I sit here trying over and over again
To make my pin bleed, to hear the words sing
But nothing, my thoughts just tumble over themselves
Like laundry that will never quite be clean
Sunday night I will come back to what I left
My old life, old friends
Different now than I was then
I don’t want a disconnect for who I am and where I have been
I found brilliance and light inside myself
I hope you see it, but I doubt it
I look the same, it’s a deep place I found it.
I wonder what eyes will see
What a brilliant glow might bring.

So funny how words spill between us
A poetic conversation flooding
Understandings and questioning
Everything
One moment lights up like hope upon butterflies wings
The next unveiling a garish harsh truth of reality, perched alongside loneness
Words coloring inside lines
Fuzzy gray trying to hide
Nothing is really quite
Balck and white
Every relationship really knows no bounds
Only defined by the individuals its wrapped around
Unique as life, its complexity
Just like your eyes seeing into me
You couldn’t say we are average here
Your words are what bring color to my life
And beauty to a blade of grass and autumn leaf
To a blue jay, to the passion I seek
An icon image into what life is supposed to mean.

I feel as if 'im being held up above those I love
inside a glass ball
encapsulated but able to see it all
rolling along palms of hands I love to hold
inside I let creativity unfold
As I paint and spend my time up hear
the glass is not longer clear
creativity hiding me
in the strangest way
as paint stroks block the view
of older different days
as creativity hides me
my friends can hardly find me
so i paint a mural of them smiling
i still feel them holding me up here.

Cryptic like the dark world’s all  
You’re ever going to know
Septic thoughts they
flow
she said she’d  never
send it,
never lend it
never let it
Go ,
Enigmatic static cling to a letter never sent
Slender fingers run along letters formed
But will fly away
To better days
She said shed never
Send it
Never lend it
Never let it
go

Endlessly fascinating
Glossy morality, hands hold in finality
Sleepy bliss as you find time in me
Why do you stand out to me
Like a light inside night to me
But this isn’t about me
Only what is happening
I have been told I am easy to know
But I feel I am hard to understand
Morality leading me
Blue eyes seeing outside of me
Big dreams conquering
Nightmares seep out freeing me
One person understanding
…. Far from me.
At least he finds time in me
So bright in me
I find him inside of me
Maybe that’s what’s so strange
Fascinating, captivating
Easy to know, harder to understand
In leaving freeing me
I miss you

I think I love you
I have been told
I write confessional poems
That I can not argue
I would never say
What I have today
If you were beside me
Poems, they just free me
Words escape, with meaning
Meaning, I think
I love you
Even when you do not
Though it hurts a little
Well a lot
But you are so strong willed
So brave at heart, it gives me chills
Fearless in your way
That you seek happiness and play
And I could see me
Finding beauty inside you
For as long as words can be used
Forever tell my face turns blue
And winded air, fills the space
Between me fingers
And the buttons spaced
On my keyboard.
Confession.
<3

Mom
I look inside your eyes a realize you are human
Inside that part of life, fleeting time
Misty eyes, you are lost
I forgot
You are human

Remember how I thought of you
Like superhuman, superman but you were super women plus ten
Always thoughtful, always true
Stuborn in what made you, you

Mother I have cried, lost in struggle
Lose my stride
but re found and got up
Always knowing you were right
By my side, held up high

Now I step aside, and watch
The ever knowing has finally stopped
do my eyes lie
or had i just forgot
we are all just human
we all get lost
fall down and get back up
mom hold my hand
we both can jump