Laying on the carpet in the living room
You only need a webcam and you're sis..
Spend hours just staring at the screen

Gradually morphing
Slowly transforming
Into the greatest version of yourself
And you feel so high

Cuz you know you're safe
In that moment when both of you are rolling around laughing

Sora
Sky
Empty

Take me to your sanctuary
For I will
Empty out the skies to keep them within my heart

Falling into the dream
That I've fallen asleep to every night
With Kairi falling higher and higher into those emptied clouds
And I pray that there's still enough left to cushion her fall

Tell her that I'm at the station
My train's come to let me replace
And bleed out the skies so that she can fall asleep to the stars again.

With the starfruit brushing the shores safely before
I wanna line the pieces up, yours and mine.

My body is rusted,
Taped, but the tape has lost it's stick
Glued, but it peels more off me off then ever before
Stapled, but they bend off
Burned, but the burn marks tear away
Stitched, and they rip from my body


But maybe you'd be my sticky tape
And my super glue
Along with my strong stapes
You'd be my indestructible staples and stitches

Groove to the music
Too many fish in the sea to miss one
If you caught one, you can catch another one
Breathe air, you're not used to
Tread floors, you don't fall through
Wait for me as long as it takes
If you caught one, you can catch another one

ME: She destroyed me and everything that I held onto. She drove me to suicide so many times and she didn't care. She just kept making my world darker and darker and she didn't stop. I tried suicide last night. I'm alone and I can't keep trying to live. I'm honestly done.
NATALIE: What did she do to you!
ME: She took/turned all my friends, even family against me. She bullied and harassed me. She just destroyed me by doing whatever the Hell she wants to with people's emotions.
NATALIE: Don't **** yourself! I'm sorry, was I part of it?
ME: When you were crushing on Kennedy, on her, I knew you would push me away and you kind of did... You're the only reason why I'm still here today. but I know that if I asked you out, you would say no...
NATALIE: Ali I care and love you..... if you hurt yourself that would hurt me too. If I made you sad I'm sorry, really, really sorry.
ME: I self-harm. Have since I was seven... I'm sorry. now you'll hate me because of it.
NATALIE: I DON'T HATE YOU! NEVER WILL! I don't care about your mistakes
ME: But you and I won't ever end up together. Would we?
NATALIE: Why wouldn't we? When do you move ..
ME: I have no idea when I'm gonna move. I'll be here for 9th grade. You're way too good for me anyways. That's why I thought you and I wouldn't end up being a couple. Am I wrong?
NATALIE: yes
ME: So what are you saying???
NATALIE: I'm not sure. Don't take that the wrong way ..
ME: I already can tell that you are way too beautiful, smart, cute and amazing for me. If I told you I loved you more then anything else in the world, you would be weirded out.
NATALIE: No I wouldn't.
ME: Dude, trust me, I'm never going to be with you, you're just being nice to me.
NATALIE: Shut the **** up. JK. But really...

ME: I'm such a failure Natalie, and then there's you. You;re so ******* perfect in my eyes. You say you don't know because you're afraid of hurting me. I'm so wrecked, you are the only thing that can save me. Not even kidding...
NATALIE: :( I shouldn't be the only reason. Trust me, you'll find someone better then me. More beautiful, a better reason to stay on this earth. Don't leave!! I hope when we're older we meet again and you'll be happy. Don't leave Ali!!
ME: I was right. Tasman, Hannah, YOU. You guys are keeping me here. Besides, nobody will give a **** if I'm gone. I won't find anyone better, you're everything I've been looking for my whole life.
NATALIE: We will care if YOU'RE GONE. ******* it Ali, I care!
ME: But you don't feel the same way back. Am I right?
NATALIE: No you're not right, you're wrong! I love you Ali......
ME: You love me as a friend... right?
NATALIE: Stop asking Ali cause the answer is yes
ME: Wait... yes what???

I'm just lagging behind
in happiness and love
bout ready to hoist my white flag
let depression and gloom win this time
and be forever victorious
let me sink into the soil
or sprinkle me into the nearest water source

just let me sip away into the forgotten category
please
i beg of you

Can you really tell?
Which helping hands are true?,
and which are imposters
Which ones will take your hand when you slip,
and not let go?
Or which ones will be held out but will push you down and pull out of the way when you fall?
Can you really tell?

