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391 · Apr 2015
Blank
but intense, to the scorpio, to a capital S

where is it all going?  where am I ending?

burning eyes, burning brows, expressions add up

looks, mirrors, goes, in

battle with myself, sin

needed help, got it, needed numb

got it

folding over the balcony of expression, the generation of honesty can discover malleability

and the music turns religious

again

and the dancing becomes formal

again

how will that happen?

time, it tells
390 · Jun 2018
Poem-y Poem
I’m writing a poem right now


I do to want to writ ea poem right now

why?  leave me to my coffee, and my music

go away

leave me to my flowers, I do not care for the page

I do not care for this stage, please stay away


I’m writing a poem right now, and I definitely resent it

I’m grandstanding my own serenity, with your chaotic beauty


jeez, put a shirt on

jeez, you’re too bombastic!!  


I don’t want to write your poem

because I’m just to cool for that

like, I’m so cool that I won’t eve write another poem again ever

and I’ll still just be a weird poet

wouldn’t matter


so I’m not going to write it
390 · Jan 2015
gahhhhhh
388 · Feb 2015
Inadequacy
many more to come?  back in the saddle with me, here I go, racing with time, trying to fix this and that, held back by small things said, tinkering with the abstract, thoughts of a pendulum grandiose swifts swaying three ways, three times, over and over again, coming up short, a parody of sorts, teachers not caring to comment, B's a great and C's acceptable, supposed to go to a play, to a thing, a thing a thing,


supposed to go to this and that, supposed to find out a time

schedules, scheduling, nobody really profiting, meetings held for three hours, right after lunch break, everybody too tired, right before, everyone too sleepy, giving it away, giving it away

where is the water going?  How are we going to fix it?
388 · Feb 2015
Fear?
The chaos of history
Where we try to find patterns that quickly crumble, where fear of *** is a constant
Fear of free thought is constant
Regret after war is constant
To find organizations of prejudice under the euphemism of protection is constant
Inequality has been constant. I cannot think of a time in history where hierarchy has not existed. This doesn't mean it couldn't ever exist
Perhaps if our empathy was increased by our tools for expression, there would be more equality, if feelings were so out in the open that they couldn't possibly be ignored
That politicians lie for support is a constant

Given these constants, why do we continue to lament?  Because we dream of an ideal, somehow, because we are dis satisfied with what is put in front of us, because as scholars we criticize, why can't we accept?  The individual makes a choice to live for change because he sees the possibility, but he finds that his honesty is misinterpreted and reinterpreted by the ***** to fit an ideal that never was, that the maytr becomes inhuman, a lie of pure soul that was far from the truth of, how perceptions change naturally and the idea of change may be an illusion

That Gandhi did not liberate India, but rather shifted the tides in the right direction as a performer, a martr, that the liberation of India happened on it's own. That a man cannot change the world, but live his life in his own ideal image of it, which influences but does not actually change,

I want to run away from my own thinking
It gets carried away from me, and suddenly I am a victim, or perhaps my self pales in comparison to my emotion, like a small child gazing at the golden gate bridge on a dark night a he huddled in his think windbreaker, it is a hopeless cause, that emotion is as real as any rational thought, that there is no real distinction, the idea that everything is about *** except for ***, *** is about power, but emotion is not about power, it is from a scours that is beyond the animal, it is absolutely an completely human and alien to the natural world, I am pale to the comparison of this life, and my emotion drives my passion, and in my rational mind I am hungry for food and drink and for power, rationality, the animal instinct, that I fear death when I am rational, how pathetic and now time consuming and how completely undeserving of the following feeling of pervasiveness, that I am capable of anything and death is my fate no matter what my choosing, oh, I will choose the former every time, until my rationality dies, yes I will go gently into that good night

