Why do I have these feelings
That you're the one for me
When I can not have you
You will never love me
I am just not worth your time
Although we are close friends
I am with you through the bad
And with you through the good
I try to make you smile
When you want to cry
I try to talk it through
But you push away
Makes me feel that I
I am the source of your pain
And I that was ever true
I would gladly die for you
So you can live your life
Without the pain I cause
But if it's not the case
I will keep on loveing you
Even if don't in return
Because love can be one-sided
Though it hurts much more
I will go through pain
Because it is you I adore

Heart break
Headache
Mistake
Self hate

A hole in my heart
Shaped perfectly you
A hole in my heart
There's nothing to do

A hole in my heart
It won't go away
A hole in my heart
It's here to say

A hole in my heart
The bottomless pit
A hole in my heart
Just you can fit

A hole in my heart
No end to the pain
A hole in my heart
I can not stay sane

A hole in my heart
Then one in my brain

This hope of love is killing me
The type of hope that never ends
Thia hope of being more than friends

I give you my heart
You give me it broken
I give you my love
You give me the shoulder
I give you my time
You give me the leftovers
I give you my money
You give me a dime
I give you my pride
You give me it defeated
I give you my key
You give me your walls
I gave you everything
You gave nothing at all

Crying in my bed
Wishing I was dead
All because of you
This is nothing new

I just want your love
But you are far above
Anything I deserve
How did I get up the nerve

You want to be friends
But my love it never ends
So my heart goes on in pain
I think I might go insane

So I'll just sit in my bed
Hoping I end up dead

I don't think you know
Know how much I love
Love you so so much
Much more than I should
Should let my self love you
You are so captivating
Captivating my heart
Heart that beats for you
You alone now and always
Always I will love you
You can need know how much
Much more than words can say
Say... Do you love me too?

I hurt those around me
No matter who they are
Why can't they just see
I will leave them with a scar

They have done nothing
But I will cut them
Why are they helping
They know the outcome

I could never hate you
I just hate myself
There is nothing you do
So don't blame yourself

It's better to leave me
Leave me alone to die
Help yourself and flee
Don't even say goodbye

I thank the pain
For making me
The man I am
It gives me reason
To write the rhymes
That help so much
To stop this heart
From aching so much

I wish to be by your side
Your love and warmth my company
In your arms I want to hide
I seek your love not your sympathy

I am but a shadow
A whisper of wind
Less than a thought
More of a whim

I have no purpose
Not even a plan
Simply just float
To far away land

I am an outsider
A wandering tome
Collection of stories
With skin and bone

I have no dreams
No hope to be had
A shell of a person
Since a wee lad

I'm just a shadow
No need to feel sad

Every day I check for a message from you, knowing full well that I will never get one because I ****** up our relationship beyond repair, but part of me is hoping for a second chance I don't deserve, because you will always been the only one to have my heart.

If only I could help
If only I knew how
When I hear you yelp
When you need me now

I only make things worse
I only make you cry
Makes me want to curse
Makes me want to die

My heart wants you to know
My heart can't say away
But you'll just say no
But you'll just say nay

Yet you lure me in
Yet you make me feel
My love for you will win
My heart will make me kneel

If only I could tell
If only you'd say yes
Never say fairwell
Never let me stress

But it can not be
But you'll never see

Life without control
Is like a flag without a pole
It has no reason why
Is it better just to die?

