No one will ever fully understand me..
Because no one knows my story.

You make rash decisions to make me feel better..
Out of guilt
But it doesn't make me happy..
Only more disappointed..

Why?
Because you wait, you wait until  I am unhappy to make me happy,
Instead of doin it when I'm happy.

I don't want ur guilt, and I don't want you remorse.
I want your heart, and I want your loyalty.

I have never been so unhappy,
So deprived of security.
My happy thoughts quickly turn sour.
My unhappy thoughts quickly pump into my head.

Why can't I just be happy, whats wrong with me?
Someone please just tell me...what's wrong with me?

Before we departed I felt the connection,
I felt his love present.
It was the best feeling in the world.
He picked me up and kissed me on my neck.
He asked me for a kiss and as I leaned in I felt that connection,
That CLICK.

Ahhhh is this what love feels like?

I know that you are a busy boy,
But I also know that you are not that **** busy.
So please enlighten me on what your really busy doing.

You see it makes no sense to me that you can be gone for so long, and not even check in.
I sound like I'm all up under you, but truth is my trust for you is gone.
It's needs saving,
It needs repairing.
But my trust will never EVER be repaired if you don't take the problem out of our relationship.

This problem is so toxic,
But yet you want me to be ok with it still sticking around.
NO! It will never be ok, and the sooner you learn that,
the sooner we can move forward.

Unless you want to stay stuck that is..because that seems to be your memo.

You know its something they say about that gut feeling,
That gut feeling that's always right,
That gut feeling that tells you something's wrong.

The gut never lies.
But sometimes, just sometimes. . .

You wish your gut was WRONG for once.
Just this time.