Each stroke of the brush with ease
The paint glides across the wall and spell the words running through my mind
The words I speak taste foul
Bittersweet
Which is why they are now in these walls
But the taste is still there
Of all the things to say
Your name is all of thought of today
Have you ever been faithful?
Concerned ?
Sincere?
Bittersweet
My tongue is cold and your name is old through these words on my wall
Over and over again the paint peels and falls to bow at my feet
Bittersweet concrete
Lost in that mind of yours
Clouded by lust is all you want but will never get
Because I regret ever being with you

Daggers in your eyes
Venom in your voice
You crush my spirit with your stare
Your eyes are telling me that you never cared
Good words replaced by the sound of hate and lies
So alone behind enemy lines
But we despise what anyone else has to stay
War
Against your words
Step up to the line and state your claim
I blame you for making me this way

The romantic sound
The pitter-patter of rain
I turn to look but all I feel is pain
My heart is hurting and pounding like mad
And I don't know why
But I want to die
No words can be said or heard because of the rain outside
I fell asleep but I cried earlier that day
No noise kept me alive except for the rain

A classy girl was put to shame
By the boy she loved who only knew her name
Her heart was broken next to his
A beating stone
And along they played a game of love and misunderstanding
Broken hearts and shattered hope
Lives were taken
Words mistaken
And she was forever changed
Oh the thought of leaving tortured her soul
The soul of a doll so worn and used
Her eyes would wander
Empty and glassy
The innocent girl who was once so classy
She let her guard down for the dream that could not be

Someone like you is very hard to trust
When you ask me to forgive you
To rub away the rust
My heart doesnt beat for an empty soul
A liar
A cheater
A forgetter of what you used to hold
Hold me tightly
Only in your dreams
Mine dont have any recognition of you
You are a stranger to me
What happened to the boy i let my heart beat for?
The boy with all the answers
The boy i longed to be with more than anything
I can never be sure
If what we had was true
Say no more
Not one more word
Not one more lie
You are dead
Decaying
A corpse in the back of my heart's imaginary mind
Not one single memory you will find
My scars have killed you
My thoughts deceive you
You can never compare to who holds my heart now
He will never put my love in danger
I will never want you
I can never love a stranger

Third time in life you've broken my heart
Not caring if the shards are lost
I'd cry but i would be weak and spoiled
I turn to punch my plaster wall but my fist recoils back to my chest to rest on my heart
The rapid beating stops and starts
I breathe hard
My gasps are loud
They echo behind the door
I would scream for help but my throat is sore
Every word ive ever wanted to speak is taken from behind my teeth
All i needed to say to the one i dont deserve
Ill let my anxiety take over and watch my new scars burn
Sometimes i wish to disappear
Because my words mean nothing
They are filled with fear
I have no one here to make me feel okay
You've broken my heart
The record
For making me live this day
For the breaking object that I've willingly gave
For the one you carelessly tossed back
For the one that was put to shame
For the one who was called stupid
For the one who didnt want to hear what everyone wanted to say
For the one who should've listened
To cupid's crooked arrow
Call me out right now and tell me
Why i cant have you de-spell me
And make me forget my last heart ache...i hope
This new world i can never cope
Say my name again
I fear...
That never again will anyone be here

As i hear youre name
My stomach turns to ash
That sickening feeling that will forever last
I love you...but you've lost my trust and my feelings
You've lost my want to care
You've killed my motivation of trying to get you back
You stare
You stare right through me the same way you stared through my heart made of transparent glass
A displeasing look i give you
You dont care
A friendship with you isn't meant to last
A friendship shouldn't last when youre selfish and cold
When you could care less if i needed you or if i died
For everytime ive cried ive died over and over again because i cant stand knowing that you will never convince me that you care
Im sick
Sick of seeing you and afraid all at once at the stranger you've become
An angry poem this will be
I love you....but you dont love me