I weep and I beg, please take me away
I weep and I beg, please take me away
I weep and I beg, please take me away
I weep and I beg, please take me away
387 · Mar 2015
The Image after Image
frolicking in belief


working in every mixture, attempting to be pure

obsessed obsessed obsessed I am, with figuring out the question, my question any questions, of

answer, wanting of answer I am, la la la, la diddy ******* da


made up mind about half a billion things but three hundred billion more are multiplying out of the mixture


made plans to make more demands but met moving particules of mother *******

make me into more

make me into more

than what I was before

make me into more

than what I was before

I feel hopeless and helpless, and directionless, lead me to a door, lead me, I’m begging for answers, the opposite of daoism, of sheer individualism, perfect, to the core

help me escape from this maze, help me!  I need

make me into more

make me into more
384 · Feb 2015
yes yes yes
yaas yaws said neil cassidy, and dean smiled back, I have no idea what you are talking about, carlo said to ginsberg, this one is crazy, and then sal said to keroac delete delete delete deleted delete
384 · Feb 2015
Dancers
Letters of old dancers dancing to music, touching undone turbulents, formulating makeshift sentences, releasing their fury onto the world, the saints who have done no harm but are forced to make all the decisions, delivering daggers, of fury, in their brass outfits, off iron loviung, of bows and arrows locking into the hearsts of men and women in the same place, of peopple, yes, of humans loving intimacy, of loving dominance and power and in acceptance, of superiority or infiriority, clowning at majestic paragraphs, that are meaningful then meaningless, that are gibber gabber, edgar allen poe, allen ginsburg, allen allen allen clowning in your ear get back there in a fury!  make of an echo and make out of a whisper!  and do and do and do



Jolted, ready for action, body ready with a menacing pride, ready to unleash some kind of chemical, what kind of chemical, of brass of of object, some sort of metal recurring in me, let it go, release the fury, how to learn to let go proprery, let it go with some sort of a grace, doesn’t seem to be entirely possible, how does one really, really, let go?  exactly?  how do I know when my concioesnneseneses which I can never spell right is actually functioning?  when is it actually functioning at the proper measures?  I ask this humbly, as if talking to my therapist, who is thrilled with his PHD, who really really really wants to help me, and understand my disease, my disorder, where did this guy come from?  He’s full of grey hair and he knows nothing and everything and his advice is that of a weight which drags me down and sombers my tone, but is left a note in my boats prolonged brigade of bridges, bringing me back to basics
383 · Mar 2015
intwined
merry setter, merry go round of go-getters, attempting to lurch at the next bit of bread, the bourgeois making their bets, sat quietly at cafe at ate pizza, evening, middle of the day, lost track of time, bull wind, a time lapse of mystery novels all intertwining, at the very heart the mystery of new life, the anxieties building up around it, what's going to happen to it?  

in new york cars pass by and horns honk as the coffee brews and brisk is barely bearable, anxious to hear new news, anxious to get the next job, whats in store, whats in front, a song is thought for the next sell, car lots and cheap motels.  honesty is a feedback loop, existing out of time and space, making its way around the prongs of video games, the memory cards are stashed, and the men don't know where the next card to be had is at

The laptops rest and the lights of sleep purr, the reading glasses rest on top and not a soul in the house stirs, blank walls and blank faces, even frowns as it all brews down, the green light flickers here, the last bit of sunlight is the only constant, echoes from the freeway flicker and draw back a curse, of perpetual seriousness, of stoic enterprise, stuck out of time, once, and only, again
382 · Jan 2015
ahhh lonely night
I leaked little house, flipping and spotting out tiny little words, little fragments of possibilities, in the resonance of a cello, in the ever growing weeds between the sidewalks, shoe laces, crushes, freckled faces, ahhh me, a small thing to remember, a walk down the street!! a walk, seemed leaps and bounds, of that thing@!!! why that thing? Why memory? Can they be washed away , spittles little bits of *****,
ahhhh, ahhh long lonely night, of heaps of green, clean, watered pipe of decency, reflections, necessities, degrees of truth and reactions, sharpening of lenses, pointing out and covering up flaws, accentuations, ahhh ahhh long longly me
ahhhh burst, ahhh inflate, to tumble over when not levitating off the ground, to fall off the bride with dirt on knees, and to emerge with a different walk, a different attitude, ahhh lonely walks, not necessarily of abandonment, of priceless cheap desire, however a feeling consuming and leaching to burnt toast and milk in the morning, itching, itching itching, and itch?
Ahhh lonely night, little bits of discs, little bits of discs? I don't remember which, screen, don't remember where thats been, who left it? gone? is it on? input cable one?
Ahh lonely night
380 · Feb 2016
Beginners luck
I'm on the subway
Now
Thinking about poetry
How it moves through the membranes
And makes me dip my head in the sink
Cool water against my face, the streets have been turned on to me
I guess that was hanks way of saying
I'm a bad boy just by virtue of reading his work
And I hope that is true
I'd like to be a wild vulture
Silent, stewing in the miraculous discovery of it
I'd like to wear my leather boots with pride
I'd like to be a snake fighting with a hawk and sting his way out, slither away, indifferent to death
There isn't anything standing in my way, really
I am wearing the James dean jeans., and I've got my head crooked down slightly with my forehead furrowed

