I'm with you but sometimes I wonder
If you're with me
Cuz when I say I love you sometimes
You just laugh and turn the other way.
There are days when I look at you and feel
An overwhelming coldness grip me
Like that first day of winter when I know
Fall has come to an end
And soon all of the beauty of Autumn
Will fall to the ground to be covered
And forgotten in the snow.
Once in a while when you smile at me
I know you love me for just that second
Like a film cell taken out of a
Movie that never ends...
Some days are fun and we go on trips to
Places we never even heard of
In states we never even saw
Just on a whim like a couple of bums
We picked up and packed up
And had *** in random beds along the way.
How can I love you so much
And give you so much
When I barely even see the real you
And when I do
He scares me...
I find myself wanting more and I feel bad
Because I know with you
I'll never get it
But I can't help but hope that one day
You'll see what you have
And you'll want to be better for me...
I wonder if that makes me
Selfish or if it just proves that
I'm only human.

Don't kiss me goodbye
Just kiss me hello
Maybe that way
You'll decide not to go.

Don't sleep by my side
Just sleep in my arms
Maybe that way
I'll protect you from harm.

Don't open your wings
Just open your heart
Maybe that way
We will not fall apart.

Don't tell me your lies
Just tell me the truth
Even though we are young
We have wasted our youth.

Don't say that you'll stay
Just say that you're done
And just kiss me hello
Then goodbye with your gun....

But I only see her once a month
Talk to her once a week
Think about her once a day...
Why then, do I call her
Best friend?
She is the only
Friend
I have...

my utter inability
    to take responsibility
             is killing me...
                    and the possibility
                            of Heaven's plausibility
                                     is thrilling me...
                                            while my capability
                                                    to harness my hostility
                                                          is willing me...
                                                               And the last of my civility
                                                                    Disappears in mere futility
                                                                          As death's cool kiss is chilling me...

Thunder in my ears
Brings me out from underneath
My memories
And all their insecurities
To the world around me
The world I wish I could forget.
Lightning flashes in my eyes
Behind the lids I see you
And you smile at my faint heart
As wind whistles through its holes
Left by those I wish I could forget.
Rain washes away my regret
But in its wake I feel a new wave of shame
As it crashes over my soul
To make up for the unforgiven
And to prepare for what is yet to come
And to cover up what I wish I could forget.

Time slips across my mind
Flowing through the gears that grind
Laying in a trance-like sleep
Counting minutes, counting sheep.
Dreams come and go like smoke
Each one does my heart evoke
And from my grasp each dream evades
While behind my eyelids each parades.
Dreams of heaven dreams of hell
Dreams so dark i shouldn't tell
Dreams that wake me in the night
Dreams that blot out all the light.
Lips that graze across my cheek
Stop the oozing tears that leak
Lost inside my silent slumber
Teary kisses hold me under.
But am i now too lost to find
The blinking EXIT in my mind?
I worry that its grown too late
For from these dreams i cant escape!
Find me, keep me, bring me back
Before my whole world turns to black
And when you find me hold me tight
Bring me closer to the light.
Wake me from this sleep my dear
I've been asleep too long i fear
But if i've stayed too long this way
With me, in dreams, i hope you'll stay.