It's fine to like a girl
But I want to like more
A gay trans boy
Forced to look cis and straight
And its nice for a while
But it gets uncomfortable
I want to be with HIM
Not her, but if I stop going out with her
She would **** herself
I can't risk it
So I have to cheat
But is it wrong?

I found you
                   d
                      e
                        a
             ­             d
                             Lying on the ground
                                                          ­    with a
                                                                ­        k
                                                       ­                n
                                                               ­      i
                                                               ­    f
                                                               ­  e
                                             In your hand
                      Knowing your death was on  purpose
                                       My heart
                S.    T.    O.     P.        S.
In the hope you would be fine
          Eyes cloudy
    Like an overdose on morphine
        But clear as day
  That it was a stab in the h      e
                                    a               r
                                             t
                     With a mix of oxycodone
                        Wish you were
                                                      e
        ­                                          v
                     ­                         i
                                      ­    l
                                       a
But fate doesn't

                           L
                              I
                               ­  E
               I'll join you in the afterlife
     With a match
Or a    n        o
       o                s
                e
                    Or even a
                                       e
                                   if
                          kn
           I'll figure it out
                                   I can't live
      with. out.- ------  
^-^^^^--------^^---------------------- *beeping stops

You're always in my head
Playing the same love song
The one that attracts me to you
I wish you weren't asexual
But I accept it
Even though I want so much more with you
And I know I'll never get it

Why would I confess to something I didn't do
If I was crazy, I would
But I do confess that I tried harming myself
Last night on 2/4,
I stabbed a knife into my side
I burned my arm
In hopes I would die
But I didn't
And I wish I did

As a trans male
I wish to look like a boy
But with long hair
And a feminine face
I look nothing like a boy

With a big chest
And low on testosterone
Nothing a chest binder can help with, right?
Wrong.

I can't get out of this girl-ish body
My transphobic family
Keeps me from becoming
Who I really am

Birds chirp
Gossip
Say things that hurt
But they can't speak
Not for themselves

Humans talk
Gossip
Say things that hurt
But they can't chirp
Not like birds

Birds are amazing, beautiful creatures
With their soft wings
And bright colors
And soothing sounds

Humans are amazing too
With their archetecture
and design

But we are the same

Thanks for being homophobic to me
I can handle it
Thanks for the assault
I'm much stronger now
Thanks for the depression
You made me who I am
Thanks for the things you said
The things that made me feel alive

I can survive,
I'm strong