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111 · Jan 2021
Change
Eric Michael Jan 2021
I can take the criticism
I can hear compliments
But I can’t stand opinions
Like I ever asked for them
Sometimes it’s just that simple
And I need to vent
I swear I’ve changed
Can you just accept it?

The whole world falls apart,
And it keeps on turning.
When no one can stop it,
I’m told I can’t be positive.
But what’s the point in living
If there’s no silver linings
It’s that need for control
The ******* thought of it
I was living in vain
I thought I could stop it
Just stop. Don’t fight it.

I abused the ones I love
And justified it all.
By the thoughts in my head.
Control, I’ve none at all.
I Tried to make things happen
Like I could force it all
Did anything matter?
In the end it’s all gone.

I just made a mess
It grew bigger and bigger
Couldn’t hold it together, it all fell apart.
Did we mean the things we said?
Did they come from the heart?
My misconceptions of life
Took me away from the light
You’ll tell me I’m wrong
When you can even start
To be honest with yourself
Or hold love in your heart

Let’s be more accountable
Really honest with each other
Would it hurt that much
To be open and vulnerable?
I’ve no room for judgment
Or to hurt another soul
If we can’t love unconditional
Accept this life and just let go
Then we’re just fighting change
When it’s obviously inevitable
I think it does more damage
When our emotions take control
You wanna talk mental health
But I think it might be physical

Just listen, please trust me
I can’t change the past
Can’t take away the pain
But I will be a better me
I promise, I’ve changed.
81 · Sep 2020
Electors Rage
Eric Michael Sep 2020
Little plastic signs cover all the lawns
Spend your money for the rich leaders cause
Here to show your support
For the ones looking for a job
Here to take your money
To argue all the opinions
Like it even matters at all.

“Another a**hole’s name”
Broken promises, led astray
Money claims everything
Is there no room for love at all?
Where’s the unconditional?
Screaming and fighting
Trusting all the lies.
I won’t play that game.
No room to control change.
Live your life,
Cause it’ll never be the same.
Electors finding rage, they will hate
But love will be the only way.
79 · Oct 2020
Only love
Eric Michael Oct 2020
If I could only hold this note
So you could find your way back home
Back to a place when you were young
When love is all there ever was

You stole a kiss, I can’t forget it
The one that started this connection
I swear it’s true but I don’t know
I just hope you feel it too

I don’t know what to do
Sit here patiently for you
I know that I can’t force change
I wouldn’t dare it, all the same
I just want to love you, as you are
Only you
Why do we make it difficult
It’s only love, that’s it that’s all

I hope you see your sisters face
Light up on your wedding day
So she can see the one I love
How proud she is, you’re all grown up

It doesn’t matter where we go
It will follow, if you sow
I’m just trying to trust this
But my patience wearing thin
78 · Jun 2023
Why?
Eric Michael Jun 2023
What’s the point in living.
When you weren’t supposed to be alive?
What’s the point in loving.
When you couldn’t find the reasons why?
Why do we live in vain?
When we have to live alone.
It’s our choices against the world
And we’ll upset them as we go.
You’re in your box of thoughts,
Stuck wondering if they should know.
The world is a flaw
Stumbling from start to go.
65 · Sep 2020
Puzzle pieces
Eric Michael Sep 2020
What if the doctrines were all wrong?
Like god gave us pieces of a puzzle,
and scattered them across the world.
What if we’re supposed to get along.
So we can piece them all together.
In peace as one.
What language is this?
Who do I need to love?
That voice inside says
“There’s nothing to be scared of.”
“It’s only love.”
57 · Sep 2020
See You Next Tuesday
Eric Michael Sep 2020
I’m taking hits from every direction
And I can’t seem to stand on my feet, without you
You’re a constant burden, and the source of my aggression
I hate admitting I miss you

I’m so sick and tired of you my dear
Been steady running in circles but not this year
I’m so set on finding some space to clear
My head of all conversation I still hear

I’m finally pulling myself from the wreckage
Battered and bruised, there’s not much left to lose
I’ve got places and directions to choose
Stay the **** out of my life, I hate you

Those beautiful, green eyes
They wreak havoc, your disguise

I’m a wrecking ball of hatred
You can see it in my eyes
A swift swinging hammer
I’m just saying my goodbyes
53 · Sep 2020
Beach house
Eric Michael Sep 2020
I want a beach house in the sand.
Walk out my back door, coffee in hand.
Down those stairs and onto the sand.

