Sleeping 24/7
I will be sleeping
sleeping with my sleeping paralyzes
I am paralyzed
Mind so fresh
I was tryna analyze
couldn't move my body
My soul leaving my body
I feel it
tongue rolled up
Eyes red like the Devil
so sinister
My eyes turned white
looking all evil  
Slow-Mo I was tripping
my mind was creeping
with many thoughts on my mind
As I was going deeper
Reached the cold hand
And a dark hole
There I met my Grim Reaper
Asking me to leave her
As I waved her goodbye
I realized I was her
Looking dead at my one lifeless body .

i fell in love again,
love that i gave up on ,
thinking i was so done,
but he came along.
Sweet talks , cute smiles ,
far away so far away,
yet close to my heart,
i fell in love again .
he is the one ,
the one and only,
one soul ,
i decided to call my soulmate.

this may not be end of it ,
struggles will come and go,
but they say third time is the charm,
now he is my charm .
i fell in love again

Anixety


Nicotine in my nerves
Codeine on my mind
Maybe I wanna lose myself
Maybe I wanna lose me
Cuz living feels like anxiety

Fighting demons cuz it’s part of me
Maybe I am the demon m the part of it
My soul is tired of it
But if I die , I am ready to go n rest in peace
Yet I can’t help but think who’s gonna miss
This part of me

What is what
Far away from the truth.
Fake people faking this thing called LOVE,
Every one wants to be loved ,
Pay a little more money,
There you go , you can find love easily.
People  says''Money can't buy happiness''.
But eventually costing them their lives.
***** facts that '' Money is the key to everything'.
Our home earth ran by the rules of money
Why do you think there is a gap
Called poor and rich
So don't tell me ''Money can't buy happiness''.
Money is that power that controls our humanity

You exist to work for money.
You choose your career for money.
We are slaves for money
More money more power
You can create your own world
Start your own trend, live in the fantasy art
Less money , no power
Follow the trend and other's world
Live in their rule,for so they will pay you.
Eventually you live for money.
You need money till your last breathe
Not because you need it after life
But to peacefully do your funeral
And send you to after life.

Hopefully after life is freedom is the new power.
Where there won't be anyone dying of poverty .

First time for everything,
I was your first one and only
I was the little you
I had you in me
I was a part of you
Time flew by so fast
And now each other's enemy
Please tell me
Why have we grown so cold to each other?
You are my mother
Mother who brought me into this world
And now all you gotta do is growl ,calling me names
Loser,*****,failure, big mistake.
Now i feel like i am in a game ,
I can never win
Even if it cost my life
I can never win
I don't know what went wrong
But it feels like this is our curse
And so we have turned into
A living sin.
I wish i was the one you could lean on
When you are tired of fighting your fight

But right now all  i need is a light
This darkness is too dark and cold
I don't wanna live in here forever
Some nights i don't want to live forever.
Please don't hate me.
Even if this life we have a drifted apart.
I love you .

Your dearest daughter,

Take my hand
Even if its cold
Hug me
Even when i am broken
Smile for me
Even when i am in pain.
Live for me
Even if i don't

Because you are everything to me
Your presence is enough for me
To fight all the pain
Trust me i will protect you.
Even if they say  ''you are a disorder''
You are still a part of me,
The part feels like reality
Because reality in this world
Feels like a cursed hell fantasy.

So Dear Mr. Sleep paralysis ,
Don't be shy , let me see you in human figure.
One day if dreams do come true ,
Mr. Sleep paralysis let's get married
Let's grow old and be one soul
So as long as you keep accompany
I love you , Mr.Sleep paralysis.

Weird is normal
Normal is weird
What is normal?
When everything is fake
Everything is a pretend
Put on my best faces
Wipe that ugly tears
And let the best faces get the best of me,
Slowly it  takes over ,
Now that's my persona
It is taking over me.

Only if you would see the real me ,
Only if you could see my mind ideal fantasy ,
You would see the real nightmare,
Watch me smile while i jump off the cliff
I **** myself to feel alive
**** myself  in my mind
Killed myself a thousand times,
To wake up from this fantasy
Reality is the honesty,
That people don't accept.
Emptiness is the real deal
I don't know what to feel,
So don't try to see what's in my mind ,
There is no way out , you will never find.