how do you say ******* to the world without admitting you are giving up. **** **** fuckity. I know I am classy. Lady like. So put together, but ironically I know who I am and this will un- cluster **** itself eventually. I am okay, but seriously universe what are you trying to prove? So again i ask, how so you say ******* world without admitting you gave something up? A little bit of hope, of innocence, of faith in something. But I have given something up. so I suppose I should able to express my loss however makes me feel better.
*you dont say ******* to the world without admitting you have given up on something.

why cant i say i need someone to care about me right now
i need someone to want me
to talk to me
to kiss, and long after
what is this disaster i have fallen
into a cycle that is
i admire and see,and feel the beauty of the world
and no one seems to admire, see the fire
to feel or seek me
and that is fine
but thats a lie
i feel so lonely
long for longing
touching a shadow
wishing it could feel me
chase after dreams
that seem to be reality
want hands to hold my face
to draw me in
and share my space
and time after time
i reach my dreams
but i sleep alone
no one is home
but me

I burn red. Literally blushing to the point of heat exhaustion
I am fire, fiery full of passion for a better world, for better, greatness
I redefine successes, and I push myself for the best
Gazing inside the lines society claims as norm, abnormal
People are the things I fixate on, because I care and can’t move on
And I am livid that you, you like all those I watch
Have forgot… you don’t see. It kills me.

That laughter rolls from under you
Light pooling inside your eyes
And like a moth I’m drawn to you
You pull me in, and I am powerless
Blood just below a boil
Ready to surface red, at any moment
Just say a word and see
How transparent I can be
Heartbeat, beat beating
Your voice like honey
Slowly moving over me
Sweet temptation
Just one taste and..
I draw near just to feel the burn

*I am not a ******* moth

Lightly wind cradles me and pushes
Exhaling as air laps at my cheeks
Light as a feather I feel myself
Coming down to earth
Where you don’t exist
Because you only see me
When I dream of you
In reality
You have failed to see my light
So I walk toward the sun and try
To remind myself
I am fine.
I'm on fire
Light
Light as a feather
Bright as fire

I just want someone to touch
To feel hands hold
My tired withered soul
Have them slide down my thigh
Until they find a sigh
Supple lips, and twinkled eyes
Exploring me with delight
Someone I can hide in
To trace my face and lift my chin
Pull inside warmth
Breath out words
I love…._

Heavy lids blanket over lenses I see
The world through
Captured light and movement
Moving me through the soothing day
Laugh and play
Climbing hiking and woodsy earthy smell
Distracting from the hell
That is
Your sickness
Even through pure bliss
I can’t miss
The tortured sad feeling I get
When I come to see you
exhausted , tired eyes begin to cry
Sleep finally takes me