Alex Apr 21
an event.
"that went well" i think
an embarrassing line here or there
but overall its pretty clear
i didnt do bad
no need to despair.

24 hours
is all that it takes
for thoughts to wind themselves as snakes

a fool.
annoying, ******
****, unwanted, bore
whirlwind mind I can't ignore

examine each blurred sentence
each offstep
every forgotten word
or errant laugh

maybe ill hide
face unseen
its quite obvious
I wasn't wanted here
must be pity
regret for each there.

24 hours
thats all it takes
to go from content
to this inner torment
April 16 /2018 --- Social interactioin is hard.. I wish I could enjoy it without hating myself to **** and back afterwatds
Alex Apr 16
how, I ask
do I care so deeply
so intensely
and yet, am incapable
of the simple act
we call

falling in love.
A bit from a larger poem. I can't seem to work the poem out to a place I'm satisfied. But I kind of like this bit by itself? At least for now

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