They're all around,
the fakes and the friends.
The ones who laugh behind you, but smile when you spin around
Or the ones who defend your back and hug you when you turn around
Or how about the ones who laugh at you all the time?
They're the ones to stay.
Can you really tell?

Cause I can tell,
My sister's the real deal.

(I'll always be there to protect you.)

-Tasman

Layin' in bed
Watching the sun slip behind the knolls of grass in the distance
If happy ever after still did exist
I'd still be holding you like this
Laying in bed
Seeing the stars rotate in the darkness
Still stuck in that time we called it love
But even the sun sets in paradise
Layin' in bed
Contemplating all that I gave to you
You stole my nights
And I let you...

Today was going to be the start of a new chapter
That today, I would start from scratch
Today was supposed to be a restart

So many people need saving
And I realized that
I can't save them all
Hell, I can't even save one

If I could take the blades away.
If I could take away the need to use a blade.
If I could steal every little bit of loneliness.
If I could capture all the pain and sorrow.
I would.

So many people need saving,
Hell, I can't even save myself...
So how in the Hell am I supposed to save somebody else.

Reach out a hand,
Talk and smile.
You don't know how much it might mean.
Save somebody
Revive a lifeless spirit.
Because so many people need saving.

Hide me in your curves to show me on your chest
Fold me within your arms and say 'I love you' in a breath.
Watch me paint the night from the words you said
making the patch of lawn a temporary bed

To kiss is to express and to look is to dive-
into the deep end of the ocean blue eyes of your love I've been deprived.
Caress my smile and feel my racing beat
Each night I am only yours, my demons you did defeat.
So with your lips tasting of goodnight
let's crash together after the fireflies dim their lights.

Teach me, reach, for my hand
Preach in the darkness as you show me your land
This is bad rhyme but look at the time.
I can undoubtedly profess-
I've surely got the best partner in crime.

My clock is ticking away
Faster then anyone else's
Somehow, I just know

That I'll get a tombstone
Or my own wooden coffin
Way before anyone I know will

And I need you Natalie,
More then I thought I ever had before
More then I thought I would

I'll probably be gone
Before my parents
And I think it's supposed to play out like that

I'm still breathing
Although my lungs are starting to drown
Would you let me sink?

I've needed you Nat,
Even before I knew who you were
More then someone could ever need someone else before
More then I thought I would ever need you

Because Natalie,
You're my life support

If tomorrow you find that I'm gone,
Will you guys begin to understand
How weak and isolated I ended up being?
Or will you figure I'm off at school..

If tomorrow I don't wake up
Will you start to comprehend
How long I've been attempting to never take a breath again?
Or will you gape at the mess on my bed..

If tomorrow was my final day
And you knew it
Would you try to make me smile?
Or would you continue on acting like I'm invisible..

If tomorrow I don't come home,
If tomorrow I never open my bed room door
If tomorrow I took my last breath..

Do you think you did your job?

Nat,
I've been trying to push you out of my heart
I've been fighting it,
For 3 years

Nat,
I've been crazy about you
Crazy in love
And it's 3 years now

Nat,
I've finally realized something,
The girls I called, "Mine",
Weren't the reason why:
Why my heart continued to beat,
My lungs kept filling with fresh air,
Or why I kept smiling...

You're the real, true reason as to why I'm here,
Typing these words and listening to the soft drizzle
Now, I'm ready to face you and tell you how I feel
What I've bottled up for 3 grades

I trust you,
With my heart,
With my life,
With everything.

Spinning in the dark
Looking for the summer light
Flying into the Kiwi's nest down under

Gasping for not breathed air
In the frosted midnight grass
Arching towards the muddied moon

Searching, wanting, craving
Needing that blade
To pour out all the wrongs
And set attention on the

untouched tomorrow

Crying, gasping, spinning, losing, gaining, loving, hurting
Unlatching

Through this day, I'm spinning out of control
Crashing into my fate in the form of a dead soul
And I'm praying to some God I don't believe in
Trying to make all my wrongs right as I'm sitting out on the corner, holding a can made of tin
They see me as a ghost
Thinking I have it better then most

Going broke
My home is under the branches of an Oregon White Oak
The fire's dying
Everyday I'm trying
The men in the suits
Don't give a **** that I'm living in a cave of roots

This is the future that's now not so clean and clear
Darling, I know a home seems so far away, a light year
But we can stick this out
Sometime we'll have rain, no longer a drought
Just stay with me another night
For tomorrow, we'll get up and fight.

