She said
harder
He said
Brown or white?
She said
Brown
*** white ain't right
And I ******* hate the light

- a poem about liquor

I don't wanna be
another has been
Shoulda been
Could been
GREAT

I don't wanna be
another she was
She did
Didn't do ENOUGH

I don't wanna be
another pretty face
Gone to waste
Coulda been SOMEONE

I don't wanna be
Another tragedy
Sad to see
She didn't love herself ENOUGH

I don't wanna be
Another waste
Sour to taste
Like a rotted grape off the VINE

I don't wanna be
Another sad story
For you to see
In the paper or the fox 11 NEWS

I just wanna be
The one to survive all my agony
Like it didn't leave this wine stain all over ME

I just wanna be
Finally set free
From all my own demons holding me
BACK

Kitty cat wants to come out and play
Kitty cat is stuck in a cage
Kitty cat scared of the rain
But Kitty cat hasn't been pet all day
Kitty cat picky as ****
She don't really like anyone
Kitty cat likes milk on her lips
But Kitty cat gets dry kibbles and bits
Kitty cat needs a new owner
Her last one is dead and gone
Kitty cat needs someone to love
She likes to chase for the fun
Kitty just chases her tail
*** every player always gets scared and bails

Hold me
I'm trying to keep my pieces in
Hold me
I'm tired of not fitting in
Hold me
I'm tired of exploding
Hold me
I'm sick of being in the cold
Hold me
I'm not as hard as I may look
Hold me
I promise you that I am warm
Hold me
I'm longing to be human again
Hold me
Before the sudden change of temperature forces me to break like glass

No one will ever know the mass of this dark hole
How much it's grown
How hungry it's  stomach growls
To feed off my regrets

No one will ever feel
The sorrows that cradle me
When I'm alone
When I have no one to talk to

She will never know
How heavy this large stone is
The one I carry despite all my apologies

He will never know
How much I really loved him
Despite how much he hurt me

And all this silenced pain I swallowed without a sound

They will never know
All I've ever known is how to do things the 'wrong way' and no one ever said "NO"  to me.. enough for me to stop

She will never know
That as I was raising her with love
I was still a child trying to learn
To give her the love I never knew

He will never know
How fiercely I defended him
How I was blamed for his death
And how the survivor's guilt of not being there has eaten me away

They will never know the hole that's deep within me
The one I filled with angst, violence and self destruction

No one will ever know the void that is now me
The hole that I so easily fill with smiles that tricks you into thinking that I'm fine

Never forget me
I know just who you are
Never forget me
I carried you 9 months

I'll never forget you
You made me who I am

Never forget me
As the seasons pass
Never forget me
My sacrifices were a must

I'll never forget you
I wear you on my heart

Never forget me
I planned you from the start
Never forget me
I ripped myself apart

I'll never forget you
The most perfect thing I've ever made in my chaotic life

Never forget me
I'm the only one that stayed to raise you
Never forget me
As a baby I've always chased you

I'll never forget you
I've fought so hard to protect you

Forget me not
I loved you when I didn't love myself

Forget me not
Your father left us but I'm still HERE

I'm like a Venus flytrap
I don't move for anyone
I don't go chasing my dinner
or my lunch

I'm like a Venus flytrap
I stay still within my potted soil
I only open my jaws when waiting for my food to land

I'm like a Venus flytrap
Trapping boys within my jaws
Once my trigger hairs are touched
My leaves snap shut
Sealing my prey inside

Waiting for disintegration
Turning you to liquid
as I swallow you whole

I'm like a Venus flytrap
My body only opens up a limited amount of times
If you touch me too much
my life expires
and I will surely die