Yeh, today will be okay
379 · Feb 2015
Power
Power, in the prejudice of language
A pronounced but silent linguistic statement
Unspoken but sung on
Pictures paint a thousand words
But then the words carry weight like wagons, trancends all image all together, never better, sleek like leather, loaded questions, how's the weather convorsations spoken in our bodies posture fluid and malleable
Just like water
379 · Mar 2015
To Science
To Science,

explain to me with your null hypothesis, your few words
why I laugh at the absurd, why some things are appealing and others not
try to make sense of hysteria, of massive blotches and stains where everything else seems to be clean
how does your hooks and bounds creep its way into clawing tag lines that represent a point of view? are you disgusted by the reputation of your name? or does it not even bother you?
are you made of stone in giant archways or do we need to test that a few more times before we get a confirmation?
are your studies, which work to stay away from human bias, bound by academic approval anyway, and does this constant checkup bother you?
how does it feel? to be constantly under the microscope?
your mistakes are revelations! the biggest ones reap the biggest rewards and profit, what an achievement
science, just a few more questions, I don't mean to take up too much of your time, I can see your requirements are multiplying, saving lives, saving love! saving freedom! Romantic in politics and grueling for students, you must have spectacles with hundreds of different lenses
science, are you the ultimate language, or the anti-language? I'm perplexed! and curious

signed,

Muskrat
379 · Feb 2015
OHHH BOY
COME HOME, COME HOME!!!
LETS MAKE THIS THIS THIS

You're too far away, bring it back
I a scattered little tom waits boy, with my goofy hat, and I can't sit straight!  call call  call!!

OHH boy, I'm in trouble,

I'm such a little SPAZZZZZ OH NO ITS ALL COMING BACK, CIGARS AND **** A DRAGGGGG AFARRRRRRRR

PIRATE LOGIC, HALLOWEEN LOGIC EATING UP MY BRAIN

BANGING ON THE TABLE
377 · Mar 2015
lovers and prescriptions
sounds less threatening that *** and drugs, doesn't it?

but they're the same thing, oh long drag, oh long sigh, oh long winding wheezy world moving by, possess me with your marvelous fun little hauntings, sounds threatening but it is really just a little roller coaster ride, tied to the tops of mountains, bungee jumping, something as ridiculous as that can make a lifetime, and we, just sitting here, seem to be doing, just that

prescriptions are for the educated, for the ones who want to get high at the right times, like the water droplets, again, not cold showers all the time, but at the right times, the precise, times
377 · Feb 2015
Nothing to shake
no dice to roll, got some sort of fiery hand in nowhere vegas land, what, why, women with greyed hairs in jumpsuits and stale cigarettes, no dice to roll no dice to roll, what am i going to do?  whatever tickles my fancy?  Can't seem to stop writing, it feels like some sort of disease, I'm reserved then cautious and not sure what the next thing to churn out is, I am freaked out, humble, and making my way over to the next table, attempting to make some sort of sense, but the atmosphere of the room is nonsense, dressed for some kind of hawaiin getaway, the theme is even less formal, of those who do not consider fashion, where am I headed?  never be aware of the person, what did I mean when I say that?  I don't know what I am talking about sometimes, am I talking to nobody?  can nobody hear me?  I feel so intensely this draw towards

nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing!

YOU IDIOT!!! you're just going in circles, and a part of you wants to believe halloween logic is actually truee

God ******, I don't know what to do with myself
for taking my security away, for taking blanket from naked body

