His
moods
eradicate
my peaceful nature
shift so greatly
Like the moon
Waxing and Waning
Ever-changing
Never stable
I am not able
To keep up
pick me up
spin me around
Shortly after
I hit the ground
bruise my ego
bruise my Face
I can’t keep up with
Your moods
pace

Waves rise
then
crash
smoke rises
next falls
The ash
we must
let go
of
illusionary control
instead embrace
The eb& the flow

distant city sounds
invigorate my racing mind
italian cars race
in the  noir night
white powder
stains
  clear warning sign
chained to this
toxic wasteland
for quite some time
he spoke
cruel worlds
with a twisted tongue
words cut deep
wounded & stung
I
Should have known
from the start
what shines too bright
will always dim
those who lie also sin
there was no chance for me
to win
in the toxic wasteland
with him

be weary of
those whom  
speak kind words
yet
have cold hearts

White lace
lines my porcelain
thighs
Gently
submerged
into the
bed of roses
feel the thorns
invigorate my
mind which
wanders
to visions,dreams
of crimson blood
dripping
ever so perfectly
onto the lace
a keen needle
filled with poison
entering the bloodstream

I walked the crooked path

My feet got chained

Now I walk towards the light

The all encompassing

white light

Your touch electrified me

It hurt

But it propelled me

to seek higher realms

What may have been
in May
shall not be spoken
of to this day
for clocks tick
eerily slow
& what
shined bright
has
dimmed down
low

Gentle daydreams
set on fire
by fiends
flames engulfed
as I
tied my
own
noose
set myself
loose
caused
harm
as I
shot
poison
into
my arm

scent
of freedom
lilac coated
heaven
sent
paradise
of simmering
dreams
nirvana
lights
agleam
trek
beyond
the doors
which lock
you in
beyond the
man  
who clocks
you out
untie your
own noose
set
yourself
loose

Rare, strange,
and delicious
Like cherry
Cigarettes

feet of desire
shall not
touch the ground
for once
I was lost
but now
I am found

Let the inspiration
Flow through
Your veins
Only love remains
Let it electrify
The soul
& let the art
Take control

drift deeper
into
the other realms
alternative realities
overwhelm

reality is
far away
in a
distant galaxy
so here
I will stay

What is fated
to be
will always
come around
cosmic understanding
can always be found
duality of  light
and  dark
newfound
desires and dreams
aren’t so stark

le femme
noir
dreary nights
away
from
me
boudoir
silhoutte
black
man
of mystic
down
at the track
lures me
to his
dungeon of black
his heart
beats  null
mind is dull
sings me to lull
while he
plants
seeds of
poison
in my soul

Inhaling
his
bitter scent
exhaling
virtuous
morals
heaven
sent
bound together
eternal sorrow
wind blows
away
promises
of tomorrow

I’ll walk the path
Even if alone
I walked the line
It wasted my time
It dimmed my shine
you are
no longer mine
To have
To hold
It’s time to be bold
So I’ll walk this path
I’ll do it alone

Lurking in my mind
are
disruptive thoughts
I may temporarily lose
but always find
these thoughts never
disperse fully
never diminish nor
dim down dully
reappearance of a lost train of thought
I held up the double edged sword
and fought
for
truths I was not ready to handle
blew out the
candle
smoke rose slowly
My god,
you are quite holy
darker thoughts
bring forward an inner truth
never entertain the uncouth

Although I may
escape into a dream world
that is purely my own
I know in this life
I am never truly alone
Despite the dreary days of
solitude and disconnection
a deeper understanding  lies
within me
that I am more than merely one being
For I am connected to the higher powers
above guiding me sweetly
For there is no separation
from myself and the sky above
nor myself and the pigeons
on the ground below
alone is a mere illusion
Humans are connected
to that which is above us
that which is below us
never truly isolated
this can be a world of my own
but
I find comfort
in the fact that we are all alone, together

A mind this frantic
may never be idle
give me your tribulations
save you a trial
incarcerated beauty queen
walk at night
to be seen
it's a fate
so dim
& bleak as can be
save your self
from a gal
like me

Track marked
noir beauty queen
eyes of dimness
no longer gleam
unraveling slowly
at the seams
dreams in flames
on fire by fiends
promises of gilded
love and sin
drew a heart of gold in

Art isn't beautiful
gleaming white
art is black noir
frightening sight
for that which
does not
make one ponder
nor wander
deep  into
unknown realms
well that is not art
that is death

His eyes
shifty
indeed
his mind
filthy with greed
his love
elusive as can be
my love
overflowing at the sea
seductive
yes
self destructive
a mess

elusive
queen of hearts
dabbling in
the darkest
of arts

save me
from
this
twisted fate
in this state
my vision
blurs
silence stirs
my voice
purrs
our worlds
merge

Spin a web of lies
to quicken our demise
For love
is lost
in those
hopeless
eyes
lure me
to
the dungeon
of black
Swan- like arms
pull me back
into the abyss
of fire
good& evil
innate desire

Spin a web of lies
to quicken our demise
For love
is lost
in those
glossy glistening
gleaming
eyes

