Stop wasting your time on a girl who doesn’t give two ***** about your heart
It doesn’t end with a sunset fading in the distance
She won’t change her mind and her feelings on you,
let alone her passion for leading men on
You’re just a trophy,
an addition to her collection of stolen hearts
Yet you latch on
and don’t give a **** about what I have to say
But hey,
if you honestly don’t want my help,
if you don’t want a friend,
I’m ok with walking past you
as you try to pretend she hates the stares she gets;

Is it fair to say
I've found the one
I hope to lie next to
In summer heat
near the crashing waves
as the fading sun
bursts at its seams
to kiss as people sleep
and run down baren streets;
Not caring what people think
as we scream in woods
once the stars are at their peak;
I've found the one
to make memories with;

What we need
is impossible to achieve;
What we feel, is not the same
As what we once felt
Our love has turned to nothing more
than heartless boughts of heated intimacy
Achieved without an ounce of passion;
We're run dry, yet we can't let go
So we cling on;

I’m safe
Far away from the wolf and its fangs,
Yet still my heart stays by,
Inching closer day by day towards the gnawing teeth
That lie in that womans mouth.
She is blood,
But I have shed that commonality because of her,
And will not shed it again.
Heart, come back,
She is not who you perceive her to be.
What she was died along with him,
What she is now, is darkness,
And that is what she always shall remain.
Memories can fool you,
But the reality can only cause you harm

He’s got a hold on me
Teeth gnawing on my organs
Gouged from the seams
Dripping down the street
Sheets drenched red
And all that shows
Is a blue and purple blended bruise

Lift up my shirt and see the faded patterns
traced upon my sides
down to my knees they travel;
the faint reminder of the years
when I never smiled out of joy.
Trace the broken pattern of a cut out heart;
I was foolish,
I wanted nothing more than love
and in the end it just left me more cuts to trace in later days.
Everything I’ve regretted is visible,
but only to the ones that end up causing them.

Oh nostalgia, sweet reminder of the past and its perfection
How I despise the moments looking back and thinking
Things were wonderful
Yet with knowledge gained and lovers lost and things turned on its back
I can no longer look back with glazed eyes
Only with wondering, wandering eyes searching for the clues
Of his wandering eyes and his questioning looks towards me
Nostalgia no longer defines the feeling I get when I look at pictures
And see that the boy I was with was looking at her
And to see that the boy she was with was looking at me

We all have our secrets
Our demons
Our baggage.
We all put up a front to the world.
We show people that our lives are perfect;
That we’re tough ****,
That we don’t care or that we do
We create our own little fantasy world
Starring the better version of ourselves,
The ones we wish we were.
And we act it out every time we leave the confides of our home. Everyone is fake,
Everyone.

I only feel complete when I'm in your arms
Or you gaze into my empty eyes.
As I think of ways to please you
I'm brought back to reality by you're lips on my cheek.
You're leaving me breathless,
And I'm sent hurtling
Head over heels in love.

The blood trickles up my throat
and back down as I swallow it whole
I wipe it clean and pray you won’t ever find me
I’m not as perfect as you think,
I get a little help from my finger wiped clean,
I’ll burn my throat and **** myself
inside then out.
And I just pray you won’t find out
I pray you won’t find out.

I like to pretend the world is mine and everyones in the palm of my hand
Or just in my pocket waiting to be let out.
But the earth revolves around the sun,
Not the moon, not my dreams or hopes or my own self,
No
The world revolves around the sun,
Not caring about anyone on its ****** surface,
Not caring about a single ****** soul.

I’m yours; not his.
He’s been long forgotten since I’ve gazed into your eyes
and had a moment of your time.
Don’t fret my love,
I've sewn our shadows together,
so even when we’ve reached a dark path
when we come out the other end we will still be one.
And I will never leave you,
I will never not try to make you smile.
I love you too much to let you go

You don’t wanna know what goes on in my head on cold winter nights
When everythings wrong and nothing is right;
Even my own mind scares me sometimes.

Just sit and whisper sweet nothings in my ear
I’ll whisper back how long I’ve waited just for this
and I’ll crawl into your warm embrace;
It’s been years since I last dreamed of this.

I take a deep breath in, tasting the cold air on my tongue
feeling it seep down my throat, through my lungs
down to the pit of my gut.
I let it sit, passing deeper within.
I feel the ice go through my skin, pass through vein after vein
reaching every ***** in my body, stopping at the heart.
I give in, exhaling every particle of used up oxygen
finally cleansed of my past.
A breath of fresh air is all it takes
to save me from the thoughts that haunt me.

They warned me, but I’m curious
It’s my tragic flaw
My need to know whats in the minds of those around me
You, you won’t let me in, that’s a first
You say half truths to get by my desire for your knowledge
but I know there’s more behind your wall
I'll get through to you eventually, I promise you I will
I’ll open your heart and mind, search through the memories
take out the bad, and leave you with happier thoughts to get you by
I promise you before I die.

