When i decide to leave dont ask me why.
When i leave you, know its because of your lies.
The way you disrepect me when im not in your presence.
Know its because you continue to to betray my trust after every encounter of you regaining it.
Know its because im tired of crying over a man that is supposed to love me.
Know its because of your miscommuncation.
When i finally decide to leave you dont ask me why, just know that it was because got tired, tired of trying to be enough, tired of trying to show you that im worthy of your honesty.

Why is your skin so soft?
Why is your skin so soft that i cant stand not to carress you, to kiss you, to hold you.
Why is ur skin so soft that every time i place my lips upon you, as i pull away i feel my addiction on the tip of my lips.
Your skin is like velvet, so perfect.
Your such an addiction to me. Oh, how i love to hold you.
To feel your skin rubbing against my face.
What an addiction you are, what an addiction.

we all make the main characters
in the stories we write
have blue eyes
if ours are green
brown eyes
if ours are blue
and hazel
if they're grey

just so that
no one can tell

whose secrets
line the pages
in our favourite font

As i weep these tear my heart is longing.
Longing for more love,
Longing for more caring,
Longing for more understanding,
Longing for truth.
My heart cracks from the pain i feel in my body.
This pain of wanting to be loved, of wanting to be needed and wanted.
This pain is devastating to my spirt.

My mother always said "dont ever let anyone break you down and steal your happiness."

But how is that so when another human being makes you happy and when you see betrayal every inch of happiness is ****** away from you soul.

All i long for is love, the kind of love i bestow on others.

Where is my love?
All i want is love.!

I asked myself, how can love hurt this much? It's like we throw ourselves with our eyes closed. Except we don't actually throw ourselves, because we have no control. That's it, love orders us, and we don't handle it. We don't have a choice. Love may carry us to the heights that take our breath away. Love may push us to the depths of my heart not saved.

My ex kinda reminds me of my dad.
Their so ****** similiar, in my head i think its sad.
Two playas in the past tryin to change for their women.
But behind their backs they doin dirt and steady sinnin.
Not knowin what they have, ****** around with the past,
Cant give up their old ways, its to much to ask.
Cant give up the women, they need more then one.
Cant stick to commitment, one day and they done.
Playin with our heart, thinkin its fun.

****** over a bunch of girls, now they all cautious,
Duckin and dodgein when they see a chick they called it off with.
Miserable in their sleep dreamin of women huntin for revenge,
Rethinkin in their heads its time to trade the playa card in.
To bad thats not enough,
Next day that **** is dust,
Hiding stuff in they phone wonderin why we dont trust.

Your right next to me but i feel so distant from u, im writing all my thoughts down instead of talkin to you about them. I want to but youll only think im insecure and annoying. So ill just do what i normally do and just deal with it on my own.
From the inside. I love you so i rather not start any problems.