Sanaa

Sanaa Oct 2019

I’m gasping for air
But there is no air to grasp onto
Begging for someone to care
But that’s something they won’t do

They watch as life pours out
And as my blood drains
Making it’s way about
Surrounding me like water in hurricanes

I continue to drown
In this pool of hate
While everybody around
Let it happen without debate

I just want to be loved
I just want to matter
Not to get pushed and shoved
And get thrown away deep without ladders

I’m gasping for air
But there is no air to grasp onto
Begging for someone to care
But that’s something they won’t do

#sadvibez

Sanaa Sep 2019

Bipolarness-ish

Hi
Hello
Bonjour
Aloha

Goodbye
Ciao
Au revoir
Aloha

I want you here
But get away
I like you
But hate your guts
You’re my light
But also bring the darkness

Hi
Hello
Bonjour
Aloha

Goodbye
Ciao
Au revoir
Aloha

Sanaa Sep 2019

Drinking

Just put the bottle down
Before your liver turns black
Stop drowning in your sorrows.
Face them instead

Staying sober won’t **** you
It’ll do the opposite
Cause your drinking
It’s not just hurting your insides

It’s also hurting mine

Sanaa Sep 2019

Confusing

I really wish I understood you
Understood your words.
But I don’t..

And I don’t think I ever will...

Sanaa Sep 2019

I just need.... time?

Time doesn’t heal
It just helps you get used to living with pain
It won’t change the way you feel
Or all the heat break you’ve gained
It won’t stop you from crying
At the mention of their name
It won’t stop you from dying
You’ll never be the same
Time doesn’t heal
You’ll never be the same person in a way
It won’t change the way you feel
But who said I wanted to be that same person anyway

Sanaa Sep 2019

Yeah... Whatever

It’s whatever
It’s not like your not always in my mind
Like I can’t listen to a song
Without it somehow connecting to you
Like my heart don’t skip beats
When all you said was hi

It’s whatever
It’s not like you’ll ever know
Like you’ll ever know what I feel for you
That I’ll ship you with other people
Before I ship you with me
Like you’ll ever see me
As more
Than the girl you are friends with

It’s whatever
I don’t care about you loving everyone
But me
Like I don’t care about not being the one
Holding your hand

But hey
It’s whatever

Sanaa Sep 2019

Shining Star

That one star
Shining at night
Gives me hope
Hope that all the ones I “lost”
Didn’t lose me
That all the ones that “died”
Reincarnated into that star
To be my guardian angel