These thoughts in my head
They are at my throat
Chokeing out my life
They beat me like a knout
Cutting like a knife
Make me wish I was dead

Love left my life
So long ago
We had some strife
And she let go

I want her back
But I'm messed up
so much I lack
An empty cup

She couldn't care
For I am weak
Don't think I dare
For her seek

I'll live without her
But it will hurt
With what we were
When we would flirt

I see you in my darkest night
When I want to cut me with a knife
You let me know that it's alright
That I have purpose for living life

But you don't know the pain I'm in
Seeing you and knowing the truth
That things won't be like they've been
For I have loved and lost my youth

I feel my mind spinning
Like wheels on a car
Always ever moving
But staying where they are

Sometimes I wonder
If love is real
I can not feel it
They say it's there
Maybe I'm numb
From all of the pain
Maybe it's there
But I'll never feel it
I wish I could know
Unconditional love
But who even knows
If it's even real

Nobody wants love
They want a feeling
They want a person
They want an object
Nobody wants love
Love is not a feeling
Love is not a person
Love is not an object
Nobody wants love
Love is giving away
Love is caring deeply
Love is being afraid
Nobody wants love
Giving away your heart
Caring more about them
Afraid of losing them
Nobody wants love

I can only try
To become better
I can only try
To get over you
I can only try
To be worthy
I can only try
To believe in me
I can only try
To forgive myself
I can only try
To care for me
I can only try
To love myself
I can only try