak,
Never speaking with anyone who seen him,
Asking and double question myself,
Should I start to redeem stuff I done,
So when I am gone, I can meet him,
Should I believe in God, Should I believe in Lucifer,
Should I believe in Mother Nature,
When I see nothing but hatred and humanity comes the executioner,
Should I become the crucifer, or become more of the newcomer,
Ran away from all the labels and chains they tried to bound me with,
Maybe I wasn't made for the nine to fives or the education system,
Maybe I was too F.u.cked up from the moment I was birthed,
Maybe I was too F.u.cked up to cope or maybe am cursed,
They tell me the drugs I need to stay sane,
sometimes, They refused and make me more insane,
I know they are prescripted but they help better,
Than the self medication drugs of the past,
Where paranoia and voices came way too fast,
Maybe am too F.u.cked up that I don't care,
Maybe am too far gone that all the truth stays in sight,
Maybe am too F.u.cked up that even the World's lies, flies,
Maybe am too F.u.cked up that everything I read and see,
My mind states the truth,
Maybe my mind makes me an racist,
Maybe my mind makes me an Feminist,
Maybe my mind makes me an Antifeminist,
Maybe my mind makes me an Communist,
Maybe my mind makes me an socialist,
Maybe my mind makes me an Fascist,
Maybe my mind makes me an conversationist,
Maybe my mind makes me an colonizationist,
Maybe my mind makes me an preservationist,
Maybe my mind makes me an conventionalist,
Maybe my mind makes me an Abortionist,
Maybe my mind makes me an Antiabortionist,
Maybe my mind makes me an Pyschiatrist,
Maybe my mind makes me an Nonpyschiatrist,
Maybe my mind makes me an Intellectualist,
Maybe my mind makes me an experimentalist,
Maybe my mind makes me an obstructionist,
Maybe my mind makes me an segregationist,
Maybe my mind makes me an integrationist,
Maybe my mind makes me an Cooperationist,
Maybe my mind is too f.u.cked that It everything,
Where it see nothing but the both side of each story,
All the lies, all the hate, and all the truth,
Maybe my mind loves to self debate,
Reform and reshaped the views and opinions,
to make others screams and cry like onions,
Maybe Am too mess up to say "I wish",
That I could change and not be who I am,
but then that going against everyone who screams,
Be proud of who you are, stay true to yourself,
Maybe, it those who scream be proud and stay true to yourself,
are those who are way to easy to offend and tick off,
and unable to handle the ******* truth,
unable to handle the honest from those who value,
Demanding and screaming handle because it shallow.

Welcome the hangman noose,
Where in 2020, if you loose,
You hang and in the firing line,
Only if you disagree with my offensive whine,
But you are safe if you agree with me,
And not decline.

Welcome to the hangman noose,
Where in 2020, it a game some of you will loose,
If you come at us with the truth,
We will cry and tie the knots in disgust,
We can cry, we lies to be happy,
So if you bring truth, I guess necks going to get flappy.

Welcome to the hangman noose,
2020, the game I going to loose,
Disagreement is my plan against lies,
Waiting for the truth to come in flies,
Going to be like the next victim,
Of the Japanese seas of trees,
The person hung up, kicked in,
Hung to keep the lies running free.

In the mist of the morning sun,
where the Winter, where water's run,
where the fog lifts and the dew shines,
Where birds sing and wildlife signs,
Where exercise is keeping to the guidelines,
whether it is Coronavirus or Tuberculosis Bovine,
from a coughing person or a coughing cattle,
or sat at home watching the news channel,
or staring out of the window at the skyline.

In the mist of the morning sun,
Where the spring. Where the Flower Bloom,
Where the birds sing and Wildlife Assume,
Where Exercising is keeping to the guidelines,
Whether it is Coronavirus or Swine Flu,
hearing the Cuck-coo, hearing the shrews,
From Coughing person or sneezing pigs,
Seeing the graves being dug, hearing the snapping of the twigs.

In the mist of the morning sun,
Where the summer, where the early morning come,
Where the birds sing and wildlife run,
Where the summer holidays have begun,
Water gun or favourite son,
Where exercising is keeping to the guidelines,
Whether it is Coronavirus or Chikungunya Virus,
Or Children and Adults suffering from retrovirus,
or just a plain old summer Myxovirus.

In the mist of the morning sun,
Where the Autumn comes, where the early morns dawn,
where the cold air comes and bonfire night drawn.
Where exercising is keeping to the guidelines,
Whether it is Coronavirus or a basic streptococcus infection,
worried about the doctors finding a coronavirus connection,
worried about family and friends disconnection,
Rejection, subjection, protection, deflection,
Injection, ****** anteflexion, disinfection,
Imperfection, Caesarean section, General election.

Every virus and disease, All started as novel,
In the start Killed hundred's, thousands even millions,
As much as a novel virus/disease pandemic feels awful,
Government seem to be unlawful,
Mother Earth might be going Menopausal,
Humanity has become so hostile,
If you think novel then your wrongful.

In the winter wonderland,
a figure that stands,
Deep in the woods,
Behind the tallest tree,
Howls of the wolves, Hollywood,
running and roaming free,
Humanity destroying,
Armies are deploying,
Humanity is annoying,
Children are toying,
Drugs are supplying,
Falls within employment,
Life is not voiding,
Mother Nature left crying,

Sleep is declining,
Nightmares always frightening,
Dreams are so long behind me,
Sometimes I still see, Still feel,
Knowing fate will seal,
Love, happiness, life still steal,
Yes, I love to laugh always clowning,
Pretending and hiding truth which is frowning,
So go ahead, tell me I am too blame,
That my whole life style is too lame,
Friends, Family, maybe true love put out the flame,

Sleep is declining,
Nightmare forever frightening,
Dreams never find me,
Razors blades, veins are split,
Hand in a fist, temper fit,
Hospitals and xrays,
Wanting to be on morgue trays,
Maybe, dreamt a liitle to big,
Charts and goals, Am too thick,
Maybe, everyone right, maybe am just a D*ck,
Maybe, they were right,
Maybe, they were wrong,
Maybe, I am nothing,
Wishing Goodnight.

All you do is nag,
All you do is nag,
Shut the * up, hag,
Where that * gun,
Watch this, this will be fun,
Like a self timer hand gun,
Finger in the trigger,
Will you reach me,
Before I press down, finger,

It like russian roulette,
One bullet, one hole,
One barrel,
It like russian roulette,
One bullet, one hole,
6 turns, gunshot fun.

Scream what happen to you,
Was everything to do with me,
Cheat on me, stay with me,
Play my heart, sting like a bee,
Scream that it's all down to me,
That you love me, want me,
That you want to marry me,

It like russian roulette,
One bullet, one hole,
One barrel,
It like russian roulette,
One bullet, one hole,
6 turns, gunshot fun.

Wake up on the morning,
Note saying find me,
Down stairs, on the sofa,
Blood stained floor,
Wrist are Slash, Guns N' Roses Dash,
Sweet Michelle, Rocket Queen,
Freddie mercury, death scene