The words you speak are here now
The words you write are here forever.
You were given this life because you were strong enough to live it.
When life hands you lemons, you make lemonade.
You don't need armor, you've already got it. You just got to use your brain.
Einstein was a genius and you call yourself one too.
Innocence is limited....

Drop the ball
See the reflection swirling
Like snowflakes on the first of December
Showing you how to see simplicity

Front row seat
Up close to the ones who hurt you the most
Now you take the key
And you hold it
Brave enough to start driving
While the moon drops
And you watch the reflection of hardships in the rear view mirror

Needing to let everything drip off of me
At ends with my parents
Still battling my brother
He'll be gone in a few months
And every time I walk down the hall, I'll be reminded that he's a thousand miles away
Not ready for him to go..
What about my bro..I need him more then I ever have before...
I'll be drowning in the littlest of puddles and
I'll be soaring on the tiniest of breezes
I need you Sean..

I'm sick of feeling stuck
To holding on
And to isolating myself
And to feeling numb, not because of all the pains
But just because it's sitting there.

I want to move on, start over
Breathe a new cloud
But I don't have the energy,
But I lay in bed all day on my laptop
Under the covers, skyping the girl who gives me all her love unconditionally.
I don't want to feel so stuck
And I feel stuck.

This time last year
I was sick from the monster that ravaged her
Praying to someone I never talked to
But yelling at them to save her

Laying in bed
This time last year
She was better gone than miserably withering away
As if the hidden tears watering the carpet in the office a few stairs away
could revive her.

We become selfish as the monster ***** away any hope.
Selfish to the ones who are strong and are walking tomorrow
Selfish to the ones strapped to the stained glass window to another place

Perspective relations
For this time last year
She was sick.
Now strong.

I located my anchors,
Tugged on them
Ripped them from their bed on the bottom of my tear-filled heart
A portable, endless, deepening ocean

I found my demons,
Under the willow tree down by the river
Swaying between the branches in the lively breeze

Displayed courage,
Bragged about strength
But they lack hope and stability

Thunderstorms of bows and arrows
Skimming my skin
Grazing my gut
But I've..
I've stood in the line of fire many times before
My anchors rust away
My demons get ****** up into the weakening storm

I'm finally at the top of my game
Not going anywhere
Any time soon

I bid my farewell to my ocean of a heart
And I turn my back to the bowing limbs of my willow

In a kiss I taste star dust
A super nova teaming within you
Through a glance I play out black holes in your pupils
Finally grasping what it is to return home-

-Fire soaring to lick at the domed painting that's repainted each night
Afflicting our compass rose as the grass
Lifts graciously to Heaven like God himself is runnning his hand through it
And his rain splatters all around the embers

Let me return you back home
Stumbling, fumbling for the door
Where God sleeps
And angels play
To clap our thunder
And stomp the rains
Onto this compass rose grass

I'll bring the false keys to keep us out forever
With your lips glazed a constellation
Moon speckled freckles across your back
And super massive black holes appearing in each blink
There's no need to be a part of God's Factory
Let's be held here in this space between
Compass rose grass arching to flow under our heels
And the sky bowing to us

Let me take you almost home
Where there's a hazy pink shadowing us
Allow me to escape capture
Gather the shameless beauty you hold and lay it over the horizon

And let me take you almost back to home-

Labels. Square. Cut. Legible enough to judge.
To rank and trivialize, hollow out a once million dollar view.
Leave only the shattered confidence and trampled mind to litter the scene
The roof of a skyscraper seems inviting with a
neon sign reading "Thank society for this."
You find yourself weeping, attaching, flooding your gates
To this sign, next to where you're going to surrender
Because no letter, no word, no other human
could grab your slit wrist  and lead you away. To say
"**** the square, cut, legible enough to stand scenery. Stop painting with your running blood"

Go with a plastic bag.
No- not over your head. Pick a size off the shelf
Now pour that million dollar view you make up in the bag.
Drip a few branches and some lamp posts,
or paint the sky arching to the shore with a flock of birds swirling around
Make it bulge
Warmth radiating through
Now toss it. Throw it. Hurl it. Hand it.
It holds, it shifts from a silent setting in one eye to a hurricane coming

Though the contents are still exactly the same
You cannot escape interpretations
For fear of the unknown and the trap door to never open up beneath you
But you can be a plastic bag instead of a box.

