I can only try
To become better
I can only try
To get over you
I can only try
To be worthy
I can only try
To believe in me
I can only try
To forgive myself
I can only try
To care for me
I can only try
To love myself
I can only try

You are a human
That's why I care
That's why l love
That's why I help
That's why I believe
That's why I trust
That's why I value
Because you are human

I deserve to die
With every breath I take
I deserve to die
For every word I say
I deserve to die
With every thought I make
I deserve to die
For all I that I take

No one could ever love
The person who I am
They tell me I should die
And I know that they are right
But I deserve to suffer
To live a life of pain
So I can be punished
For who I have became

I hear her voice inside my head
Playing back the things she's said
I feel her beat inside my heart
She has taken up every part
I see her smile when I close my eyes
I remember and part of me dies
She doesn't love me like I do
That is a fact I know its true
But I still can't get her out of my head
It makes me wish that I was dead

I am sitting here
Only treading water
Not getting any better
But I am building muscle
With every single stroke
So that maybe one day
When life it's me
I can hit life back
And come out on top

Don't mind me I am slowly dieing
Don't mind me I am just crying
Don't mind me I am probably lieing
Don't mind me I am just longing
Don't mind me I am slowly losing
Don't mind me I am just dieing