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Stevie Ray Aug 2014
mummification
all tears dried up within'
feel it slippin'
slowly sinkin'
hearing mermaids singin'

I'm in a hurry
swimmin'
to grab hold of this
very special woman
but I got to go deep
spread my angels wings
to accelerate speed
there's only one thing on my mind
only one thing I see
that's you..

I grab your hand
go to the surface
don't perish
swim towards the coast
that once had you rejected
Solid ground has to accept it
Still have you in my arms
I will never let go
and I will always fight
I breathe in air
and give you a kiss of life
Aug 2014 · 565
Ascend into Chaos
Stevie Ray Aug 2014
you know one day I just.. try not givin a **** man, you know what I mean?

I don't know what to feel
..
Struck with utter sadness
I allow my myself a moment to feel this weak
Want to shed tears, but I can't
frozen behind my eyes
as I struggle with this defeat
can't accept these feelings
pride of ice
this loss won't take the rest of me
with you..
this loss won't take the rest of me with you..
this loss won't take the rest of me with you..

It's like you pick apart my brain and you get inside. I got so much to say to you but little time.
..
Never thought I'd be the one leaving..
saying leave me be
not when you had my unquestioned loyalty
Never thought I'd never see you, see..
I'm feeling feeble, weak
weazly, bleak
is this really me?
no. I allow myself to feel this weak
It's just momentarily..

I wonder would it still be worth it if I give a try? Or am I lying to myself this really is goodbye
Man **** it, I'mma **** it up and walk away.

I turn my back towards you
cut bonds
let shots miss..
..James Bond..

I look in front of me..
Eyes steady on my own path
..
I really got a set of goals now and I can't slow down, I don't think I'll know how
...
Ever since you been gone I just been tripping out, I made a left and a right and I took a different route
..
I'm fighting to get my strength back
..
After walking for a while I see something.
An Angel
Eyes Hazel
My world ascends in Chaos.
I'm moving along, I'm moving along, I go out with a bang
Inspired by music. Song lyrics in *italic*
Tracks: Moving Along - Merkules & Give me a call - Merkules
Aug 2014 · 535
Bloodlust
Stevie Ray Aug 2014
The wind blows fiercely throughout these streets
shaking foundations, sound of rattling metal sheets
One man causes this clash of energies
Rain Hails for help but Wind Mist the call
Nature's Wrath yields, does not wish to brawl.
It settles down..but it's quiet before the storm
everybody stays in, eyes weary and afraid
as they hold on to their kin
I got my weapons aimed
and pray God sets the date
for me to set this straight..
Death Crazed, can't wait to watch you levitate
I'll pick up your severed brain
have a taste and spit it back out onto what's left of your ******* face!
I'm relentless, I'll **** on your grave untill you float back to the surface..
Summon you and your family using Ouija boards spelling out that you're worthless..
****.
Aug 2014 · 431
One Moment
Stevie Ray Aug 2014
I'm so close to you
my lips barely touch yours
and I'm fighting a battle of selfcontrol
Our energies mix and take over the room
and the world peacefully dissolves around us
We forget that it exists...
my hands move slowly and gently to your face
and when they are as close to you as my lips are
I shift my entire awereness to my fingertips
everything is sensitive my whole essence is
I can feel your energy and body heat through my hands and being
I can feel you breathe, steady but shallow
you exhale ******, excitement and desire