I've painted my lips with poison since an early age
Figuring it will prevent heartbreak
Yet when love came around, the tactic backfired
The poison was hooking them one by one
And I laughed as they dropped like flies
I laughed and walked away
Leaving a trail of damage behind
I laughed

The desire for his attention, it leaves me hungry
Am I perfect?
Do you love me now?
If I tilt my head this way, prop my leg this way, slur my words just a bit
Will it make me perfect for you?
Everything you wanted, I can fake it, just for you
But that’s my demise, isn’t it
You can only fake for so long till he breaks your wall and see’s your true ******* colours
Just don’t love me, it’s not worth it anymore

I fell
Into a bottomless pit.
I crawled
And screamed to no prevail.
I threw myself
Into this volcano.
I’ll meet my fate
And burn.

Pointy things stick out yet all I see is plump and rolls.
Lay in bed all day and I keep my mouth shut.
Curtains drawn, eyes sore, hair falling down down.
Just let me turn to dust.

I'll paint it on, that lying grin, and fake a smile
I'm ok, I'm ok
Pretending, I'm laughing, not crying out for help tonight
I'm dying, I'm dying
This is the last time tonight.

And never shall it beat again
Yet there it is
That tune again
And here I am
And here you stand
I've fallen
I couldn't have

I know you don't so I'll go back
And hurt myself with him
But I'll pretend just for a while
Until it stops beating again

And when I'm done
I'll cease to be
His little doll
To **** around

And tomorrow
I swear
I'll tell you

Red leaves swirl in the misty haze of the night
Footsteps in the distance steadily grow softer
I lunge towards the tree, fists free
I'm dragged back, dripping

The cars go around in each direction
The lights are dancing , which way is up
The stars are blending with the leaves and the trees
and I lay back as I'm dragged dripping

The mist and tree's and leaves and stars
Smashed together and made to come as one
And the cars continue their daily route
As I'm thrown beneath the leaves or the stars and I stay there, seeping

Finally the sun, the way up, the way out
But my mouth is sewn shut and my limbs are made of ice
And then it is sunset, night and sunrise
Repeating before my frozen eyes

Forgive me

First we are born
Taken into the shelter and warmth
Mud and animals we see
And tender hands we touch

Our insides burst and seep and we scream
But tender hands caress these things
That have sprung out from my body

Now we see this place in whole
The dark is not our haven any more

My diary bit me last night
It bit my hand then lunged for my throat
So I tore it’s pages to shreds and lit fire
My memories, some not missed, but most will be.

It screamed and cussed as it burst into flames
Thrashed and trashed its outer cover
While still aiming for my throat
I sat back and found another book

As I wrote I promised I’d come back when the flames died
The diary still wearing itself out
Other books said I lie, but my promise I would keep
No matter how scuffed up the cover turned out

Like years past my memories have risen
And played out in front of me for your viewing pleasure
They dance
I crumble

Shotguns loaded and pitchforks raised
They throw rocks at my window in hopes I will come out
I hide
They wait

My walls cant withstand another blow, my windows are cracking
Headfirst out the glass strewn pane, the fire and flames break my fall
With my last breath I'll cry out
You've won

The world was once alive
Back when it was new and pushed the limits of sane
And didn’t give a ****

The world grew fame
And fell for the moon, while they skyrocketed backwards
Not giving a ****

Yet the world crashed
Burned and grew still with the utter feeling of emptiness
And no one gave a ****

as the sun sets
we meet as they sleep
and pour our hearts into each other


and as the sun rises
we wake intertwined
and whisper our morning hello's

this is perfection at its best

Jumping off a bridge to no where
And you're the one who'll suffer
The ones I love they leave me
Writing an unsent letter

Without your answer
Ill forget you
You need to see I'm alone
Cant you see its true

Patently obvious to all eyes
Except yours
So you just give up
Give in, let go, saying no mores

I don't love him like I love you
You don't see me like I see you
I know she loves you
But do you

However long it takes
Ill tell my heart to wait

A long time before, when I used to live free, scorch the skies
The time came, and I was alone, broken ties
Can we be more, can we be less, fire flies

Lights dancing beneath me, beneath you, in this sea
Look too deep, eyes of brown, eyes of green
Friends are dear, tell your secrets, telling me

Once you decide to dance in the rain
Be my friend
Can you erase this dreadful pain
Come and tend


I like the feeling of how small the world
and your problems seem
when your looking at the stars swirl
Then look down at me

So what happens now, with you, with me
Do we talk, ignore, flee
Or do we go back, to the dance, open sea

Secret December, one of those, tiny scars
Bleeding hearts, from you and me, ours
The sky, red as can be, memoirs

Once you decide to dance in the rain
Be my friend
Can you erase this dreadful pain
Come and tend


I like the feeling of how small the world
and your problems seem
when your looking at the stars swirl
Then look down at me

Thoughts of blood and gunfire bouncing in a skull that has been damaged
To the point of no control, I wonder if I can fix the hurt and salvage
The more I try the more the skull ruptures, and the more hurt pours out
Yet I try to pull away and the skulls owner viciously attacks then strikes a pout

I'll try to explain and calm things down but it refuses for the skulls ways is the only way
And the only way is the wrong way yet the easier way is in the distance of the day
'My friends have betrayed,
The boys are afraid
And I am alone', but really, are you truly alone?

