Do not take my heart
For it stays under bind
Instead take this part
I call my precious mind

Inject thoughts of our future
Command me to say I like you
Let me take it one step further
And beg for the right to love you

For how could I surrender
What you already posess
My heart is shook asunder
While in my true love’s absence

I watched a man drown in sorrow as I held his life jacket
All I needed was some courage and I still don’t have it
My will to speak is far too weak
Yet my anger is at it’s peak

So I will shout and I will cry
Yelling at God for not letting me die
Back when I was in my spry
For I am old now with no reason why

My once prideful wisdom fleets and words go missing
The pistol on the coffee table keeps insisting
That maybe it’s finally time to stop resisting
And be born again to search for who I’ve been missing

I have been drunk all week
Baby I don't feel a thing
To temptation I'm weak
Please let me hear you sing

Your voice sets me adrift
a true emotional lift
I like to call when you're busy
If you answer I know you miss me

But everyone once in a while
I fail to make you smile
It's been a whole week without one call
I never thought love was in adderal

Getting high makes my day
Taking all the pain away
Another trip to wonder land
Is nothing short of a daily plan

Wish someone would check my wrist
And count the times that I've been ******
Never once have I been kissed
Even though it's all I wished

I keep anger in a bottle
Ageing like a fine wine
Never one to chase a model
Just someone willing to dine

Talk about a better life
One of love without the strife
I hear again the talking knife
Offering me that better life

Gravity isn't the only thing keeping me down
I spent two days bleeding on the ground
listening for another sound
To lift me out from this broken house

Say it again and I'll believe it
Call 911 reaching for the med kit
On earth I share only one regret
and it's not saying "I love you" yet

When I'm high I tend to ignore her
It hurts so I resort to the bottle more
Never had a problem with wine before
Then again I can't really be sure

I'm only me after a glass of wine
It takes me back to a better time
When all was clear in my head
Without the slightest hint of dread

Trapped between reality and here
Demons draw me beautiful fears
One of losing, another of loss
My mind, the canvas, but at what cost?

We are amidst a mighty battle
The bravest of all men will rattle
At the sight of what we face
In this ******, hellish place

Yes you guessed it, here we are
Between lost cause and very far
From all we know and all we love
Hoping to see them in days to come

Not everyone here will be so lucky
For we fight to live, and fight to be
With this sword I will strike down
All who wish harm upon my town

Beast, monster, or the devil himself
I will decimate all that arise
For I’ve come to conquer hell itself
I will see to it my men survive

And even when my soldiers lie
Soaked in blood by our enemies
Not a single one I will let die
For they then become my memories

The weight I will carry on earth forever
As they cherish new found treasure
Up in the sky with their creator
Forget their names, I will never

We set sail in search for better times
Taking upon new gods to praise
Hoping one might forgive our crimes
And bless us all with healthy days

But fate comes to all and remains fair
Even to those who try to prepare
We were all considered well versed
Until our fate had been found cursed

In these waters there lies true horror
A death by which I would feel honor
Demons live here and as they arrive
The crew prays to God we might survive

But I’ve seen God and he’s not here
Even deities have something to fear
We are just food for stronger foes
Lose all hope and **** your heroes