Living through events
Interaction with people
Leaving an impression
Facts and events internalised

One of its kind
Unlike anything before
Daily occorunce in the universe
Similar to none

Experience to handle Uniqueness
Bottle doesn't fit the cap
How to handle events
That are one of a kind

Deja Vu is an
Anomaly of a memory
Sense of recollection
No place in the bandwagon

On the lines of
The best one can make use of
Nearest thing to experience
Needs to explored with extrapolation

Use of machines
Driving a vehicle
Playing a Sport
Handling a portfolio

Same thing different day
Closest one can get
Repair Accident and loss
Reject this theory across

Deal it day by day
Treat it as the first day
One  day till another day
Only day on that day

Keeps you aware
Handle with care
No baggage carried
Situation handled by merit

Predicting the consequence
Consequence other end of action
Action debuted today
Consequence predicting far away

First time for everything
Only time for everything
First time is the only time
Second time makes time static

Handling any affair
Answer in the question
Awareness the key
Emptiness the procedure

Went to a tea shop
Mother admitted in a hospital
Femur bone fracture
Both next to each other

Studied in a college
Down this lane
Visited the same shop but
Dreams weren't the same

A boy in his teens
Wanting to achieve very high
No idea otherwise
If only i had been wise

Talking for hours
Friends on bikes
Leaning on them
Future the conversation

Twenty years thereafter
Many a zig zag turns later
Worked for a Television company
Surrounding similar Dreams changed

Outside the shop
Talking with friends on bikes
Shop the same
Bike and friends changed

Last stop i thought
The place to work for
Dreamt of a future
Yet to mature

Another twenty hence
Down the same lane
Entirely different reason
Outside the same shop same reason

Down the lane
College Work and Hospital lay
Down life's lane
Seems to be the same lane

Reflection has an advantage
There is no scope for disappointment
Looking back at the dreams
The place says where i have been

Dare i dream again
In my sleep not in my hands
Dreaming of an event happening
Voluntarily I wouldn't dream

Lane travelled the same
Distance covered miles and miles
Back to the lane took 20 years
Returning took another 20

Times have changed
This too shall pass
Heard it then
Say it now

Next trip here
I'm not sure
Sure I'm not sure
Greatest lesson learnt in all these years

Everything looks different
Unrecognisable the streets and buildings
Barely a soul in sight
All sold today for a price

You remain in my thoughts
Day and night
Want to say
Don't know the way
There is only one way
My fear stands in the way
Honest expression is not a sin
But feeling guilty within
Fear of rejection parading my heart
If you don't respond what will I retort
If you do and my pessimism comes true
Can't handle it at all
Not tell you
Leave it vague
There is a pleasure in it
Finding sadness in a likeable frame
Or regret not telling you rest of the way
I don't know the answer yet
Push comes to shove i don't have the guts
Part of me tells me
You don't have to reciprocate
My feelings are enough
Remaining within me
Churning and grinding to heart's content
Preparing to tell you
Gives me an agenda
To try vicariously the styles i could convey my thoughts
Best option yet
Will not keep me satisfied
A Dreamlands picturesque
Image projected
If you would confess what you have
Never happens in reality
Doesn't mean i can't dream
Makes the truth harder
When fantasy seizes
Plethora of emotions
Could be ended by a single line
Is there a time
Called the right time
Time will tell if you are a passion
Or just an infatuation

Staying positive hoping
The outcome will be welcome
Being negative without faith
The outcome if going to be filled with problems
State of mind either way
Will the final result change
Better frame of mind
For us to be in
Vibe spreading has value
One better than the other  is construed
Best is to stay neutral
Not for not against
Thus remaining non judgemental
The results them don't bother us
As both sides we are prepared for any result

Is there a god
Is he sitting in heaven
Is he all pervading force
Is he the nature itself
Is he inside us
Why cannot he be all
Why can't he sit in heaven
Guiding us with his spirit
Watching us delivering on merit
Be the supernatural force
That makes sure to enforce
The balance in this universe
Why can't he be inside of us
For us to realise that he's everywhere
Why limit a limitless god
Why define a god who can't be defined
Why give him a place
When all that's is is his
Why divide him
When he is one
Taking many forms
Being the One
He does not want to
Disturb your senses
Making you doubt him
Not realising that the doubt is also him and he is beyond any doubt
You are only doubting yourself
Not a matter of faith or hope
But the plain simple truth
For all to know
How many more indications will he show
When he need not
Bow to our wishes
Vice versa the world is perfect

Why is that
Every fear
That  i fear
A feeling of threat
Danger and harm
Has a funny way
Of coming true
Anticipation of unpleasant
Situations
Due to valid reason
Or a gut triggered emotion
Never escaped even one
Hunted me down every time

Lacking the guts
To face the fuss
A coward i was
Step aside because
Timid and weak
In my heart

Brought it forward
I was the same
As long as i remember
First few years didn't help either

Waves of anxiety
Top gear to my heart beating faster
Trembling of the legs
Stuttering of the mouth


Anger deep inside
Inability to express
Buckling in distress
Act of cowardice

Everything under the sun
Being hurt physically
Mind played with psychologically
Made fun of publicly
Bullied with savagery

Feared these forever
How they existed
I  am not sure
Spent my life looking for a cure

Wanted to be popular
Dug myself a grave 6 feet under
Trying to please everybody
Could see through me easily

A major school event
Had a problem with a fellow student
Boycotted the event
Realised nobody missed even my name

Bullied by the Vice Principal
Was also a table tennis coach
I too was a player
He treated me like a joker

Jokes at my expense
Was a daily occurence
School sport or neighborhood
Played by others like a fool

Feared a teacher
Hoping she not be my tutor
Murphy law at play
She made me regret everyday

Wanted to change
My so far image
Tried hard in college
Only to minimal effect


Studying in America
A childhood dream
Feared the visa interview
Greeted a lady officer as " Sir " out of pure fear

Rejected time and again
Angst never could contain
Wrong impression given
Get ready to face rejection

Feared of not having friends
Was ok on that end
Still struggling on that front
A good friend yet to gain

Fear of loneliness
Covering my heart with darkness
Almost reached there
Fear has taken aim at that

Wanted to avoid
Lead a life devoid
Of Bullying  and despair
One. Thing to be proud I'm rare

Afraid that I'd be.
Without a family
So it was to be
Alone and lonely

Wanted to be on par
With family and friends.
Whenever with them
Can feel the difference

Working in the markets
Got blamed for an error i did not falter
Took a year to.
Come out in the clear

The divorce proceedings
In an ugly hearing
Esteem all time low
Can't go further below

Why did i fear
What was the trigger
The mess between my ears
Took   decades to recover

This is a recall
Of events in the past
Following Bruce Lee and his philosophy
Given me the courage to face fear face to face

Educated and foolish
Illetterate and Wise
Need not be the case
Staring at life face to face
One must have insight
Ability to discriminate
Find his true place
Or else blame fate
Wisdom the ability
Understanding the reasons
Of past frailty
Merged within consciously
To be appropriately used when the past repeats itself repeatedly
Albeit not identical
Ability to handle
Far more rational
No left over
Start a clean slate
Ability to educate
Using the past as a template
Never fooled again
Nothing to do with the other
But next time he deals you better
Wisdom had the power
To send the message
That the learning has started
Lessons being learnt
Mistakes never repeated
Badly never treated