i would draw you
                               with a chapped charcoal ;the cheapest kind
i would paint you
                                with purple hair
                                          violet eyes
                                          green lips
                                          lavender teeth
                                          burgundy skin
                  hands outstretched in a beguiling teal
                  brows lifted in an audacious amber
                  with so much indigo behind you
(and i would smudge it all
until i see an explosion
of shades and hues and tones and lullabies)

It's cobalt and cerulean
Over the horizon
In an abysmal shadowless cave
Swaddled in thoughts
Of  Dancing in Zion

It's the rusted pain
That'll wither away
Misted by the flame
Of bygone days

It's the erratic
Yet steady beat
Like the music
The trees dance to .

The need to claw into the yesterdays
And hold and breathe .

It took a second
Thrashing of all my fears
Tired eyes wailed for the light

I want to hide behind the laugh
In the crests and falls of the chapped sound
I want to traverse through the mind
Silently swagger and order the havoc
Caress the restless heart
The brewing storms

And curl up around
The wild forest of your head

Nights are stories
My granpa used to say
Look for them

Dragons, Fairies ,broken glasses ,
Tears , almond cookies , a single hand reached out , a Cheshire smile
You can see them all in the clouds
Look for them

Nights are stories
Live them when you are alive
Look up and see
My granpa used to say

My Love
Your Kindness is breaking Me
And all I ever wanted was to be Whole

It was a stupid decision
My idiotic innocence
I yearned to be liked
I Yearned to be loved by you
A love that was hope
That was what the poetry of stars were about
The love that was a journey
Rain storm hail summer and autumn
Spring
The holy spring
Flowers and birds
I yearned for the love
I wish I could travel back and laugh at myself

I will make an empire in your heart
And every day and every night
When you embrace me
In between your wild and delicate
Nips and kisses
I will croon in to your neck
Breathing the scent of dawn and dusk
I will create an empire in your heart
As your frantic steady fingers
Dance on my body

I knew i was a Loyal Soldier
Fought for you
Your kingdom your dreams
Did you think Twice
Before you executed me
As you watched a lifeless body cling to your ropes
Did you see my loyal scars

In the fog
As our breaths
Reach out and couple
With wind we moved
With wind we stayed still
Temptation breaking the silence
The long awakened song
Finds her way amidst the fervour

Eyes and mind , mind and eyes

I close my eyes
To see your tired eyes
And slouched shoulders
The whites Greys and black hairs
Tickle my chest
I will hold you as long
As i can

Denudated souls
Degrading wood
Floats around
Noone to hold onto
Nothing to grasp at
Hunger to breathe
Greedy for air
I lay
Eyes open
Hair dancing on top of the blue waters
I sleep
Eyes open
And I watch myself sleep
With eyes open
The greens weren't far away
The trees were close by
But my eyes they last saw
The degraded histories
So many living and dead histories
I watched myself slowly sleep
With eyes open

On his knees
Head bent low
Withered lips whispered to the
Shaking earth
Blood seeped out of his heart
To the wet roots

The foliage prepared a eulogy
For the lonely warrior
With bleeding eyes
As he sang the song fo his life to
The roots of the willow
Red and green and red and green

And the wind carried the scent of his
Story
To a heart full of wild lillies
Far way
Amidst the greens and reds

He kept the cartridge
In a shoebox of trainers
With pine corns
with lego
with a broken kaleidoscope
with the tiny jack-in-the-box
with a chipped tooth
with a stained vignette


he wiped the dust off the yearbook
and smiled the first rhyme his son wrote 30 years ago

I dont know how to curse
i dont believe in karma
But they have my words
And i know my words
the nightmarish witches
They never obeyed me
My disobediant Proud children
they sow seeds of hate
plant an infecting thought
And watch it with a smirk
i never cursed
I never cared
but my words , my love , my words
You have them
and I warn you
They are Ruthless *******

The scars on his body
They looked like verses
She was tempted
To draw branches
With her lips

Who could blame her
For everyone yearns
For a willow on their body
........................................
Head bent
Eyes shut
Hands on the earth
Cloudless night
We create
A single story

Should they
Use a knife
And cut out your ego
Penetrate the cold eyes
And paint a pretty pink

Gashes of red will adorn your hands
Markings of trees and labrynthian words

Tattoo an oath of truth on to your temple
For the mirrors and eyes that graze you shamelessly

Amputation ...the quasi weightlessness
Tool of a foolish cleanser
The pear of anguish
And yes the world heard then
Your screams ...so musical that  she danced on top of your unmarked grave

She said she was jealous
How do the words
How do they fly out of you
She said I was lucky
Your mind is fruity and sour
Your hands are magic
Her eyes followed my words

She said I was lucky
A mind to love
A mind that cocoons the scars
She followed my words
She listened to my silence

And I
I always danced for my audience
A beautiful mind and a kind heart
A scratchy voice and a silent smile
My spectators

You are magnetic
You are more than enough
You are moon and Sun

You can smile when you cry
You can cry when you smile
You can hug the pillow and count the tears
You can place your palm
Against your heart
And listen to your music

You can eat with your eyes
And speak with your mind
You can frown and run backwards
You can scream
You can be
You can learn and teach
You can count the scars and label them
You can drink water and whiskey
You can play with clouds

You can walk barefoot
You can preach to the trees
You can sell the treasure

You
You are more than enough
You can breathe
Longer and savour it everytime
You
You can smile

You can

Shipwrecks
With empty pages
And a tattered quill
That never ages
Dry Air
Iced pain

A heart beat
A moment
A second
That's all it takes
A second
Your mind dresses up
In the prettiest clothes
In the darkest hues
And your body follows
Half witted
The trudge is hard ...
A second later
Your body sit still
In a porcelain bathtub
With the sweetest smelling salts
And pink bubbles
Different hues
But your mind is a sad hermit
Thought after thought
Permeates the line between sanity and sadness
The dam breaks
And your hand reaches
For a second
A second of breath
A second of solace
A moment of clarity

Karma may not exist
But Karma lives in our head
Painting pretty pictures
Sweet scented dandelions
And a calm head
A happy body and a beautiful memory

A second
So I enjoy it

shadows were my allies ,
i played with the maybes ,
i laughed at the nothings ,
i scared off the questions ,
i pranced around in the green in the blue in the shady brown
used to
used to ,
once when i thought i saw a dragon in the alley and wished for a ghost

As the ticks and ticks of my heart calmed down
Matching the silent lullaby of the brook

Through my ***** I felt a roar
To let loose to monster over

Guard me , oh witches of North South and East and I shall keep your light alight

The sun went down in a pinkish lake
And a strong wind blew my papers to the water

My poems my stories my history and my eulogy
All floated , away
Barefoot I walked
I danced to the Celtic lullabies
I could touch the sky now

Guard me witches of heart mind and body and I shall keep the lamps lit

It's a new beginning
And new beginnings are the souls of hope
A horizon each day with flowers , scent and music .
Guard me , witches of leaves bark and root
And I shall dance to the end
Ever so gracefully across the moor

It is a facade
When I tell you
' ******* and I dont need you'
Its mask
When I screamed for space
Its still foggy
Why I let go of your fingers
Its misty
Why i forcefully tried to ignore you
Its all naught
Its nothing
Its me
Cz there is you everywhere in everybit of my thoughts, body ,mind
There is you in my mornings and nights
I wake up to you
I see u in all the mirrors
I catch your scent in every rain
Every sunny days remind me of you

Dont listen to my words
Don't care for my knives ,my bullets
Cz maa you're ...