you breath in hope, passion and love
fighting the same battle that I have
..we become thoughtless..
The energy around us starts to devour us
my hands finally touch your skin
loving, savouring and cherishing every inch
I slowly pull you in
my essence shifts to my lips
to the point where my soul is being kissed by your lips
the dance begins..
Aug 2014 · 242
Selfish Paradox
Stevie Ray Aug 2014
"I just want to make her happy"
"Why?
"Because seeing her being happy makes me happy"
Aug 2014 · 294
Home is where the heart is.
Stevie Ray Aug 2014
Life made me..
And because life made me
I made walls of ice
fortified my position
against everything that was outside
travelers would have to endure
the onslaught of ice and frost
And I'd rarely allow them refuge..
One day I looked up,
my roof made of ancient ice,
and witnessed an incoming bright light
"Is that a person?"
you broke through every defence
with the utmost ease
something I have never seen..
...and now you live here...
*Welcome Home
Aug 2014 · 1.5k
If I become God.
Stevie Ray Aug 2014
A gentle stream of people
flowing like a river would
flowers on both sides
earth breathing
coincide..
we knew we could
a vast blue sky
filled with birds and ocean life
evolution's true
and the stars at night
bring
a marvelous light
the arm of the milkyway
stretched like one awesome smile
it's my bluebrint of the world
but still it's a raw design
Aug 2014 · 936
Obstacles the size of ants
Stevie Ray Aug 2014
With my head high up the sky.
My feet finally landed on solid ground.
A giant.
Aug 2014 · 263
From Zero to One
Stevie Ray Aug 2014
Sun broke through the clouds, up high in the stratosphere
Lightning gone, hurricanes dissolved
I no longer reside in the eye of the storm
It's no longer cold
I watch the scars on my arms inflicted from the sharp hail
slowly heal and regenerate
mental state recuporates
fields of blue
stretch to infinity
I can sleep
and enjoy pleasent dreams now..
*exhales
Aug 2014 · 684
Afterlife
Stevie Ray Aug 2014
When you first come to this place, you would probably forget where you are heading. Golden Gates, clear blue sky, laughter. Birds flying way up high. A kind man greets you with a smile. His bright blue eyes sparkle a bit and he tells you, you can enter. You step through the gates and  there's an Angel waiting for you. The experience and sheer aura of this Angel makes you slightly bow down you head as you witness purity itself. Only then can you imagine what it must be like to meet Him. Because no matter how you look at it there can't be someone more pure than Him. He greets you with a warm smile. His eyes shed a faint pure light. His halo made of white pure light, a beacon you now know was there when it was dark. Mezmerized, almost smitten you just stand there, realising how small you are. The Angel calls you by a name you don't recognise and he noticed it. The fear you feel of telling him what your real name is, is almost to great to bear. To stand up against such a higher existence, a being probably thousands of years old and still so young. When you're about to stand up for yourself, taken a moment to gather the courage, he apologises and says that he calls you by your Soulname. He explains that you lived nearly as long as he did and that every soul here has a name of it's own. He also says that it's time to follow him. He guides you to a palace and after a while you enter a room. Inside this room there's a halo shining a bright white light. It draws you in, you don't notice the Angel closing the door behind you. The White light goes out and the first thing you see is the eyes of your new mother.

