Can’t fight my freedom
Freedom is inside of me
And you run after trying to find in me
Something you have decided resides in me
Flies inside a lie
A truth you think you can make
But I am not everything
Stop sculpting what I say
To make me what you may
Want to be with
I don’t want a kiss
I don’t need a hug
Just a friend and that’s enough

Today I ripped up that inked paper
Crafted, inked sketched
To shorted the distance between our difference
Something that hasn’t happened yet
Negativity, is all it brings me
And it lays in pieces by my bed
Seeing what is there
Instead of what I made
Lays
Alone
In pieces
No one ever appreciated you
Not like me
Not like I do
In some ways
It was perfect
Celtics player
Patterns
Green sprayed across
A piece of paper that struggled
To say
It doesn’t have to be perfect
But I took it down
Because they never understood
What it stands for
Stood for
…. No shorter of a distance
Paper doesn’t make a bridge
to cross the gap
between the difference
of you and me.
today I ripped that paper

you seem more sure of what you think of me
then of who you are and want to be
long lonely days makes you feel
the warmth of my breath
feel real, realizing you have been hiding
from the pleasures of life
inside and out
you scream and shout
i don't want to be alone
clinging to me
like static to a balloon
hugging at every surface passing
promising me this is lasting
but it is to soon to say
if its started, or if its a haze
slow down my dear friend
we have a long way tell the end
and  no way to know
where we will go
and happy always changes
chin up butter cup
snoopy has a friend.

I just want to write because I want you to read
And all the old stuff is the older me
But my words are jamming
Underneath the keys
Running jumbled mess
That fails to expain my feelings
I don’t quite have the words to say
I love the way you stay
But don’t cage me in
The way you claim to like me
But haven’t quite dove in
How you talk and talk
Knowing that I’ll listen
And how you seem so sweet
So very genuine
Stay the same
Never change
Snoopy n his house
Simple loving life
Open hands
Open heart
Smile lifes to short.

Empty space

I dream up ways to fill that empty
When I dream at night you are next to me
Pressing, encapsulating, enthralling,
Calming, alarming
Make my heart race faster
Then fingers chase after
The outline of my face
Pacing your heartbeat
With mine
And time ceases to exist
Nothing does but that kiss
Hum. Buzzing with excited life
Hands clutch at my bareness
Gasp so slightly out of breath
Because you feel all of me
Dancing intertwine
With the mister I had in my mind.
Inside the empty left behind
Unloved but I am fine.

Soft skin that still
Has elastic in its silk
Freckles lightly kiss
An even spread mist
Over fair skin
That falls over
A face that smiles
Eyes bright and beautiful
Blue that captures you
Youth and all its promises
To get skin eventually
To stretch and sag
And grow week to lag
To experience
To live
And
whisper a story told inside your skin
Someday I want to find
Crow’s feet and smile lines
And darkened freckles
With silver grey and white
That sprouts out, only earned in time
To have a raspier laugh
That flouts longer in the shortened
Breath I have
To have time
To fully discover
Me
Myself
My lover
Life and happiness

I fall and weep
And tears stream
Heartbreak breaking inside
Terrified of myself
Of what I am without anybody else
And I think out loud


Who am I


And search inside
To realize
I am ******* beautiful…


And you who hurt me so
Should realize I cry tears of gold
I break and burst through the mold
That my emotions free me
I’m a sea of meaning
Strength has not escaped me
And I am fear and saintly
I trust, love and lust
Live and fly and cusp
On the self I am working to be
Changing myself
Changing humanity
And I break loose
Free as a bird
Singing songs
Not of how you hurt
I hurt
But how I love so sweet
And anyone not willing
Has met a
Sad cease
Ending at where
I am only beginning
I am nothing short of beautiful
So sad you haven’t seen it
I'm bright color
In shades you haven’t seen yet