I resent like a balding man loses his toupee


scalding hot coffee *** just missing the lap

I fall in love and resent that the gift does not merit consent, the gift does not merit consent

you give a little, you get a little,

that statement is a lie, I will not listen anymore

my love is overwhelming, too perplexing for most to bear, and I am

ousted, laughed at, pigeon holed, left to introspection

left to meal, movie

I fall in love, I give the gift, and I continue breathing

and I get weaker, I resent, I resent
374 · Jan 2015
morning
coffeee klonopin bagel ecigarette claming nuturing sunny sunny sunny, more coffee what was it I was thinking?  Didn't use the cream cheese no shower hair pomade and bruhsed teeth rolling stones did I miss something?  Set yet still yearing, stomach full yet still grumbling...
Sinkk the teeth into the passing loops and let it drag you all the way
373 · Jan 2015
REACHING OUT FOR GOD
Rein of clouds and sky, ready to rupture, possessing me with your dew
shuddering my spine, sticking the very burn to my lips, crisp air, changing
head spinning off the tops of the gate posts like a cat crossing, misadventures, purrs, purrs
fleeting thought experiments and delicious sentiment, peering through display windows and seeing the tiny universe expand, dreary delight of my God!
wherein, you perplex me, wherout, you make no sense
even still, persist, do you not, my sense, the reality, foaming at my nostrils, the feeling
hungry for flight, uncontrollable dreaming take off above the city when I am lucid and hearing to take control! Too much, approaching the wave with too much strength
Tell me, in which direction do I go?
????????????????
371 · Aug 2018
Take this apple
goes into the garden andallws for garden


fixes the air conditioning

go east, go west… west is wehre you can be 30 percent sure


lbah blah and itinerary,for a worldclass

ride to spain

ride to spain


die in paris, in vain
pear
371 · Mar 2015
she said don't be sad
and I let it out and said okay

and I made promises

to what extent does what comes out of my mouth actually have truth?  

what's the correlation between what we say and what we do?

the ideal chess set and the moves, the game plan and the...

truth, ****, it keeps coming back to that

a stoic is prisoner to it, and nietzche warns and warns again

but I'm not sure if Nietzsche ever loved a woman

other than his mother, no, love turns you into a truth seeker
and you're doomed to be a hero, sticking your neck out for nothing, for blows,

and it *****

wishing yourself better

wishing yourself cooler, calmer

the self is confused and hides

why is it hiding?  I ask those questions, which are the dangerous ones


will to power is an easy way out, but I read another piece that had a different explanation, the bible I think it was

and it had equal validity, it had me looking at things differently
and myself is the biggest scardy cat

I wonder what Nietzsche would say about that
371 · Jan 2015
Sick love gut----UHGHHHHH
A love sick gut
A guy who knows enough, Ivehad enough lessons, suckling fat, stuck to the ribs UGHHGHGHHHHHHHHHH
I want to sink my teeth, a craving
Like no other itching at the spine, pickled in a salty solution of time
Cramping my empty stomach, stargazing turrets machine head massacre
Frolicking in fictional fragments for flabbergasted nonentity
Spinning in circles, spent
Elongated taffy candy, rubbed in bourbon, succulent and tasty, craving another...
mmmmmmm I want it, I can almost taste it, it passes by like a car on the opposite side of the freeway, a glimpse, a moment, presence? alertness? wisdom?  mysterious well of creativity, gimme a glimpse, I sold you my soul god ******!!!!
370 · Feb 2015
molten lava
ulcen pulsen dorowning dissolving, not above, not dissolving, let if feel let it push let it melt groove and let it go to the ticick gutiarr that is applying and attempting to be real, attempting to say the real message, what is the real message, what kind of ptirkck you trine to pull the bass is suspicious and it wants to help the little guy on its way, there is something approaches in the background, it makes a small sound that is ver y distant bout it begins to come closer, very slowly, with a dinosaur tail
370 · Jan 2015
to the stone temple pilots
smoke, spit, dragging boots in gravel, cowboys from suburbia, uhhhhh lead and sai, shades and crooning, grabbed at lovers learning to smell shin if


