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Brandon Caldwell Nov 2017
Anger
Sadness
Rage
A fire that lights under you like a match to a piece of paper

Correct
Wrong
Right
Harping on you everyday for something you’ve done wrong in your life

Dreams
Reality
Nightmares
What is real and what isn’t

Nerves
Confidence
Stress
Did I do Great or Terrible

These are the things I feel on a daily basis
Thinking that I am not going to live up to what is expected of me
I always say I am trying my best
But it’s not good enough for the Devil that lives inside of me

Im supposed to be a straight A student
But sometimes I fall off of the mark
I get the occasional C and the Devil pops up
Harping on me about what I have done wrong

I try to explain I am doing my best
But the little devil that lives inside of me sets ablaze
Yelling and screaming yet I can’t help but to cry
Showing too much emotion everything feels as though I am getting stabbed with a knife

Right in the chest is where it hurts the most
Right in the Heart
The Heart
The only thing that keeps me sane and able to function in this cruel world

A world where it is no longer about what you can do
But a world where expectations are supposed to be a reality
Reality
Something I question a lot

Is it truly there is all of this just happening inside my head
Where that devil pops up and continues to scream and yell
Yell about all of my failure
Failure I cannot change

In the world where the devil lives inside of me
Failure is not an option
Failure is the catalyst that determines what the rest of your life turns out to be
Failure means college or sitting on your **** the rest of your life eating potato chips

But over the years of my pitiful life
There is one thing I have learned
Expectations
Are only expectations
Brandon Caldwell Nov 2017
The cold wind bit against my lips like the first shot of tequilla.

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