starry eyed gaze
wanders into
the
starry eyed haze
seeking clarity
such a murky night
I pray to you
pray for you
Miles apart
Oceans away
***** desire
strikes me
hits me
like lightning
dark
thoughts
takes over
the
higher power
trying to stop me
One again, I am alone
Once again, I am on my own
I am completely in the darkness
The relapse has begun

I pull myself apart,
I put myself back together

I let you tear me down,
I put myself back together

I let you consume me,
feel you consume me

You’re neither good nor pure,
I want it, all of it

Days pass, you have broke me
I put myself back together

Porcelain
thighs
tangled
as the waves
rise
then crash
love
by
the shore
I filled
his cup
of love
once
more
he filled
my red
cup
of wine
on the floor
shuts me
out
slams
the door
momentary
elation
slips away
I love a man
who
will not
stay

imagery flows from the
pen of notoriety
to speak a universal truth
tales told
with shaking
lips,
tales uncouth
an artist was placed
on this earth
to suffer then rise
pain is never
the end
nor
the
demise

What is golden
can stay,
what
is
falsely
gilded
mustn't
stay
it will
stray

black ocean
yearns for
commotion
abyss
of trouble
summons me
calls my name
echoes
dreary syllables
roll off
his
tongue
the moon howls
for me
once
drowned me
darling
I now
bathe
in the
sun

Casting spells
ringing church bells
boots of leather
& diamond shells
gypsy child
running wild
ethereal whispers
****** blisters
on  feet
that
wander
far &
deep