I write poems of woe,
Poems of hurt ,
Poems of feelings no one speaks of,

Don't ask me to smile,
Don't tell me I'm too pretty to be mean,
You don't know me,

Don't tell me to be sweet,
I'm bitter like coffee,
Need milk and honey to lighten your pallet,

I write about pain,
I write about those dark feelings you can't confess to your therapist,

I'll never be sweet,
I bite, I have teeth,
Don't touch me,
Don't talk to me like you know where I've been

Don't treat me like a delicate flower,
I'm deadly like nightshade,
I'm a spikey choke collar,
Don't handle me like I'm fragile,
Please don't be sweet

Sometimes I think I like you
Sometimes I **** just despite you
Sometimes I like the fantasy
That one day I might want you

Most times Im just alone
Most times I'm just ******* bored
I get annoyed when you call
I told you don't blow up my phone!

I'm sorry, I don't mean to be cold
**** it, I told you feelings I don't hold
I told you I'll call when I want
I don't like the feeling of being owned

Sometimes I think I could stand you
Most times I drink just to forget you
And how ******* cringe you really are
you mean nothing to me

Sometimes I hate myself for being this way
This was never who I really been
Sometimes I just fake that I care
So I don't feel bad about myself

Most times I'm filling the void
I picked you to fill in the time
Sometimes I tell myself I'm not this ****** up
But baby you're just here to stain the sheets

The girl you used to know
I used to be is
GONE

There are only partial fragments
Like bones scattered by the
WILD

You will never be able
To find all her pieces
To put her back
TOGETHER

She lost all that made her
LOVELY
When she selfishly loved whole heartedly

The girl that stands before you
Is now a harsher imitation of her former self

The kind of love she gave was SELFLESS
Neverending
deep and sacred like the depths of the sea

But you all took advantage
Picked a flower
Instead of letting her GROW

And now she's just a
CONTRAST
Not even a color
Just like black or white
A SHADE

I bought nirvana in a tiny red balloon
I tasted euphoria at the tip of a needle
I saw my dreams burn at the bottom of a silver spoon
I threw the cotton in to absorb all my demons

I drew blood for the first time at the age of 18
I mixed innocence with the devil that day
He took me by the hand and said:
"Let's go for a ride"

10yrs later my soul had died
It's been 20yrs now since I had my first taste
And today I can say I've split even

Another 10yrs I've spent redeeming myself
For the decade I pawned to the devil and now I can buy my soul back

She said
harder
He said
Brown or white?
She said
Brown
*** white ain't right
And I ******* hate the light

- a poem about liquor

I don't wanna be
another has been
Shoulda been
Could been
GREAT

I don't wanna be
another she was
She did
Didn't do ENOUGH

I don't wanna be
another pretty face
Gone to waste
Coulda been SOMEONE

I don't wanna be
Another tragedy
Sad to see
She didn't love herself ENOUGH

I don't wanna be
Another waste
Sour to taste
Like a rotted grape off the VINE

I don't wanna be
Another sad story
For you to see
In the paper or the fox 11 NEWS

I just wanna be
The one to survive all my agony
Like it didn't leave this wine stain all over ME

I just wanna be
Finally set free
From all my own demons holding me
BACK

Kitty cat wants to come out and play
Kitty cat is stuck in a cage
Kitty cat scared of the rain
But Kitty cat hasn't been pet all day
Kitty cat picky as ****
She don't really like anyone
Kitty cat likes milk on her lips
But Kitty cat gets dry kibbles and bits
Kitty cat needs a new owner
Her last one is dead and gone
Kitty cat needs someone to love
She likes to chase for the fun
Kitty just chases her tail
*** every player always gets scared and bails