Too much walking shoes worn thin
too much trippin and my soles worn thin

I love that lyrics, shut up
370 · Jan 2015
Cat
Cat
creepy crawly critter, thats easy
needs necessity to keep up the heiress of kitty, now thats tricky
feline freaking over footsteps
faking  for curiosities fragile games
kittty, eyes distinct and dreaming
swagger with new dire absolute necessities,  
tail and trail, he she it
human, not suffering,
of curiosity, spice
stop trying?? what do you mean by that you old, dead *******, scoundrel!
whats your aim? where were you living when you wrote those ****** words!
what are you trying to pull? what cruel sick joke? What little passe last toot did you think you had in your gut? !
what kind of full bodied lack of thought thumb up nose remark! you’re wrong, or you’re too right!! graying hair, you ugly man, you elegant, beautiful man! !
stop haunting me! stop advocating your poison! Trechourous fuckerrry!
Troll of urban america, swigging down your swank, your swag, your style! Bahh! you don’t know a domesticated pet from an animal, you do not know of institution! You make your little assumption and laugh!
inhale and **** and like ice cream Ironically! Why would you see and then subject me? !
hahah I’m laughing really hard about it! That’s what you leave me with? trechoruous truth, mock your fellow poets, mark vonnegut, shut up you dead man! !
You would like an ironic joke, wouldn’t you old fellow! are you closer to god now? !
Triumph in your misery, and make a little makeshift idol out of it, and hold it up to the stink of the barlight, that pale chicken soup of sun seeping into your existence, and ******* out into a trough and lyrically blessing the underworld with new tounges. !
!
whatever man, !
I hope he's laughing, wherever he is.... cheers to you friend
368 · Jan 2015
ahhh lonely night
I leaked little house, flipping and spotting out tiny little words, little fragments of possibilities, in the resonance of a cello, in the ever growing weeds between the sidewalks, shoe laces, crushes, freckled faces, ahhh me, a small thing to remember, a walk down the street!! a walk, seemed leaps and bounds, of that thing@!!! why that thing?  Why memory?  Can they be washed away , spittles little bits of *****,

ahhhh, ahhh long lonely night, of heaps of green, clean, watered pipe of decency, reflections, necessities, degrees of truth and reactions, sharpening of lenses, pointing out and covering up flaws, accentuations, ahhh ahhh long longly me

ahhhh burst, ahhh inflate, to tumble over when not levitating off the ground, to fall off the bride with dirt on knees, and to emerge with a different walk, a different attitude, ahhh lonely walks, not necessarily of abandonment, of priceless cheap desire, however a feeling consuming and leaching to burnt toast and milk in the morning, itching, itching itching, and itch?  

Ahhh lonely night, little bits of discs, little bits of discs?  I don't remember which, screen, don't remember where thats been, who left it?  gone?  is it on? input cable one?

Ahh lonely night
368 · Feb 2015
Caltrain
Caltrain you reading running machine, eclipsing my dreams, anticipations of new girlfriends, roar you might, Belmont and atherton, mmm Thunder and I rear, pour, buttermilk old couty road, no oh man,

Caltrain whisper your extension, the next time, on a chorded phone!! Vintage!!  I like it, wrapped around my finger, you stop too many times but right now you ease my mind
364 · Sep 2015
Turnabout
I am swiss cheese I am somebody who is trying to relocate their shoulders, thrown about in a misty sin of congratulations
I am a sipless vulture attempting to be pure but coming out vinegar
juniper berries and sickly **** of packaged rawhide
inescapable landslide
unexcused, for what its worth
an imaginging roller coaster disaster, so far from my fathers, mad from too much beer and wine
hankered down by mood stabilizing pills
jipless, jockeyed, jiving to bizzare melodies
a sipter esphicator, ready to lunge into the excesses of butter beer
singing jollies with dumbeldore and other queers
misplelled, misplaced, outcast, on the bench with other pupils
and the carnivore sinks its teeth into its kills
shanking and shaking, singing in the bathtub with katy perry
muse the blues with cherub rock, loathing dylan, asking for more cohen
juxtaposed on top of everest and demanding a double feature
dickless angels
turnabout, shout, the end is near, abstract, understand the notion, the fear
and scream helpless hopless empty bottles of beer
nectar and graham the hector, a mellon bunnie with rabbid ears
run for your life!  the fires of eternal flowers and bounds of life
seem sophisticated at the time
Turnabout, the beats are out
and the real madness, the real madness, is here
363 · Feb 2015
Whose the sucker?
whose getting played?

apparently women's minds

don't work in this way...