I prefer staples over tape.
I prefer someone who's high over somebdy drunk.
I prefer fixing the roof in the rain.
I prefer mashed potatoes.
I prefer teling my secrets to a plush otter than someone who can sell me.
I prefer loving her, rather than him.
I prefer a story that's not quite readable.
I prefer Paramore.
I prefer waking up when it's still morning.
I prefer the drumming of rain that spans over 24 hours  than a year of sun.
I prefer sticking up for myself.
I prefer picking my own battles.
I prefer power outtages as it snows.
I prefer wondering about people.
I prefer yeling to the oppression.
I prefer cuddles when I know you're not perfectly okay.
I prefer ties over skirts.
I prefer Polaroids over selfies.
I prefer to tie my shoes constantly.
I prefer cnvincing mysef she's on another trip
she'll return from, rather than believing she was robbed from us.
I prefer Sora.
I prefer masculinity on myself.
I prefer RedBox movie nights.
I prefer keeping in mind even the possibility that we came out to be that high school couple who beat the odds and made it to forever.

I prefer winter skies.
I prefer ties over skirts.
I prefer brown eyes to blue.
I prefer country over pop.
I prefer pears over the freshest picked apples.
I prefer my tears over my smile.
I prefer tall to short.
I prefer silence.
I prefer swim trunks to bikini's.
I prefer dim lanterns to light my way
instead of blinding factory flashlights.
I prefer rugby.
I prefer Sprite over Coke.
I prefer grey.
I prefer pins to brooches.
I prefer journals with ink spots splattered on every page
than a pristine piece of copy paper.
I prefer brownies.
I prefer salads over fries.
I prefer stairs instead of escalators.
I prefer longer hair over short on girls.
I prefer harsh gusts of wind that bites my skin
than muggy city "air".
I prefer Airwalk over Converse.
I prefer keeping in mind even the possibility that this world we're on
is going to just fade away
into nothing

We missed the showers by a night
To crumple together into this human ball
Or breaths and pecks and soft love, touching *******

I want to call it 9:30 again
Turn the lights out and slide
Into bed, with your hands rwching for mine
Hearing your soft smile through the pitch dark

You make me feel human
Capable of emotions other than rejection and resentment
You make me feel wanted
As though I'm something special and
It makes me cry.

Mist swallows my body whole
Stretchers emerge
Marshlands have captured me
Slime covered my limbs were
Mission Possible no longer
Rain slams down on me
Like bullets in your back
Trees appear to spin
Rough turning to cushy beneath me
Ripples of grass from my tumble
Now through the woods I stumble
No longer awake
Laid to rest
Never witnessing the newest dawn
Living was a luxury...

I broke down
My eyes burned with un shed but necessary tears
He just sat there and looked at me
While I choked and stared out the window

He asked me if I was okay
And I said I'll make it through
He told me he didn't believe me
And when I tried to tell him I was fine..
My voice broke and I started to shake..

All  wanted to do was go to the bank of the river,
Maybe curl up under my bed sheets
And cry about it all

So I'm weak and fragile at the sound of a few words
We are all weak and fragile no matter how many times we say we're strong and a fighter
Because we're only as strong as our weakest attribute

But I stayed there in that chair,
Looking him in the eyes
Trying to swallow already breathed air
Choking on the words he was saying to me

I couldn't break down
Not with people walking by the glass window..
But I'm going to be leaving everything behind me
Everything I've ever loved and known
Not one thing will be what I was used to

And I can withstand the strongest winds
And I can endure the hottest flames
But losing my home
Having the world plop right on top of you

Knocks the wind out and suddenly,
I no longer have anything to withstand
Kind of like an old record in the record book
Claimed and prized for a little bit
And then thrown into the back of the pile