Watch the morning sun
Peak over the water
Lapse the waves
that splash my feet
I can feel the sun in everything
Energy and heat
There’s something more to this place...

Yeah...

I want a beach house in the sand,
That place was lovely.
53 · Aug 2020
Coming Clean
Eric Michael Aug 2020
I’ve spent so many years by your side
Can’t take back this feeling and I wonder why
You pushed me aside, left me to rot in my own mind

I taste turmoil on cold lips and feel the pain
As she loosens the grip on my wrists
I’ve come to find that I don’t have a stable mind
You leave me feeling so worthless all the time

Everything changes and everyone grows
But no one ever really lets go
Remember me, keep me in frame
Don’t let me fade away
I’ll always wait

Do I even exist anymore?
Am I dust on the shelf that you choose to ignore?
Do I even exist anymore?
50 · Sep 2020
Tight Garbage
Eric Michael Sep 2020
I keep on hoping maybe one day
You and I can push our differences aside
Even in a perfect world
You’ll never change
I’m so sick and tired of living this way

What do I have to do to make you understand,
That I want nothing to do with you.
You’re more than just a problem.
You’re a nuisance and a thief.
You stole my feet from under me.

When I’m with you I let a piece of myself die
Holding onto me, something’s just not right

I’ve got cheap emotions and they’re bleeding through
I wear them on my sleeve and it’s all for you
Even in a perfect world
You’ll never change
There’s no sense for me to be living this way

What do I have to do to make you understand,
That I want nothing to do with you.
You’re more than just a problem.
You’re a nuisance and a thief.
You ripped my heart right out of me

When I’m with you I let a piece of myself die
Holding onto me, something’s just not right
48 · Aug 2020
In Hindsight
Eric Michael Aug 2020
I was the firecracker, you were the flame.
My fuse was too short, I projected my pain. You might have burned me but the pieces still sting.
I left all of myself in smoke and debris.
Scattered among my goals and dreams.
Thought I was a man, the kind who stood up for what he believes.

That little boy inside,
he wouldn’t let me climb
out from the fountain.
Youthfulness proved useless,
said you heard it all before.
“Sorry doesn’t mean a thing to me, if you can’t change anything”

Stepped away from the damage.
Couldn’t bear to watch,
the man stripped away from the boy inside.
Sometimes the worst parts in life,
are the best in hindsight.
43 · Sep 2020
Growing Pains
Eric Michael Sep 2020
I caught myself reminiscing again
I just don’t understand why things change from what we planned
I made mistakes, I wear them well
I’m just trying hard to prevail

And I don’t have much confidence
Left to take advice from all my friends
And it seems so ******* useless
See I always stray away in the end
I’ve dug a hole too deep
Find it hard to find release
In these situations you complicate
It’s these growing pains that I’ve grown to hate

Now I lay alone on my bedroom floor
Stare at an endless sky, there’s a light that never dies
And a bottle in my hand that just seems to pass the time
I’m just trying hard to survive

I’ve become what I always feared
And I miss what I once held dear
I just don’t understand why things change from what we planned
I caught myself reminiscing again
43 · Aug 2020
Twin Flame
Eric Michael Aug 2020
Life don’t feel the same
Without my twin flame
All the negative traits that we create
Molded into love, or what we thought was fate
We found ourselves in one another
A desperate plea to help each other  
Look in the mirror and tell me what you see
My twin flame
She’s just like me

Sometimes
I think I hear you calling me
Begging for help
To tell you it will be okay
I’m not too far, but I have to stay away
I can help you still; trust me
I wish you could feel
Where I’ve been these days
I had to leave you, I had to change
I found peace and it’s been strange
Without my twin flame
Just show me you’ve changed

An eye for an eye
And now we’re both blind
If birds of a feather flock together
Where does that leave you and I?
The liar and the cheat
Committed to deceit
I drank the poison
How the hell can I trust me?

My twin flame
she’s just like me.
41 · Sep 2020
Vulnerability
Eric Michael Sep 2020
Can you open up for me?
Vulnerability
Tell me all your fears
Tell me all your dreams
I wanna be your medicine man
In this world of pain
Hand me all your baggage
Let go of the pain
Let the lovin’ take hold
I can be the aid
If you just let me

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