Rear view
mirror
fogs
with fear
familiar faces
disappear
I sing a melody
in hopes
you'll hear
You are there
& I am here

demigods of art
self destruct
break
their own heart
led blindly
to the overflowing fountain
of youth
imagery flows from the
pen of notoriety
to speak a universal truth
an artist was  placed
on this earth
to suffer then rise
pain is never
the end
nor
demise

Life of
vividly painted
walls
ups
downs
withdrawals
I crave the chaos
inhale
the insanity
Sitting quietly
seems like a tragedy
I need to run, run, and be wild
You look at me intensely
give me a smile
for we are birds of a feather
we fly
away together
Away from
the confinements of a winter day
Fly into the freedom breeze of May

White feathers
align
branches
intertwine
towards
the
promise
land
dream world
where
sun do shine
life of thine
diamond shine
a lovely trine
grasp my
intricate palm
ticking time bomb
of beauty
& eternal love
I will lead us
there
crisp clear air
deep breath
must not fret
golden path
watch your step

silky smooth
hands of red
graze
a bitter tongue
of dread
down the
winding
path you
led
kiss me gently
hold me tightly
you don't love me
not even
slightly

Drenched in kerosene
you light the fire
of burning desire
to my elusive flame
Doused
in musky perfume
I combust
with lust

perched
high
tidbits
of wisdom
let it fly
inky gloom
intoxicated
our lives
almost drowned
in the dark abyss
But god
saved us
set us free
from the dark sea
which
once pulled
us in
towards the
radiance
we swim

Vices of  
my men
drain
me time
through
&
time again
for
time with them
dims my shine
but
what is time?
an illusionary
man made
sign
of when
to resign

Cavernous
void
devoid
of purity
transforms
into a portal
for light
to shine through
illuminations
strange fixations
shine bright
with utmost
might
alas
no more fright
endless knowledge
overflowing wisdom
lies
deep within
past the trauma
past the sin
I shine
shine
shine
happiness
is mine

Drifting into
a dark abyss
full of
weary thoughts
blocked visions
I dream of a past
which
ceases to exist
one lacking
  impure energies crossing over
an unwanted threshold
I never asked the demons
to cross over to my side
yet  hidden fears can
manifest into the open air
I take a deep breath as
I dive head first into the cold
crisp water and swim into the unknown
water is shockingly cold
  mind is shockingly clear
What lies ahead isn’t nearly
as frightening as that which
I’m swimming
far, far away from

narrative  shifts
mind sifts
crimson blood
trickles & drips
veiny arm
selfish harm
guilt plagues
a
spotty mind
sleepless nights
sacred words
with
the divine
seeking answers
for me
wicked ways
asleep in realms
physically awake
for days
moving backwards
in
quantum leaps
remorse
settles in
it seeps

roll the dice
of intrigue
shake hands
of treachery
long dreary
nights of sin
veil
between
worlds
quite thin
his heart
beats  null
mind is dull
sings me  to lull
while he
plants
seeds of
poison
in my soul

veiny arms
held me
too tight
I shivered
with fright
&
from the
breeze
of the
night
sporadic
words
flew out
my sunken
mouth
like birds
our
tryst
no
more
for I
drowned
us
at  shore
in the abyss
your heart
amiss

White lace
galore
crimson red
lips
of bore
mind turns
out tricks
like
a *****
deeper
darker
into
the abyss
light
serenity
is
amiss
disorder
disdain
heart of
strain
glass
of stain
lies
of the evening
here
I
remain

Inspiration
evaporates
into
thin
musky
air
into the ethers
like a prayer
guilt ridden
palms
grasped
it
too long
flew far away
now
it is
gone

dim shine
man of mine
poison wine
life
of thine
intertwined;
are you mine?
You are not
you
are divine

Drifting into the dark abyss with weary thoughts and blocked visions

I dream of a past that ceases to exist, one without the wrenching heartache & disdain from impure energies crossing over an unwanted threshold

I never asked the demons to cross over to my side, yet our hidden fears can manifest into the open air

I take a deep breath as I dive head first into the cold, crisp water and swim into the unknown

The water is shockingly cold, and my mind is shockingly clear and filled with ease

What lies ahead isn’t nearly as frightening as that which I’m swimming far, far away from

convention
ridden
crimson lips
speak words of bore
I have heard
it all before

A sense of
utmost entitlement;
a being so impure
lacking the desire
to stir
the melting ***
for life
handed you it all
never once had to fall
into the abyss
of emotional pain
no disorder
no disdain
deep in
the lies of society
you will remain

Razor sharp
glass
cuts deep
blood
stained
sheet
dark eyes
glisten
under the
illuminated moon
you speak
filthy lies
I swoon
trembling hand
grasps
poisonous
wine
salty tear
drips
whisper
I'm fine
clock ticks
eerily slow
I put on
a show
dramatic
undercurrents
flow
air
thick and toxic
we
waste away
You and I
could never stay

Archangel
Michael
warns me
for I must
stay away
&
keep my mind
right
today

I did not
listen
I never do
My innocent
ideals
done for
they're through

Shot of
love
free &
wild ;
carefree
as a
child

You caress me slightly
hold me too tightly
I can’t let go
can’t quit now
Too far in the
depths
anyhow

Show me the path
it’s crooked down
I fall many times
walking through
the  danger town

streets of desire
streets on fire
hands
of pain
take me higher
& higher