I keep searching and searching
Still left with nothing
Yet I have everything,
Can it get more confusing?
Wait, I’ll try to explain..
But do you know ?
How tiring it is to explain something
You don’t even know.
Oh wait, guess I was born miserable
Or maybe I have painted it blue with my own hands.
Depicting sky scraping boundaries
With no stairs to lead.
God knows I tried, tried so hard to climb
Even with my broken limbs,
And everytime I stretched my hands
It got tangled in a mess of nothingness.
The mirage smashed to smithereens.

At this time, that unrealistic hope was more real than ever.
Moving further back, fading into the deep.
Leaving me on ground zero.
Determined to catch I swam across the seven seas.
Blinded by rapacity, I didn’t see the dead end cliff.
Only this time I gifted myself to the gravity.
As I fall freely from the cliff so high above
I closed my eyes as I called for one I fear the most
I prayed and prayed for the inescapable faith
Shared by all knows as death.
Like always, my prayers remain unheard.
Despite that how can I forget!
It was I who was holding the brush,
Changing canvases, one after another.
For all I know, I’m a sinner.
And I shouldn’t be alive,
Yet I’m more human than ever.
Playing a part that was unasked for.

Now my soul is darkened from all the blood that it bleed.
There’s nothing left of me.
Stop! I say bending on my knees,
I know I’m in the wrong, but can’t you see?
Everything is too much to endure.
And living is the utmost punishment for a sinner like me.
Dear lord, will you ever set me free ?