Joy is but a vapor
Little more than wind
We feel it for a moment

I can feel it taper
As life goes to it's end
Stopping it's bestowment

Joy is but a vapor

I am lonely
But never alone
I have this thing
That always will follow
They call it depression
I call it a monster
It comes in the night
Out is the shadows
Don't know when
When it will strike

Do not blame yourself
It never was your fault
Just put it on the shelf
Or lock it in a vault

Throw away the key
Don't let it haunt your thought
Because soon you may see
That it was all for naught

It only makes things worse
To blame yourself for things
It is but just a curse
Tied down by all those strings

I am all alone
In this world I call my own
I have friends around
But nowhere to be found
I could wait all day
There is nothing they would say
To make me feel them near
Nothing I could hear
For I am all alone
In a world I called my home

My mind is an enemy
One I can't defeat
I will be the end of me
Put me down six feet

I try to fight it
But it gets stronger
With every hit
I can't fight much longer

I need some help
To defeat my mind
When the thoughts develop
Friends who will get behind

Your lips are red
Your eyes are blue
I would be dead
If it weren't for you

I hope you know
How much I care
For each and every
One of you
I would gladly die
To save you all
Give my life
So you could live
I would help you
Through anything
Never leave you
For any reason
Because I care
So much about
Every one of you
If you remember
Only just one thing
Remember that

I'm always yours
No matter what
This broken heart
Is yours to cut

I belong to you
This much is true
My soul your thing
To make or break

You stole my heart
A broken mess
You're the reason
I do not rest

My only hopes
And lonely thoughts
Are all of you
Of my princess

Your heart is hurting
So just use mine
I'll keep it beating
For my divine

You cut me deep
And choose to hide
My heart it yearns
To be by your side

You cannot fathom
The depth of love
My heart is yours
Fits like a glove

Always yours
And nothing more
To use and abuse
Or just ignore

Not matter want
I'll still be here
With thoughts of you
And eyes of tears

I've tried to run
But it's no use
You have me tied
Up with a noose

Just give the word
I'll take that step
My life is yours
Each shallow breath

One sided love
It hurts the best
My greatest drug
It beats the rest

I'm always high
On my destress
A broken heart
And life a mess

Use what's left
Just as you please
Because after you
I'll find my rest

I'm always yours
My love it's true
Always yours
What will you do

An extra life
Is what you have
For your heart
When feeling sad

Break this heart
It's meant for you
Destroy this life
To help your through

The world is tough
My arms are soft
Hide in my love
When life is rough

Not cost for this
My heart is free
But just for you
My sweet squishy

I'm not good enough
I could never be
You deserve someone better
Than I could ever be

I cry tears of words
Words with rithym
Words with rhyme
Words that feel
Words that show
Show how I feel

Ignorant of the pain you make
Because you made my heart awake
Yes you caused my heart to ache
But you caused my heart to brake

She is cute and amazing
But she doesn't even know it
I can't stop myself from gazing
A passion inside me lit

She says she is fat
But it is in her mind
I want to tell her that
A few words to remind

She makes me feel alive
But it could never be
I am too afraid to strive
A large weakness of me

She could never love this individual
But in my dreams she does
I have flaws so visible
A cures of mine it is

If only she could see
How much she means to me

I do not write for them
I write for myself
Not to pour out to them
But to express myself
Not to bring joy to them
But to cope with myself
My poems are not for them
My poems are for myself

To live to die
To laugh to cry
To wonder why

It is a choice for all of us
To fight our fate or just to fuss
With others this must we discuss

My heart is yours if you want
It always is and it shall be
Till the day you end your hunt
And return my heart to me

You are a scar on my heart
A wound that'll never heal
Though you might just fade
You will always be here

I want to be with you
And tell you what is true

Beauty in and out
Yet you're filled with doubt

To be there by your side
My words to be your guide

Make you understand
To show you first-hand

The joy you bring to all
We are all your thrall

But you mean to me
My only source of glee

If only you could know
I wonder would you sow

For all that you would reap
would be always yours to keep

To live a life of crime
How exciting would it be
Wouldn't it be devine
To truly see

This life of boredom
It makes me want to cry
I know this goes against wisdom
But I would rather die

To continue this life
It would make me suffer
More than a knife
Oh how much better

A life of crime would be
The joy of freedom
Having me be me
But alas I'm stuck with boredom

I walk the world alone
But not without a fight
I have friends to call my own
But none within my sight