'I thought I could call some people friends
goodbye goodbye
I cant believe you've abandoned me
Goodbye goodbye'

Scream and shout all you want, you've lost the respect of the ones who cared
And the dagger and rose will stab through the hearts of those who shared
Babe take breathers all you want know that I'll continue to fear
For the skull and heart that you've tried to hard to hide and hold dear.

I'll try to explain and calm things down but you refuse for the skulls ways is the only way
And the only way is the wrong way yet the easier way is in the distance of the day
'My friends have betrayed,
The boys are afraid
And I am alone', but really, are you truly alone?

'I thought I could call some people friends
goodbye goodbye
I cant believe you've abandoned me
Goodbye goodbye'

If this is what you want
Then I will give in
I'm sorry the world isn't pleased

So is this the end
No applause
No bows
Just a close of the curtain

A quick glimpse of the past
A visit from a friend
Flash of light
Then it's dark yet again

When you told me to believe I trusted
But this end, it isn't right
Just a white light

True love will never die
I believed
Death must be wrong
Or maybe love lied

Our paths won't intertwine
They were just two parallels
Never meant to cross
And not meant for each other

Yet this pain instilled
Deep within me
Makes me question
was fate wrong?

When you told me to believe I trusted
But this end, it isn't right
Just a white light

blood pours down my face
as tears wash them away
I've been sent into the rain
to wait for you

You'll join me in the rain
wipe away the blood with your lips
take away the pain he left instilled
together as it pours

alone side by side
I'll reach through the ****
take out what was his
that he'd tried to put back

take it away take me away
tell me tell me
re-attach the veins stitch up my pains
fix me fix me

I wonder how I fit with you
resemblance exists but that's the extent
I'll give, you'll take, you say and I'll follow through
you'll squeeze and smash whats already bent

and the one who kept me sane is buried in my mind
you use him as your excuse to life
you take away my mind and leave me with lies
I'll steal your excuses and carve them with your knife

I'll be your excuse after tonight

as your screams reach my room I'll dream
sometimes I plan my never wake
I hope you know you've drowned this home in you're twisted stream
and I promise this I wont fake

I've gone through hell to protect you
no thanks just more holes
the kid resembles the worst of you
and this could be the last toll

You'll be my excuse after tonight

No one can accept the person outside
Too much, little said
Pretty and plastic is what I should be
Yet I fall under the opposite
Ugly

Flimsy and bulgy imperfection always
Teach me to be like the others
Nothing but perfect or so they seem
Flawless, beautiful
Thin

Much leaves my mouth
Little enters
Pounds drop, bones brittle
Blood stops, yet it pours
Seeps

I'll fade away till you cant see
The ugly that lies
The blood flows free
Before I am too old
I'll die
Young

You've decided that your heart cannot mend
And that your perfect life must come to an end
So you go and tell the world
But child, the tales edges have curled

Go to the basement and lock the door
Scream through the vents, never more
Find the rope and climb the height
This has been the last fight

'You have no guts to follow through', but you better watch
I'll single handedly tie this rope, and I'll be the one to jump
And when you've discovered that I had been truthful
You'll silently apologize to the sound of silence

Tonight
I pretend that you're by my side
Instead of hers

Forever
In your arms and in my heart
Forever yours

Maybe when this all works out
We can be more than what we are
I can be yours like you're already mine

I presume I shall never let go
Of what we could be, what we should be
Yours, mine, ours, hers, or me

Trapped in these horrid walls
Beige lies, broken bones, hidden flaws
Purple and blue beneath these scars
Hell is home, Live amongst the shards

Filled me up, blood to overflow
Time passes, sit and laugh, they never go
Paint it green, Paint it black
Nothing changes, so what is one more hack

According to you I'm not worthy
To breath the air you do
To step amongst the spots you've touched
According to you I'm a shame
Struck and thrown around
Made to take your blame

One more blow, blood spatters
Head on the floor, heart shatters
Can you be right, wrong, not knowing
Leave her there to bleed, hidden, not showing

Fear, Loss, heartache and pain
Emotions mean nothing, not when you're vain
Walk away, to the beige, lights flash
They hold lies, numbness, another lash

According to you I'm not worthy
To breathe the air you do
To step amongst the spots you've touched
According to you I'm a shame
Struck and thrown around
Made to take your blame

They live for the rush of the minds contemplation
And seek for the weak to destroy what they have
Life
Make it seem unbearable
Utterly dreadful at the least
Till their minds contemplate
And then
They feed your soul with hope
Happiness and joy
So they can take life away again
They are murderers
They **** the soul and mind
And have killed me inside and out.