The clock was still ticking
And his mouth was still moving
But I was stuck in a little glass bottle
Set to sail the ocean alone and aimlessly
But I bobbed and dived from each oncoming wave
Only to wash ashore on an island called expectations

And I shouldn't be here..
On this island..
But I am.. And nothing will get me to go out into the vast and somehow empty ocean of my path
Everything is on me now
As I sat, paralyzed and lifeless
In that chair, looking at his eyes
In his office,
The Principal's Office

Is this even worth it anymore?
One fight after another and I won't be winner.
I've shed more than enough tears and it's not ok.
Is this ever going to be worth it?
Pain trickling under and over my skin.
Maybe it's done now because I can't take more.
Is this worth it right here and now?
Challenging for respect by family and school.
Never finding where I fit in this crazy world.
Is this worth risking my safety?
I've got no reputation to guard.
Be labeled as **** regardless.
I just need to know, is it worth it?

This world
This planet
This Earth
This sphere of sand and mud and rock and leaves and water...
This "home"

Will not last forever
There's going to be a time
When we split in half maybe...
Or we just implode from rotting

This whole thing
Why the Earth even exists
Why people were created
Is pointless when you think about it
Because in the end
We were just an experiment
This whole thing... was just a test

When we think we're getting somewhere
We aren't
When we're falling lower then we ever have before
We're just heading towards our self-destruction
So who cares if all of a sudden
Everything we know.. just quits
And it all ends?
Who cares about saving a self-destructing mass of material?

Only rainbows after rain
The mud begins to dry,
Now dust starts to swirl.
Twenty five minutes 'til lights out.
Pain ebbs, flows, floods.
To those who said it'll sting like a ***** right now,
You were right.
But only rainbows after rain right?
The sun begins to shine,
Clouds part.
Twenty three minutes 'til lights out.
Memories float, dive, bubble.
To those who said she wasn't perfect,
You were wrong.
And that's when there's rainbows after rain
And only then...

Never knew love
Would feel like an anxiety attack
And I never thought happiness
Would feel like a wall of bricks crushing all my depression away

Never knew a smile
Could shine bright enough to light up my whole world
And I never thought a look
Could unlock and open all of my dead-bolted doors

Never knew security
Would feel like a car crash
And I never thought assurance
Would feel like a warm blanket on a fall night

Never knew a hug
Could take my breath away
Never knew a whisper
Could paralyze my beating heart

I guess when you've found love
Everything you thought was impossible
Is just the start of the realm of possibilities

I think you're the reason why:
Why I have insomnia,
Why I lay awake through the night, restless and disappointed
Why I fall asleep to lies and impossibilities
Why I wake up in the morning and swear at my reflection

I also believe that you're the reason why:
Why I have a heart
Why I breathe air and blink
Why I trip over that air in the hallways
Why I smile, trying to reassure myself that we never would end up together

Disguised in empty words,
Well written verses better left unspoken
I wish I could fake as well as you always did

Slaved over by determined friends
Who can't undo the past
And make all my wrongs right

As we own this night,
We were out of control.
Please won't you push me for the last time
Let's scream until there's nothing left
I'm so sick of playing,
I don't want this anymore.

But you want my eyes to continue to see
And my hands to carry on feeling
You want it more then I ever have
You push me to the light
But I don't want to see it.
I just shut my eyes

And I'm going crazy,
Mom and Dad,
Did you search for me?
When all I could see was suicide road?

With heaven above you,
There's Hell over me
The world I'm looking at is a wasteland
And it's my only retreat to expectations

Float away from fantasies
****** and sunken
That's all that's running through my head

As the sun went down,
I crashed to the ground,
I heard the train shake the window
You screamed over the sound

But all I could see is this wasteland called Earth
And I was seeing suicide road again
I'm out of control,
As the school day tumbles on..

I'm fine.. I just had this idea in my head and wanted to write it out!
What do you guys think?

