veiny arms
held me
too tight
I shivered
with fright
&
from the
breeze
of the
night
sporadic
words
flew out
my sunken
mouth
like birds
our
tryst
no
more
for I
drowned
us
at  shore
in the abyss
your heart
amiss

White lace
galore
crimson red
lips
of bore
mind turns
out tricks
like
a *****
deeper
darker
into
the abyss
light
serenity
is
amiss
disorder
disdain
heart of
strain
glass
of stain
lies
of the evening
here
I
remain

Inspiration
evaporates
into
thin
musky
air
into the ethers
like a prayer
guilt ridden
palms
grasped
it
too long
flew far away
now
it is
gone

dim shine
man of mine
poison wine
life
of thine
intertwined;
are you mine?
You are not
you
are divine

Drifting into the dark abyss with weary thoughts and blocked visions

I dream of a past that ceases to exist, one without the wrenching heartache & disdain from impure energies crossing over an unwanted threshold

I never asked the demons to cross over to my side, yet our hidden fears can manifest into the open air

I take a deep breath as I dive head first into the cold, crisp water and swim into the unknown

The water is shockingly cold, and my mind is shockingly clear and filled with ease

What lies ahead isn’t nearly as frightening as that which I’m swimming far, far away from

convention
ridden
crimson lips
speak words of bore
I have heard
it all before

A sense of
utmost entitlement;
a being so impure
lacking the desire
to stir
the melting ***
for life
handed you it all
never once had to fall
into the abyss
of emotional pain
no disorder
no disdain
deep in
the lies of society
you will remain