Everyday seems to get harder,
The pressure builds up,
Like some nuclear reaction.

I’m slipping,
Falling,
Scared.

What do I do?
**** it up?
Pretended that everything is okay?

My parents said life is beautiful,
They told me home is where the love is.
This house brings heartache,
It brings pain.

They tried so hard to cover lies,
And I need to get somewhere soon.
I’m gonna do my best to get to you,
A more loving household.

It’s time TO BE ME.
I’m going to try to be the man you want,
I’ll bury my pride honey.
It’s good to be home,
Rather than “home”

My mood is like the ocean.
My happiness comes and goes,
Just the like the tide.
My anxiety comes crashing down,
Similar to the waves.
Meanwhile everything seems to pull me under,
Same as the water would.

Here I go again wishing I was dead and cold.
Every day feeling repetitive.
I’m just trying to chill,
Please give me a sedative.
Here comes depression again,
Drifting to my heart and settling just like sediment.

Too scared to leave,
But too tired to stay.
Feel my soul seep out from every puff.
I’m deep in thought,
I’m no one's property,
But treated like a mockery.

I’m your friend,
Boyfriend,
Editor,
Photographer.

I’m your Clyde,
Ally,
Cheerleader.

I don’t know If you’re proud to call me any of those.

My IPhone charger is ******,
And my stream didn’t work.
Now I sit here watching netflix,
Looking at the photos of you.
Why does it feel like time is against me,
Throwing sad thoughts at me,
Making me fear that I can’t stop them.
Can you keep me in your pocket?
Pull me out like a Swiss Army knife,
A tool for any situation,
Make me of use.
Moments like this,
I get really bored,
Leading to me getting stuck in my brain.
Don’t go,
I need you here.
Congratulations on your success,
I can’t wait to see what happens next.
I’ll be trailing behind,
You are going to do amazing things.
I gave em hell,
Now they want more.
I’m overwhelmed.
I should call 800-273-8255