Thy is as sweet as a rose,
You stole my heart,
Unaware you are
So I've finally become brave
To tell you
That I've fallen for you
Out of desperation and hope maybe?
Or because of the way your lips smile and the way your eyes look

The colors
Brightening, lightening, darkening, dimming
Grey to green to fragile white skies
I'm crying because I love you
I'm crying because you're someone I believe in

The walks
The talks
The distance we traveled
Not only in miles, but in heartbeats
We just walked around the rings of Saturn and back

I wanted to maybe take your hand and hold it in mine
Grey skies, with the droplets splattering your neighborhood
I wanted to wrap my arms around your waist
Maybe rest my head on your shoulder to show you exactly what you mean to me

The crunch and scuffs
the background music to our walk
And I'm crying because I love you
Crying because I know that this girl who I think the world of
Would never want to be mine
And we'll never walk around the rings of Saturn again
I'll never feel like you took me to another planet.
A planet of hope and happiness and strength and support

Darkening, dimming
The lights are fading
And I'm wanting to take your hand
And take another walk tat leads us to Jupiter

I can smile because I love you

Shuffling feet on the floor below you
They've left the world you're in
And crossed to the world under yours

Where life and light
Are colored more brilliantly
No washed out blotches
Or faded shreds of a person's soul

You're limitless in the under world
Because you leave you're body
Only to become someone you never thought possible
I envision us laying up on a mountain top
Because I feel like I'm on the Summit of Everest
Cause' I cant breathe
Because my lungs are filled with Success
And it's all thanks to you and your love

I never thought the underworld would make me feel so alive
You're invincible in the under world

Free so why do we have to be falling
From the oppressed comes the depressed
and a remedy people forget is to caress
The split wires and the fragmented heart
Instead of loading up on prescriptions to put in the shopping cart

Trapped because we're a fish stuck in the weeds
Like a nemo, we find sanctuary in the warping darkness
Flashing a light to say I'm trying
And after awhile, that's what we come to know
Trying is to sink and to sink is to die
And to die is to be released and to be released is to
Take that gun and **** it
Drop it
to the floor because your best friend would suffer
Going and going until you're almost gone
Just almost

Christmas Wish Lists
Littering the beautiful cloudless sky
Where Santa and his reindeer will soon fill the gaps between the stars
And every candle will remember the generations gone

I'm scared to make my list this year
For I want things that I shouldn't.
And I'm scared to open the door.
So Santa, if you read this.
You won't need to land on my roof.
Because life is the best gift.

All that's here tonight to stop thinking about Jesus
Despite feeling unnoticed or kept from
Pronounce your Bible ashen to give your heart
a skip over tembling glass
The storm raging on with the sunny rays warm
Because yesterday was fire and their eyes were scorching
For this frosted light to remain
you must unclench the verse and etch a scripture
bleeding out your tongue's history and see that is your Bible
Go from door to door and with that burnt Bible you won't let go
Sell to preach to see how Jesus hangs bloodied after so many eyes
Scorching him sorely off that cross to make themselves strung up in the shadows of their lives that were raptured and say Jesus of Mars
So red and mysterious to conjure up a book
that we follow like ants on a chemical trail to the food source
and to worship is to be chained and to be chained is to be stripped
To be stripped is to be captured and to be captured is to blindly die
With this book resting over your urn as you wait in lline to the Heaven you were taught so heavily to scratch at your wrists to get the plot of the Bible out.
Say Jesus as you did the first summer in Church

With this flame
I tread water
And with these strokes
I'm hitching it on the road through the burned zones
As a toothpick forest drops from the strings to ***** the sky that
Held no water rain
but rained down ******
For
I tread water with this flame

They're trying to put me at bay
All because I act "gay"
Now look to the ground, yeah that's where I lay
You turned out my light
That's okay, what's the point in tryin' to fight?
Someone can take my place,
After all, I'm a wast of space
Slam me into lockers
You say you're training to be boxers
You don't bother to know my name
Automatically I must be lame
I can't just quit acting this way
The receipt grows longer, showing all the things I have had to pay
Every single day I'm alive,
You're all a bunch of bees, protecting your hive
Trying to get rid of the weak
I'm stronger than you guys, I'm at my best, at my peak
Yet you guys put me at bay
Just because I act "Gay"
So the next time you look at the ground,
Just remember that's where I lay
Not in peace...
When you're older you'll come back here and show your niece

