I Don't know the feeling being killed
But I know the feeling of being a suspect of thrills
I know the feeling of loneliness
Having no brothers how can I live with this
Wasn,t even alive back then
Brother, I heard the pain you felt back then
Can you hear me
Can you feel me
I know it's hard you were only three
Never even spoke your first word
Cause you being murdered was all I heard
I can barely hear you
You're gone but I can still feel you

Father found you on the floor bleeding
Must be devastating seeing
Making you wish you were blind
Wish I could see you for the first time
In the flesh
But you were taken by the flesh
I'm lost, lost you

That's why I live for you
Writing is the only way I can speak to you
So brother if you hear me out there
What was the reason
Why was the reason
You know you left me here
Just why

They asked what I am going through
They asked what road am I heading to
They think my life needs a redo
They think the life that they live is for you
They get mad when it won´t work for you

But see, I´m not you
Far from it
I love it
I love me, all of me
My writes consist about no one but me
So read them and you´ll find me
Writing is what I am about
it counts
because
I am doing me
so don´t lecture me

Now let´s hold up
Pain kicks me down sometimes
let´s rewind
some of you have read my writes
but some reads with a closed mind
These writes are not for show time
It´s for the barley coping
for the heavy broken
and for me
A token
cause cope with it
mope with it
get lost in my thoughts sometimes
But it´s worth it

Don´t cry for me
This is my session that revives me
I´m not here for the views
I´m not here for acceptance
I just want somebody to here me
Someone to feel me
When you have a voice but no one listens
It´s scary


But that never scares me
I am still trying to find me
With every write is a step for me
So I hope you see
I am probably not what you thought of me
It´s fine
never worries me
I´ll never stop
So don´t try to stop me
Your not perfect
you´ll never be

In between I see it
I don't know why
But I need it
I woke up in a cage
But it's fine
I was born in it
In a lifeless room
I was made from it
Losing touch in the world
Don't we all do?
We might fall soon
But that's not permanent
Don't give up


Ever heard of it
Of course, you do
But do you do it
Know I do
But every time I see it
Behind you
Your demons taunting you
You keep crying
Stop Crying
Think you can't win
your lying



You're holding the keys
Open the lock doors
To get yours
I got mine
Then you'll be fine
Real writing

Hey world
I need help
I'm losing it
How can I do this
I can't go through with this
I'm losing it
But I found it
What I found
I renowned it
It came to me when pain said
"Do it"
So I did it

You're Seeing it now
Might be world-renowned
But I don't care
It's not for that
It's for me
You'll see
What the mind can do
How can thoughts on the page
Can turn your mind into
Brilliancy

It's resiliency
Use it to open the doors
To my own thoughts
Cause I thought
Thoughts are nothing
But I was wrong
I proved myself wrong
Amazing isn't it
Sometimes with this
I reveal it

I woke up in this world
Thinking it’s free
Think it’s for me
But is it really?
They told me “you’ll understand when your older”
I don’t really get that


Now I see that
People are struggling
People are hustling
Thought that won’t ever be me
But I lied to myself
When I got older
Cause pain kept running over my shoulder
Losing myself


I can’t find it
But how can I find it
In hell
Cause that’s where I was living
You see that
It was black
With nothing to hold to
No one close to
Fear came running at me
Thinking it got me


Thought pain had it for me
Until it said “Do it”
Then I realize
I had a solution
To write with motion
It got me out of the black
Freed me from fear
Now I can hear
Pain gave me this
Does it want me to fight?
What a dumb question


Cause it gave me a lesson
The world won’t be in your perspective
It’s deceptive

I've been writing
Since I was a young kid
Everything I did
This writing isn’t from a school kid
It’s from a real kid
Lets cut to it


They say you ain’t an adult until you pay your taxes
Until working with the faxes
But the thing is
The people who dose it
Don’t use their own thoughts
They use the world's thoughts
You serious?
You're older than me
You say you been through it
So for you, it’s clear to see
But for me, it’s clear to see
Your hiding your problems
Not solving them
You're going to bars
To fall with them
Have *** just to get lost with them


So the question is
Is that what adults do?
Who never work with their wrongs because
You never did
You never even settled it
Go on an say you have no right say this to me
But your on this earth more than me
So you should be the light to see
But your not
So I jot
This to show you that you never learn
I don’t get it
It’s pathetic


Seems like the older you get
The younger you get
That doesn't work for me
See I mend my problems
You never did
See the older I get
The wiser
I work
You never did

Hey Let's talk about it
This world we would never live without it
it's strange to me
cause I lost my way in it
It's a game that I play with it
In games, the weak rise up right?
Not in this world
Cause they dry up ripe



This world is wicked
I've seen it
Be careful to not become apart of it
All the evil that comes with it
This world makes my heart hurt
Well then, pray and make it work
Cause I don't want to be apart of its dirt


But when life happens
We live it, breath it, lose it
But they call me for something better
As times go
When I find that something
I feed on it, burn it, Lie on it
Is this how we all are destined to fall
It selfish
No good at all


Then why don't you save it
You keep taking
But won't change it
But how
With one man
With two hands
You can't make it
With a one-man band


I need you
It takes two
Naw it's more than two
If you're reading this
Do what you to want to do
Don't let this wicked world stop you
But if want to change the wicked
It takes more than one to fix it
But wait
as long as we live
wicked will never die
only multiplies
But we can hold it down from trying
If we stop crying


Not to hurt your feelings
But lying in that bed won't fix the chillings
It helps this wicked world killing
Us