Men see hierarchies and

women see webs

this confuses me, as I try to maintain inner quiet, I can't help but to

bench the idea that I'm the one getting used, who uses, and whose getting *******

selectively cynical, my grandfather says...
its a clever thing to say

selectively optimistic, thats what my therapist says
what a wonderful thing to say

my perceptions, deceiving me, do I even believe in me?  

scurrying all over the place, the Muskrat gets tired too

tries to sleep in his nest, with johnny cash on the radio

hazing himself into oblivion, whens all this ever going to end?
363 · Jul 2015
Russel Crowe
Original master of bottled overblown ownership, around a flogging frame of masculinity, tone more reflective than any of your own, your a master, someone who takes the wheel, the navigator, russel crowe at his finest, with a head heald toward the mist of sea you take glee in knowing your place, your status, your finest hour, punishment, corporal, minsitster, sinister, your enemies fear you, your colleagues believe in you, won’t you take on another cruise ship, take on another fluke? Nothing is quite in danger, yet it is always looming right in front of you, the danger, the edge of the world, beckoning, its black marvel is a hole in the sea, and you will swirl around its edges, knowing nothing but the night, the cold, the winter, the old man with the mop in hand warns of omens, and the crew complies because they listen, they are wise,

Hold down your anchor! The end is approaching!  you know what they came for, they want you intact, whole, at the core, a piece that they can rivet, take away, reach down to the center and feel the pulp at the fingertips, pull it out and hold it towards the wind, its our apple, bite into it again
360 · Feb 2015
Of a party
I am the strangest person I have ever met in my life, take the Sybol of the party and put it in my back pocket ironically, looks and desicions, leading to small laughter, leading to pleasent convorsation, leading to anything where anyone can take a breather, take a calm, carry on, hogs roll by then things roll on, the symbols add up, and the symbol of the party seems of a siren, wailing its sorrow, wailing its empty, the empty cab rides, empty expressions l, and entertainment filled with urmmmph and love and drunk, the atmosphere rising, the lovers wanting to clutch closer, the evening never closing, dance a little bit more!   Loan out an extra!  It's sullen but it's sudden!  The spontenaity is flawless, beating the next pack, beating the next maker, making their mark, beating them like eggs whipped with cilantro, you're gone bro, psssssss its possum


In the street!  Sitar!!!
359 · Mar 2015
oh rupture!
burst!  burst out, flame!!

almost there, came, came to

and the world stays still, and the people out the window,

go about their business while I give in to what I see fit

and my body is fit

and the mind is of acceptance

what many would have done I do, glazing the surface with my ski, freer than the notes from the truck, the ice cream

oh rupture, rally and cry, do as you like, wear it as a a sash and remember or forget, put in your bag and remember a few days later, gaze again, and again, and another thought enters,

rupture, relentlesslessly, and go out that way, to delay dying or to sustain living, oh, one in the same, oh the irony in our ways, the moments of hysteria, taking over the senses!  charm and poise, laughter, the cure
358 · Feb 2016
Eating their hearts out
the dangerous things
and the alright things
working in tandem
and making excuses
for one another
and following a pantomime
of absences
and destroying the future
and destroying the future
and loving the mystical shadows
and eating their hearts out
with limitless unlimited closures
and making skills out of profits
and destroying the grounds that stand beneath
then laughing it all the way out
and bringing bad luck
at the lunchens and the meetings
and feeling unsafe and uncomfortable
and being a winner or being a loser
or perhaps seeing a winner in the eyes
and understanding fear
and worrying about something else
instead
the long treasures of a circuit
eats is way to the heart of things
and let it be exposed!
let it be wild!
let it be dangerous
and alright things
and things working in tandem
and destroying the future
and eating their hearts out
and making skills out of profits
and laughing
laughing
laughing
Electronic sound waves smoking up my mind, possessed by my rattling bones, dropped to the tip of eternity, releasing the day, rung up in memories, like a soaked up rag hanging from the top of the shower, possessed with potential energy, stagnant and wasting, growing weeds, a whatever a what is this, said one thing name another and then hop scotch rock over myself, putting little pebbles in he sand so I know how I get back, reserved freedom, over-dressed for the beach carrying a load, in five places at once, suspense thrillers building to their ******
please let me know what you think
357 · Feb 2015
To wake up to a big empty
waking up with the proper hangover cure

coffee and gatorade, and klonopin, waiting for my therapist to call me

I keep looking for answers to things, foolishly,
I look in all kinds of places
I don’t know if I will ever understand myself
or the image of what I imagine myself to be
there are some that say that the ego is happiness’ worst enemy
and I am aware that I am part of a greater wisdom, but what is the fine line?  How do I get what I want and still stay sincere and humble?  I ask these questions and they fall flat, as If I’m missing something, there’s some sort of lever hidden in my backyard that needs to be cranked, and ill have roots dug deep beneath my boots.  