These curtains they fold
These lights they shine
And this microphone
It echoes to eventually fade out
I am abandoned to see the chipped wall paper
Soft resonance substitutes yet
My voice is still clenched
Gave way as I beg for
Some to tell me anything anyways, like it's my right
"Speak for her. Encore, encore"

Shambles with bullies and rigs
Fumbling to my chest I lose my breath to
lose my balance

Oh these symbols they rain
And this rain hits
Swallowing us as we manage to
Follow our feet and walk
the walk where our hearts are spread out like
A smock n Picasso or Poe

Troubled to dangle on
Speak for her, encore, encore.
Dripping a nuisance
For my Father I am foreign to your tongue
As I do not intend to spread misguided fortune in a sin
I crumble in my lips speak for her.
As I do not have substitutes
Will you hear me either way.

So there's this girl
Of course there's this one girl
She's got beautiful brown hair and eyes that shine brighter then the Northern Star
She's got a torn open heart that gives consideration and love to me
And her personality shines brighter then the headlights of any new car
Stood right behind me, wrapped her ever so gentle arms around my chest
Her soft voice said, "I love you" into my ear
I felt like I was home, Like I was in my own little nest
That was on a field trip...
She's got long perfect legs  that get me weak at the knee
She's got a soul that needs to be filled with love and security
And her life is like a weeping willow, a rotting, sorrowful tree
Walked alongside me, giggled shyly and with a smile
Her lips formed the words, "No you wouldn't be. You've got me."
Seemed like right then and for always,  was being tested, I was on trial
That was in the Commons...
She's got slim, nurturing arms and hands that make me melt
She's got emotions that run so deep, deeper then the Grand Canyon
And her story made me want to be her safety harness, safety belt
Sat beside me, staring blankly at the far wall with a depressed, dull look
Her actions took me by surprise, like a tsunami of optimism
Appeared as though she was hungry for love, and that was my specialty dish as a cook
That was in the Lobby...
There's this girl
Of course this one girl
After all of the things she's said and done,
I'm wondering..
If I should go for her.
Should I?

And maybe I'm shooting for  the stars
With a girl as bright as you
And maybe I'm reaching for a hand that's not there
But I won't ever turn away

I'm running from the weeping willow
It's draping the hill side
And maybe I'm jumping from cliff to cliff
Willing to fall flat on my face for you  (literally)

The world is blind
Only a few are able to see
To be the light in a planet lit by night                              

Maybe we could make things work,
Never gonna know if you never even try

And maybe I'm shooting for the stars
With a girl as bright as you
And when I was sinking,
I saw your light off in the distance,
You lifted me to shore..

And maybe I'm reaching for  a hand that's not there
But I won't ever turn away
And when I was free-falling,
I felt your hand grab me,
Pulled me to the safe ground                                                                        

I'm running from the noose
Not going to be hanged by my old loves,
I'm jumping from limb to limb,
Willing to crash from way up high      

Maybe we should take a shot in this planet run by darkness
Never going to hit the target without  a shot

I know I'm reaching for the stars.
With a girl as bright as you...
How could I not be?

I rock myself to sleep
Counting the stars that are set in the sky
They're my night light
Never outgrow them

I whisper a silent wish
Hoping that one of the millions
Of little twinkling dots
Will save me from myself
So that I won't self-destruct

I throw everything up to them
Praying that a little angel
Will come and hear my silent cries
Guide me to all the desperately needed answers

I reach up to catch a shooting star
Burned a hole through my hand
Did I learn my lesson.. Yes.
Will I try to:
Capture that shooting star again,
That lone tear.
Yes.

They're my night light
Of little twinkling dots
Will come and hear my silent cries
Capture that shooting star again.

Sleeping is my safe haven
Not for the reasons you may think though
Daylight rots me from the outside, in
All the chaos is subdued for a while

Sleep is now my oasis
Not for the reasons you may think though
Dreams revive me from the inside, out
All my worries are washed away

Sleeping is my safe haven
Not for the reasons you may think though
I get to be free,
Get to just be unneeded
Not forced to respond to anything

I'm allowed to be a kid,
Something I haven't been
For quite some time
And I realize how much I miss it

Sleep is my oasis
I just lay down
And all the horns and bells go mute and I listen to the crickets
And I can just be gone from the nightmare in which I live in and call my life