Friendship is a ladder
At one point, in yours
I was at the top
A confidant for all your woes

Now i feel you
pushing me down a few steps
Once at the top
Now i feel like I’m just like the rest

I understand we have had our struggles
Our fights and our screams of harsh words
But didn't we overcome that foe?
I could’ve have sworn things were on track
To becoming as they were before

Now i stare at you with an unreadable expression
Wondering how we reached this point of tension
Conversations once filled with love and joy
Are now hollow, lacking warmth and affection

If only there was a way to travel back in time
Take it all back
Restore that effortless Rhyme
However our clock keeps moving forward
Passing time

I feel our once close bond stretching
Our support for each other dwindling
Can we ever bring it back to how it was before?
Or are we destined to live with the distance and the bore

I miss being a comfort for your sorrows
But it seems your heart is under lock and key
Locked away
In fear….. of me

I suppose my past actions
Caused you to exercise caution
But even with the darkness leaking through my bleeding heart
That form of fury would never be directed in your direction

We have had our talks
But it seems we need a stronger form of communication
For even after
The cracks still remain on the walls

But can those walls be repaired
Made brand new, like nothing was ever there
Can we fix our divided hearts..
I beg of you, i want you back
I want this pain to stop

The future lies in your hands, my friend,
To restore what's broken, make amends—
Or leave things shattered on the floor.
There’s only one way this story ends.

I still care about you
I really do
But i feel like I’m fighting
A winless battle

Im trying to be supportive
To respect your wishes and your needs
And you seem to be doing better
Far away from me

I love you
But i can’t be there through another spiral
I tried to help you through the last one
Only for you to shoot the gun

We both have our scars
Both shot bullets in the others way
Im managing just fine with mine
While your still healing from the bruises

Im waiting for your call
Waiting on you to let your guard down
Open up your walls
Just know I’m waiting by the phone
Ready to help you through it all

Trust is a fragile thing
I seem to have lost yours
Yet strangely enough
You also lost mine

Theres this giant red flag
That i cant seem to ignore
Im afraid that letting you back in
Will do more harm than good

Like always, ill ignore my gut
Let you back in
Rebuild that trust
Hope my decision doesn’t end in a bomb

I pray this doesn’t blow up in my face
Im ignoring all the warning signs
And people’s stay away
Please be the first to prove my gut wrong
Im not strong enough to handle
Another cut on my arm

You might hate me
If i ever said this to your face
I believe im okay with that
For it appears my words
Tend to stick in your brain

While you sleep at night
I pray your doing better
Praying that your scars are healing
Praying you keep any toxic people at bay

Farewell for now i must say
Hope to see you soon
When your in a better place
Please know
That my door is always open
If you ever need an escape