Renee

Renee Dec 2010

Bottle of ***,
rock me to sleep,
make me feel numb,
so I don't make a peep.
Let them all see,
the river run red,
what I've done to me,
All the things that I said

No one to blame,
end of the line,
close to the game,
the fault is all mine.
I made a mistake,
one was too many,
I heard my heart break,
like I'd never had any.

Now rock me to sleep
so I don't cause more harm
Let the bed bugs creep
from leg to arm
I swear I won't scream
I promise not to cry
though it may not seem
My eyes have run dry.

Renee Dec 2010

The Crash

Tendon's break
my lungs collapse
it all feels so fake
until a bone snaps
I scream out in pain
the ambulance comes
their efforts are vain
stopped are the drums
it's time to let go
the angel had said
the death was not slow
now come rest your head
on deaths ice cold bed.

Renee Dec 2010

Rage

It happens all the sudden
A fire sparks inside my chest.
I could hurt a loved one
or ****** all the rest.

I see red
or not at all
until I put myself to bed
into a fitful sleep I fall.

I dream not of sugar plums
and not of fanciful lands
but of glum slums
and ****** hands.

When I arise from my bed
the images left behind
dance inside my head
They never leave my mind

The days go by
uninspired
the hours fly
as I grow tired
As the gory dream
you left for me
becomes my scream
my decree
to bury you
as you did I
venom I spew
I tell a lie:
It's you I hate
Now take the bate.

Renee Dec 2010

Tired

Fought once too many
eyes grown oh so heavy
unable to tell button from penny
all my emotions drained through a broken levee
I see you and just stare at you and our disjoint
no anger or hate that you saw before
My eyes only reflect how much you disappoint
no tears or drone of the words I swore
You sit by me and shift under my mournful gaze
I ask you silent questions
You smile but my face it doesn't faze
I can tell how slow you pass the seconds
counting every one and hating how I look
You hate it and I know it, I can read you like a book

Renee Dec 2010

***** Girl

She has been with his best friend
like no unmarried woman should
my ear I will not lend
when she has done what I knew she would
She's a ***** girl that is how they work
She'll play her games and spin her web
around the corner another will lurk
he will feel her feelings start to ebb
try to save it with all his might
he'll kick and scream the whole way down
but in the end she'll give up with out a fight
and leave him in the sea to drown
reeling in the next poor man
the distance now to far for me to span
I can not save you poor young man.

Renee Nov 2010

Instincts

Where are you?
My instincts say this body is untrue.
You left long ago they say,
then they scream run away!
I obey hesitantly,
keep my distance pleasantly.
Watch you implode from a distance,
your whole world shattered in an instance.
Girl after girl fades in and out,
they're all toys without a doubt.
I see your eyes begging for my affection,
Acting out only for a little attention.
Can't you see the drugs disappoint me?
I won't accept your pathetic apology.
I won't ever be yours again,
you abuse my trust so be gone!
Don't plague my ears with your misplaced blame,
I refuse to be a player in your little game,
I found another to love and love me in return.
I'm sorry if it makes your chest to burn,
but you'd best do the same,
Loving him isn't something I would feign.

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