When you first come to this place you would probably forget where you are heading. At least for some, there's only one place for me to go. Upon witnessing the Golden gates I look both left and right and see the Golden fence stretch infinitely. I look up and see the birds flying, I let my eyes adjust at the distance for a moment. The birds are trying to fly further up, but they can't. Open Air prison is what comes to mind. I walk towards the gates and see Petrus, he greets me. Behind his blue eyes there's a sparkle of madness. He tells me to go on through as I walk past him an Angel greets me. Welcomes me home and calls me Axle. Images flash by of my hundreds of previous lives. Lives where I always stood up for people, always helped them and loved them. I look back at the Angel and greet him. 'It's been a long time Earos'. He tells me to follow him and he guides me to the palace. After walking for a while I enter a room. Inside of this room is a halo shining a pure white light. It instantly moves above my head and with it i've lost my individual way of thinking.

*When you first come to this place you probably forget where you are heading. At least most people would. But not me, no Sir, there's only one place for me to go. As I look at the Golden Gates I'm kind of confused, inside the golden bars I see flames being contained inside them. I look up and see birds flying. I try and look better and I see them flying further upwards. Why would they do that? The birds suddenly dive and increase their speed to the point where they burn to ashes. Suicide? I walk to the gates and see Petrus. He greets me with a grin and whispers 'welcome home brother'. I ignore him and proceed past the gates. An Angel greets me, his eyes pure white. But I can still smell the fear mixed with a bit of sweat. Right before he tries to call my Name I immediatly regain the memories of my past ten lives. Lives filled with ******, madness, abuse,fraud,greed,envy and every other sin and crime I commited. Right before he calls me my name I scream SILENCE! Don't you dare speak my name Axle! I look him right in his eyes, he's silent. Now, take me home. When we enter the palace gates I start to feel strange. Uncomfortable, itchy and sweaty. I enter a room, inside it there's a Halo shining pure white light. When it moves over my head I grab it and smash it on the floor. The lights go out, pure darkness envelops me. The first thing I see is a throne with a man sitting on it. I look around and all I see is wasteland burning, broken buildings, cruficixes burning. The man welcomes me leans forward and says the following: Zacharias or Zac, good that you're here. I've been waiting for ten years to meet you, to meet the Left hand of God. With these words spoken the rest of my memories unlock, a time of where I was an Angel. Suddenly forced back into the world of living only to commit sin and ******. I'm shocked and take a step back. Lucifer says he has an explanation for what happened. Ten years ago, right after I got sent back a few Angels managed to seal God in his room using unholy methods found in lost and sealed chapters of the Bible from Hell. Lucifer explains that he made me commit sin for ten lives in order for me to get in Hell and escape their trap. He asks me for help because sealing his Archenemy upset the balance of the passing of Souls. And it's something that needs to be rectified. I agree to help him and with agreeing an Old War has resurfaced.
Aug 2014 · 246
Truth
Stevie Ray Aug 2014
Death is our home. We are all criminals, sentenced to life.
Aug 2014 · 543
Madness Masterpiece
Stevie Ray Aug 2014
Eyes filled with pure malice..
lying gouged out on the floor..
a grin of pure ******
blood rushing out of my mouth
tongue cut out
panting heavily
pain raises
adrenaline..
endorfine..
to a maximum
this feels so, incredibly... good..
God..
On the edge of embodying madness
still pushing it's bounderies
I fasten the tourniquet..
One leg left to go..
Haha!
the dull bonesaw enters my flesh
cutting through the nerves..
slowly..
savoring..
panting..
with one arm left
I turn towards my desk
grab the quill and parchment.
this is going to be my masterpiece
hahahahahahahahaha
Aug 2014 · 311
Survivor
Stevie Ray Aug 2014
I look down on you..
You're nothing, disgraceful
I hate you..I hate you
I HATE YOU..
Look at me..
I'm smarter than you
Better than you, in every way..
Wiser, kinder, **** good lookin'..
but you..
ugly, repulsive, small.. a worm..
a maggot, you feed on what is dead,
what is gone, what is no longer there
gluttonous, rotten stomach..
heart filled with an infinite void..
a pathetic writer and philosopher
even a worse father..
I loathe you
I'm stronger, mentally,
Physically, spiritually,
emotionally..
I can't even begin to fathom how you got under my skin..
that's made of iron
my heart a raging lion
flames of passion burning
with heat at my core like Zion
I swear to God..
I'm going to punch you in the face..
shatters the mirror
*walks away
Aug 2014 · 675
Pathos
Stevie Ray Aug 2014
Rip my heart open.
Void inside..
Splatter my brains..
Tidal wave of thoughts..
Expose my soul.
Black flames burning.
Dissect my life
See pure desire.
Witness my death..
The miracle of a wish granted...
Jul 2014 · 452
A thief
Stevie Ray Jul 2014
Buried alive
In the projects
Called life..
My only ally is time
trust no one
because every one
consists of lies

it's all dark
All is black
death aims at me
Point blank
Ignorence is bliss
wishing I didn't know any of this
But I can feel it's presence
constantly... a desire.. a curiosity.

waiting for the occasional spark
maybe it's Death, taking a life
like a devouring shark..
naked in my grave
with only a scarred
leather book
and a quill with enough ink
to write a lifestory

So i'm writing my pages
my story that I want to tell
but with every spark of light
I can't telll.. these words
and sentences.. are strange to me..
I didn't write this..

Did somebody stole it?
Living the story I want to tell?
A story about a nice life
with good people
And a world that isn't Hell?

Hate surges up within me..
I quit writing, not a letter written
quill  smashed into the ground
another innocent victim..

