19/Transmasculine/Australia I write poetry, to try to soothe the ache, and it doesn't work. It is odd that the character in my poems, the 'you' I write about, is made up. I cannot think of a single person in my life which is them, I believe they are not real. 16 followers / 12.6k words
I pour the contents of my heart's whim onto paper it shrivels with fear beating like the chittering teeth of a freezing Eskimo I poke it, ever cautious, with a long pointed stick It shudders flinches jumps five whole feet as if struck by lightning I decide to replace the poor hairy beast opening up my chest, reconnecting all the loose wires, and closing the whiny mechanical door. The hinges squeal like hungry piglets I burp, and say, "Ah, s'just heartburn."
Jammed like the last clean place in the dishwasher like the ugly foot on your war-paint totem pole like the mollusc meets mantelpiece decoration stuck on your windowsill Snow drifts as fine as the combed hair on your head sweeter than sugar more damning than dandruff as hard as the head of a coconut which you hit, again and again, with the **** end of a hammer Bang. Bang. Bang.
The sound jars on the off beat sounds like mars meets penguin feet but you dance caught in the headlights in the sway you're your own one man James Bond villain and you love to watch the spotlight flicker to dusk and the end credits to roll with that tune, stuck jammed twisted like the rusty end of a bagel knife into the rusty end of your brain case
Ba dum dum, ba dum dum feel it in your feet
ba dum dum, ba dum dum we'll never know when we might again meet.
indefatigable they say there is a wall tall and strong with thrall and throng and every single being who breathes and beats the breast of Mother Earth will hit this wall and they say voices reaching crescendo strangling clinging notes of condensation that the wall is just a pounding fist away that your hand, bleeding and bruised, black and blue and all the colours of the rainbow needs NEEDS to pass through this wall and emerge in genesis a new born being from the slippery tunnel of a brick womb hair crusted with clay eyes closed with brimstone mouth choked with dust
what they never told me was how many bones were broken in building that wall how many bodies we buried beneath the gravestone of our wall how many bonfires lashed out how many beatings we took clambering over digging under pounding through how many fingers I cracked in my wrist a shattered screaming withered skeleton begging soundlessly for the wall to let me in