Oh the joys of sleep
So close to death
But not as deep
It is better than ****

Sleep is a release
To leave this world behind
A world of my own at ease
Escaping into my mind

To live the life I dream
Leave behind my problems
Unhinged by the seam
Hopes growing from there stems

My love for you
It has not left
It waits for you
Or what is left

My heart is shattered
It is broken
For you I'm shattered
For you I'm broken

I don't blame you
I just wanted your love
I just wanted you
To give you love

You got up my hopes
But you knocked me down
I still have some hopes
But I they are so down

You broke my heart
And walked away
I taped my heart
And died away

It was over text
Not even to my face
When I read that text
Tears stream down my face

You don't even know
The extent of the pain
I don't want you to know
I would leave you in pain

I still love you
Nothing will change the fact
My heart is here for you
That my dear is fact

Your brain is made of ether
Your heart is made of void
Thoughts are so unburdened
And vacant like your soul

I hate myself
This much is true
But I like myself
When I'm with you

Oh that great expanse
The ever present sky
Clouds upon it dance
In in it birds do fly

To gaze up at the stars
It is a dream of mine
Have it all be ours
Me and my devine

If only I could find
That one and only star
Who just won't leave my mind
I am searching wide and far

But I am but a fool
Forever I am marred
Oh this life is cruel
For it has left me scarred

No one would ever take me
Or even give a care
Forever alone to be
It's something I must bare

The sun will rise
The moon will fall
Like the sun we will rise
Like the moon we will fall
But in-between is where life lives
Yes in-between is where love is

My future is not clear
Its far beyond my sight
As long as you are near
I know I'll be alright

People all around
Yet I feel alone
Having a breakdown
Sitting on my phone

No matter how much I talk
I can never feel them close
Almost as if to mock
To remind me of my woes

Always ever near
Yet still they feel so far
I can see them clear
Yet it feels bazaar

If only they were here
By my side to stay
Willing to hear
All that I have to say

The joy of the sea
The calmness of the sky
The beauty of a flower
The feeling of a breeze
All pale next to you

A body mine but not my own
I do reside yet not my home

Shape not right to fit my soul
A bit too broad and has a pole

Do not like the man-made walls
Keep the pockets but not the *****

I wish you could know
How much you broke my heart
How much you hurt me so
When you wished to be apart

I could not help but cry
It make my fears come true
I would rather die
Than to be apart from you

A hell within mind
I live in all alone
Perfectly designed
A prison I call home

Oh how much I wish
Wish you knew
How much I want
Want only you

I want to be myself
To make my own decisions
To find joy itself
I want to fulfill my visions

But you hold me back
You say it's for my good
But it feels like a smack
You took away my childhood

What else can you want
My life is my own now
So you can stop your taunt
I don't listen anyhow

I do what makes you mad
I do it for the spite
I hope it makes you sad
I want you from my sight

You think I am so naive
To think that you love me
To believe the lie you weave
I'm not blind I can see

Sleepless nights spent in my bed
Twisted thoughts spin round my head

I stay for friends but nothing more
A promise made, an oath I swore

My heart it yearns for endless void
Hope and dream are long devoid

Tied to life with just a thread
Body lives, but soul long dead

Thoughts that echo in my mind
Each night I lay down to unwind

Were you kind or were you cruel?
Was I your friend or just a fool?

Doesn't matter, I know what's true
My life is better without you