My eyes open
conscience shattered
mind of a hunter
stalking it's prey
I'm going to steal a book
and give him my empty one..
A thief.
Jul 2014 · 370
Future
Stevie Ray Jul 2014
Fixed timelines
Fixed events
Obstacles the size of Spacetouchers
buildings that haven't been constructed
But one day will be build to touch Ozon
Obstructed..
Life abducted
Reluctant
grim present
Grey future
Colourfull past
Counting blessings like a madman
regretting that it didn't last..
Either Imma die of this disease..
Or smoke myself to oblivion
In a cycle of destruction
Body not helping
Mind doesn't give a ****..
the ending of my life has begun
before this boy turned into a man
Jul 2014 · 333
I?me?he?I?
Stevie Ray Jul 2014
HEY!!!
WHAT THE F*!!
Who are you?
.....
"I'm your muthafuckin' conscience" - Eminem
......
No! You're not..
Alien thoughts invade my mind
Peer within my soul
and what once was beautifully blue
is now a darkened sky
poisoned, negative thoughts
poised to strike
Massacre in my temple
no more praying..
no peace
I was forced to leave
Now he is me
and I.. a remnant
a distant memory
A fragment
From someone
who never really know
who he was
untill the day the invasion came
Jul 2014 · 527
Broken Car..
Stevie Ray Jul 2014
Head cracked open
Body splattered
Soul on the sideline, copin'.
Cranium smoking..
****..
I'm not insured
wish I had that part secured
Instead I chose to be Insecured..
For my Insecurity
Good thing the police is coming..
with hot coco and a blanket...

...What?
#Southpark
Jul 2014 · 460
A prisoner, death in Heaven
Stevie Ray Jul 2014
Pure of heart
blackened mind
invaded by the darkest thoughts
Depressed
bogged down
suppressed
high
heaven
prison in the sky
enveloped in eternal light
yet I ache to set my sight on the moon
Sinless, with the curiosity of a sinner
Limitless
yet I long for shelter
On the road to home
yet I made the road my home
Never winter, night
Waterdeep
metropol
a city of splendors
yet I want to sleep
starless sky
no star to wish upon
I want to cry
yet every tear shed is vaporized
an oppressed dead prisoner
law abiding citizen
a victim of Heavens censorship
Jul 2014 · 586
This life of mine
Stevie Ray Jul 2014
This life of mine..
This mind of mine..
This body of mine..
Seriously..
I'm twisted, I have to be..
A freak
how can one forget to eat?
to stressed for breakfast
can only be relaxed
when an automatic
rests against my head..
I only sleep when I'm close to death
Push my face deeper in the pillow of my bed
to the point I pass out, when the muscles in my body
forcefully relax
and I can finally sleep
enjoy dreams from the time of where I cease to be
seeing diseased poisoness needles injected into me
memories of where my Angel's leaving me
visions of times where it might become permanently
ingraved in me
Scars on my heart
wishing I'd have scars carved in my flesh
Rather have a concious operation
on every part of my body
than feeling this pain everyday
untill my mind will collapse
wake up everyday with regret
that I didn't die yesterday..
but..
Jul 2014 · 378
Memories made of glass
Stevie Ray Jul 2014
Greasy fingerprints on the window,
from the breakfast she smeared in her face.
Chocolate everywhere, which somehow wouldn't go away.
Hitting the window with her hands,
at the children across that play.
Waving 'hi',
the image in the window
slowly turns vague.
Don't forget the breathmarks of our dog
with a bunch of leftover food remains.
Saliva and pawprints,
nails carved in the window.
Barking at the neighbours dog.
Teens are competitive today.