fliting with my girlfriend over text, the jingle and the vibration when i get the ring is better than ******, what was I thinking about again?
355 · Feb 2015
Ash tray
practice, bare with me

seasonal, suffering, maimed, buttt better than dying, tarnished, one high sticking out begging for life, bowl, better off with cereal, clean which, with..... 1, 2, 3, 4 ,5 ,6, too many, I should probably quit...
354 · Mar 2015
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what the ******* hello

HELLO FUICKING POETRY

IM CRAZY SEANY ARMSTRONG AND I COME TO PLAY
353 · Jan 2016
The Fever
fever, fever hits you
when you least expect it
its there waiting for you
like a ******* puppy
in the middle of the street
and you follow it like a ******* sucker
lollipop, lollipop head
that's what you are
you are an obsession
just a walking obsession
the alcohol won't qualm it
and *** only exhaserbates it
conversations the only cure
and all your friends have flown out the door
you are left penniless, broken, endless
with train tracks running out your mouth
an infinite running track
that's what you are
that has the limitless amount of steam
needing to be blown off
and the drugs can't cure you
and the shrink will listen to you
and you'll feel better
till the man down the street
asks for a quarter
then you're back on the subway
staring off into that steam
that
fever
that everlasting
eternal
power
353 · Feb 2016
Love to write it
Love to DO it
love to spit it
love to claw! to master *******
WAGGLE ON TOP OF IT
DO A ****** UP DANCE
THEN A SILLY ONE
boy do I love to taste the trickles of tantalizing treasures treating me nice
I love to swipe swipe swipe with my fingers
I could be a ******* court reporter
with these ****** hands
and does it feel good
to scream
ROAR
RIP
LET GO
351 · Feb 2015
Catcher
Shooting counting, destroying stars, wanting to grab a hold of them, just in lit
d
filter myself, filter myself

just a child, trying to wear the cool sunglasses

wanting to wear the cool sunglasses

the look, the style, not of vanity, but of deep identity, cleanse me of this skin, what am I even made of?  

your shivering, let go, linens, linens

figures out for a few seconds, but they should all be floating, falling to the ground as little pass note slipper keepers, for the easy dreamers, cut from their wires, extending to reaching hands, just those eager souls dramatizing their everything, dramatizing the world, the love, the soul, the food, out to those ones, yeah yeah yeah yeah,

who I have to stick my neck out for, those those those, the most painful, to be a alive is to be animal, to be civil is to be human, but to be of passion is to be of hero, to be of hero is of inevitable loneliness
350 · Feb 2015
Jest to
loveable entities hearing for fetters, the simmering waters, the pigeons with their beaks, manners, manners in their eyes, their ideals, the patio, the people, the place to stay, the place for dance, yeah, the place jest to

jest to

jest to

loveable entities eating out their souls, lightning to the fearful foes, seemingly freed from bearings but always flipped, flipped, flipped,

perception, the *****, in the sense of lesser,


fight fight fight fight fight!!!


they're gonna grab us!!!


fight fight!!!

they're out for me, the ones who I knew and loveDWa

NADHT THEREY"RE NOT GONNA AUQIUET

HAHA
OaHHGFH


don't deceive me, don't leave me, neither neither neither, tossing the chandelier, chucking the feather, cunning is nothing, no no, no, no hero
348 · Feb 2015
little diddy
I can't stop thinking, my mind is on an uncontrollable think fest, I can' stop thinking about the future, I can't stop thinking about where I'm headed, what I need to do next, I can't stip focusing on my plans

digger digger digger

I dig so fast my body gets in cramps, in cramps
I understand what it is to reach it, reach it,
I dig fast, I dig fast
so dig it, dig it
347 · Feb 2015
The uncertainty in the air
The state of the union says a lot, nothing political

the oscars say very little, everything about it is political

to war?  to not war?  to not risk lives?  

it breezes through the plants, its on top of the little lamp posts sticking out of the tanbark, breathed into the lungs on the bikerides, the dog walking

that fresh silence, the music in the movie where the glances are lit up with darkness in the background

yeah, the people get their new from the comedians, then the comedians drop out at the end for activism, grassroots soaking up coffee loaded with cream and sugar

to lean left or to lean right?  to want to remain the same, or ready to put up a fight?  