All doing their best
But it never is enough
All say they are not like the rest
But my problems are too tough

I can play pretend
But the truth to me is know
I am always in the end
But a man alone

To walk the world alone
Is something none should bare
Find someone to call your own
That someone who will care

Walk the road together
Matching every stride
Through whatever weather
Always side by side

When you fall or falter
They will pick you up
Take you by the collar
And lift you from that dump

A friend to walk the world
Makes any life worth living
Even if it's gnarled
It will be forgiving

When I see you face
I fall in love all over
Want to kiss your face
I will never be over

How could I forget you
Your my first and only
I'd be lonely without you
I want to be with you only

We might just be friends
But that can't stop me hoping
That we ended up more than friends
So I will keep on hoping

And I will keep on falling in love again
And again and again and again

You're the reason for my cuts
You're the reason for my pain
I should hate your guts
But I love you all the same

These thoughts inside my head
They won't let me go to sleep
Keep my mind on racing
I wish I could make it stop
I try and I try but I am too weak
Funny how my mind is stronger than me
Not funny how it makes me feel
Feeling like I want to die
Feeling like I want to end it all
Making me hate all I am
I am a worthless human
Praying every night I die
Disappointment when I wake up alive
Every night it's getting worse
Don't know how long I can fight
These demons inside my mind

Joy is not a person
Joy is not a feeling
It is a decision
It is what keeps us living

You are my sunshine
Dear you are my hope
You make my world shine
Make me put down the rope

I want you to know
The extent of my love
I'm hit with Cupid's bow
For you are a dove

So innocent an pure
Majestic and beautiful
I can't even be sure
If you're not an angel for sure

Lonely by choice
To help others
They should rejoice
We aren't brothers

I push away
To be kind
They can't stay
They will find

I would allow
For their good
This I vow
To get rid

Please give up
Just let up

Love is a lie
You can obtain it
But it will leave you dry
Better to quit

Why even try
It's hard to admit
Love will leave you to die
Head held back throat slit

Beat me like a rug
Snap my heart in two
Squish me like a bug
But I will still love you

My feelings will not change
You control my mood
There is nothing I would exchange
Just your touch makes me feel good

The more you hurt me
My heart heart will fall
I wish you could see
All the times I bawl

To be with you is all I want
You are always on my mind
I was so blunt
And you were so kind

But then you made a choice
To not be more than friends
I try to be so nice
But to what ends

I will never be enough
My problems are too much
I will always be gruff
It will always be such

I have a hope
Her name is love
I know her well
She knows me not
Yet she's my hope
For me to meet love
Is my one ambition
My deepest desire
Yes I have a hope
And her name is love

Every time I see it
It makes me smile
Even in my darkness
How can anything
Contain so much
Yet be so little
Just a simple picture
Nothing more
Nothing less
Yet it makes me smile
Puts a wild grin on me
I hope I can know
Know the owner
Of this beautiful piece

Life is but a rhythm
Watch it ebb and flow
Let it fill your vision
See how far you go

But don't forget your friends
Without them you are lost
The journey never ends
And all the bridges crossed

So keep on living life
You will find a way
You will beat the strife
And see another day

The truth of love is this
We think we need someone
To fill a hole in our heart
But in reality there is no hole
In fact we are fully whole
We do not need someone else
Just to understand that we
We are whole and perfect
Just the way we are
And when two people understand
That they don't need someone else
Is when they are able to fully enjoy
The gift of being with each other

Though we search far and wide
To discover who we are
The truth we seek is deep inside
There's no need to wander far

Oh the joys of sleep
So close to death
But not as deep
It is better than ****

Sleep is a release
To leave this world behind
A world of my own at ease
Escaping into my mind

To live the life I dream
Leave behind my problems
Unhinged by the seam
Hopes growing from there stems

I hate myself
This much is true
But I like myself
When I'm with you

My future is not clear
Its far beyond my sight
As long as you are near
I know I'll be alright