All these beautifull memories here.
But I really gotta clean my window..
Jul 2014 · 377
I am One
Stevie Ray Jul 2014
I am
the spark that a star lit
the heart in a harness
the scar on a garnet
the law of the lawless
dark in the darkness
marked by the martyrs
target of heartless
raw where the war is
the call of the fallen
the seer for the blinded
impregnate the future
founder of present
perant of past
I am all
all is I
I am God
God is me
I am you
You are me
We are all
All are we
Infinity
is One
I am not
for I am One
Jul 2014 · 313
Untitled
Stevie Ray Jul 2014
Inside the belly of the beast
swalled whole
by monstrous man-eating teeth
inside of the stomach
it's roughly 80 degrees
slowly being digested
facing a test of time
only to meet certain death
wish I could relax
but the toxic stomach acid
makes me permanently tense
I can't take the stress
this monster
this embodiment of sin
Society..
Jul 2014 · 1.3k
The Yellow Brick Road
Stevie Ray Jul 2014
Ugly and repulsive
nek twisted backwards
facing forward
my path twisted
raining sulphuric acid
looking up
eyes and mouth wide open
I'm thirsty..
taken drugs
crack, ****, krokodile
the rain biting through my bones
necrosis from the drugs have made their way home.
tongue kissed a komodo dragon
wearing a boa constrictor for a scarf
parasites eating away at my innards
so I don't have to ****
and Imma just go on
floor made purely out of bullet ants
keep walking this path of insanity
Jul 2014 · 421
A problem solved
Stevie Ray Jul 2014
Feelings numb
soul gone
me?
I left a long time ago
I am no more
A shadow..
abandoned by light
forever
forgotten
it never happened
a different branch in time
a choice was made
that was never made
not an echo
or an aftereffect
a solved paradox
exist
in existenceless
Jun 2014 · 383
Suicide in the afterlife
Stevie Ray Jun 2014
....
My eyes open
what I see is mist
green sillhouettes
a black sun
wicked souls
entering rifts
****** inside
confinement
bringing out all sins
they are hiding
but leaving their loved ones
silently crying beside them
blinded
voilently waving his arms
numerous desperate attempts to find them
hands extend to show him love and to soothe him
but every attempt literally goes right through him
his voice taken away
replaced by shrieks of the ******
family suffering
forcefully leaving this man
I got to flee while I can
before I share the same fate
get back to the world of the living
climbed the tallest skyscraper
within my partially impaired vision
and I fall, dead in front of The Necropolis Gate
A rift opens behind me..
Jun 2014 · 973
Lighthouse
Stevie Ray Jun 2014
Lighthouse


Even though I'm blind
I hope that y'all can see
that you all are very hard to reach
even though we have hearts
and old-time wounds that bleed
we breathe the same smog
thinking that it ain't affecting me
but our minds are clouded
so no matter what you think
you all ain't fooling me

tap water, swallow 2 litres of sorrow everyday
work hard, pay bills, no time to work on my guilt today
Looking at my boss his expectations in the mirror every morning
looking at myself, swallow the bitter pill because I'm still not mourning
the void withing me is an excellent place
to fill with tears and fears
inhale poisonous smoke
ignore my blackening heart
I should clean out my closet
but I'm afraid of the dark

See what I mean?
I see you jump in an ocean of sorrow and guilt
drown yourself in bitter envy filled pills
I'm still standing on the side
where it's dry
hoping you're looking back when you've said goodbye
truth is
I just wanna go with my people
I just wanna go with my people
but I don't
and hope I never will
Jun 2014 · 463
War
Stevie Ray Jun 2014
War
War

White pidgeons will soar the sky
When the earth has been set in flames..
because my arrows be dyed in white
they shall pierce the hearts of the heartless
of those who breathe but died in life.
Thou shall never be free
sorrow chains the children who cry at night
bound and traumatized
my sword will strike these children,
to open up
so you can witness hearts and minds so hollow like
my sword will strike your inner child
so reminisce and remember the day you lost your mind
armed with a sword that writes
and a voice that strikes
I wage a war to bring back the light in the eyes
of those who are oblivious, narrowminded and blind
for those who see ..stand your ground with me
Jun 2014 · 301
A man without a heart
Stevie Ray Jun 2014
A man without a heart
.
I'm just a man without a heart
and empty shell, surroundings dark
my nights go by clouded without the stars
Inside me, I'm all doubt and war
a fight wich I cannot win nor lose
full of sin, my moods
are like the weather
grey and rain
my appearence is like the country spain
without the sun my skin feels like leather
all dried out, no passion or flame
no candles lit or games to play
so the angle from wich I came today
is to slit my wrist my blood will pay
my mental's sick my grudges pray
the hatred that's rushing from my veins
embodies the darkness from wich I came
no masks or **** I murdered today
My world will hold no warmth or flame
I'll just let it be cold and dark
but at least I will be the golden spark
just remember.. I am a man without a heart..
Jun 2014 · 623
Let's learn
Stevie Ray Jun 2014
Burning in a melting ***
sleeping in Jeffrey Dahmers fridge
Breathing Zyklon B
jumping off suicide bridge
All the death that I see
All the horrors taking place today
But what is strange, I'll say
how our social norm is to look away

All these life lessons ignored
All those tragedies that took place
All those uneasy souls
looking at us with a restless gaze
how can we be so blind?
to throw these facts away
death is another part of life
and those that died
point us back from where we strayed

— The End —