my jacket sinks into my skin and my rear sinks into the chair, and the world stirs, whirlwind of expressions, whirlwind of expectation, the individual needs self empowerment, however the individual needs the connection

the uncertainty in the air, there it is, and the answer is to sit back, relax, and watch the big fiasco commence
344 · Feb 2015
Hangover feelings
Know know, the knowing, ever reaching, expanding, like ice, sticking, irritating, emerging with confusion, a hurt head, wondering, what happened?  Jeeze it's impossible to find anything. The sun is blinding, reaching, the stops drag onward, reaching the city, reaching the city, my bags got too many holes in it now, but jansport holds up, mountain men making their next exit. Held up by their lack of nutricion, their eyes crusty and tired, not lumberous jacks but minstrels now, with a few driniing songs to keep from souring the mood. On and on and even flow
344 · Jan 2015
please god let it go well
please please please please oh **** oh ****

of anticipation, wishing, not anticipation, wishing instead... very deep wishing, like a wish for santa clause,  even deeper than that, like a wish for a grow spurt, like a wish for power

please please please let that work, let that car go the way it will, let the music be cheerful, let them be sincere, yes yes yes, let life be alright, let it linger , let go let go, please please  please

to wish to a higher power, to wish to chaos, to wish to chaos, while chaos may be a theory that is appealing, dice still have their edges, and dots still count to numbers, language, of taste taste taste.....

having prayers, daydreams, where is the next one going to come from?  limitless ramblings?  limitless, endless digging, no sir you sit here, yes you here,

god this is awful, only a wish for stability, lithium let yourself be free1!!!
make a little joke here, when I can't write anymore its time to make fun of my own writing, I'm sean, I'm egotistical, pretentious, and blayh blah blah,
344 · Feb 2015
For Ilyse
Its the afternoon, and its still, I pick a few golden dandelions, because they are yellow, for you

I think too hard when I try to write for you, I want to be perfect

I think that my back aches and my mind is sore, but valentines day is wonderful

love is beautiful, and it is everywhere

you are the string of violin rolling through a pleasant gathering, a drum circle, whisking in the background and coating the fibre with rich resin

babe you are a peacemaker, make kings and vagabonds believe the very best

you laugh like elton john, carefree, with eyes up, bashful

Ilyse your name is unique and and so is your quality, keep on with me


love, seany
343 · Aug 2015
Rockefeller Plaza
Hustle and bustle of underground merry plaza showcase, the underbelly, the underlife, the true essence of the show going on at 8, men speaking rhythmically, eating quickly, with waste boxes, recyclables, the news is digestible, a man forages for answers in his phone, digging with his thumbs, and another reaches through the speaker to try to hear the close, the head anchored up, the scarf hanging at the direction towards the sun, oh the glamorous walls and the anxious souls, oh the marble staircase and the jansport backpack, more cleaning services than surfaces, less times more money, more money, less time, time is like money, it freezes and then it flows, what was the expression again?  Only the smell of coffee is lucrative, only the stench of ***** diapers, babies, in a place like this, where murmers are murmurs and eat isn't required but fufilled then joked about over digestion, a proper coffee break, he is of an ash tray the men gossip, not directly, but imply, stick to facts but hierarchies fill in like water into a ravine, never obscene, silent struggles to an invisible top held by Rockefeller who is no longer in this world, his spirit keeps some sort of hope driving noses into the pizza lunches, and the limitless contemplaions, the tough desicions, men around coffee are women amidst vultures, who has a higher grasp, whose the one getting cursed, overdone, overpowered, the cards turning in silence, literally in glances, a polite face turns to a disappointed hatred in seconds, perfect, like a diamond
enchanting!  take my family and our end of the day, the penetrating orange, just seen over the trees, sink into me, my restless feet, bouncing around looking for the next song, I cannot compete with your elegance!  your perfection!  seep into the sleepy lives of silicon valley and help them rest after a long day of unnerving, dropping, droppings, set backs, camps to get across, new days ahead, help them sleep ribbons, help them sleep

signed,
seany
342 · Feb 2015
a wonderful thing
love, overwrap, over double, double wrap, bubble tape, put me in a  cardboard box and send me to wherever, it doesn't matter!

in my brows!  getting wet in the eye!  snow ride, snow day, ice skate, hats

fiddling my shoelaces, I cannot tie them!  the zippers are just shiny, just shiny

Love, in my coffee!  I'll take cream today

filler doesn't matter, filler can make thin men fatter and happier

love, the filler, fill my day
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