Looking out into the sky
Led these feelings to ascribe
How nostalgic I feel
Knowing each destination is a peel
Of the fruit we call Earth.
But when I was younger, a plane became
The memorable way to a new planet in name
One where I can only remember
What it truly feels like to be younger
Where to? I can only wonder
To become an adult in yonder.

As the conclusion of my life in school ends
the start of my journey in the real world begins.
Everywhere I've looked I can't find a guiding light
One that says, "this path could do you so right,
the future it holds for you is so bright."
Nay, I am completely lost for love.
Love that commits to something that will bring joy.
Instead, I tread on the ferry way of despair.
For everything I try bears no fruit.
And with no fruit to grow I feel utterly useless.
If only I knew what exactly it is I wanted to do.
Oh please Lord, guide me through and through.

Why are you so blue?

I’m not sure, it’s just how I feel.

Is there anything I can do to help?

I’m not sure if anything will help me

Can I sit next to you?

Sure.

...

                           Thanks

Remember doing something productive?
I feel like it was so long ago.
Imagination fueled curiosity
Curiosity fueled adventure
Together, they fueled wonder.
Wonder led to learning, exploring and understanding what it meant to be a kid.

A small dark room with open dark tables
Paintings on the wall etched with fables
Fables concerning a single time of life
That captures and freezes
Of pure wonder you begin to explore
There are many large windows on one side
That allow a magical aura of sun tide
Waves of noise come in silence
As blissful peace is made so present
An emotion that can't be spoken
A blossoming love of motion
Still you stand in awe
Art is poured
Beauty in vision
Beauty in Heart

Feelings that muster up inside of me
Like a tree, their roots growing ever deeply
To reach the surface of the mighty task
Courage is the destination I must unmask.

Feelings blossoming
developing through friendship
between you
the desire to grow
a helpless feeling that doesn't need much
except the kindness you bring

Where have you gone?
With the wind or with my age?
Come back to spread the joy.
Blessings like a new born's toy.
Feelings spread with those who are kind
Likewise minds fill the endless spine
A gap to forge what is the cause
of this perilous journey taken by the Clause.
But where there is no imagination there is no spirit.
Someone please bring back the Christmas Spirit.

Back before they called me Rafael
To sing and write is how I do sell
My soul to keep my soul to shine
How do I even write these rhymes?
That I call wrongs but who is the judge
Time to question what Is above
To dwell upon this fine image
Of what may be if my soul is pillaged

At the end of the day I still think of you
But there is no reason for me to pursue.
The words, "I am unsure of what I can give."
Says something about the way in which we live
I tried waiting for you but I end up suffering
Maybe some things we'll never truly know
I've been ready to jump while you're slow
Moving on is a new love, I can't wait to go
Will I ever be your love? I don't know

Materialism
And
Dissatisfaction

Made
A young man
Disappoint those who love him.

Merry and joy was
All they were ever to him.
Dang, he thought to himself as he hid.

Waiting for a response
Always longer than expected
Where truth is revealed
Intrinsically and painfully
Even blissfully is my wait
Yet sometimes it snaps
Like my patience.

Listening
Watching
Contemplating
When I see truth
Beauty
Goodness
Sharing with others
Joy
Sadness
The Soul is seen through honesty.

Retreating from an angry self
To the mountains I sought, Contemplation cliff awaited me
for the spirit blossoming within. What grabbed a hold of my soul?
To be a new man, reforged by those who surrounded him.
From those who had nothing,
gave him insight into
what it truly means
to be alive
to live for others
and seek what is above.

Lost and confused, I don’t even care
Pointless wondering of what is even fair
To share my thoughts is how I do care
About others who can put up with no share
On this bright day I am a new one
sorry mom and dad. I was just a confused son

Notes that leave lasting impressions.
Floating around my head,
music to my ears.
Purely believing that these emotions become effortless.
There is no need for any more noise between us.
To explain my love for your beauty is quite the mystery.
The piano helps me explain the wonder I have.
A time where you have my soul, your eyes locked with mine.
The pathway to a fleeting touch, one which can't be foreseen.
A speculative thought dances across the room.
Can you be mine forever, or is it too soon?
Will you truly be everything I've wanted or everything more?
For your smile brings me to the black and white keys of this score.
Will you let me love you? Or am I just another note out the door?
Drawn on my heart lies nothing you can't be.
Will you tap and peddle this intimate moment?
A piano's feeling you bring.
Will this experience be written for us?
Yes, this piece is given as a letter of trust.
A promise to sway you through your harmonious doubts.
Back and forth I have told you time and time again.
This piano piece can only be played for you... and them.

Using this website to vent out my feelings
It’s like a start of a new drug dealing
Addicted to poetry is that really me?
So intently writing my intuition
Get me out of school I can’t pay the tuition
Or spend anymore time in drama
class got me taking too much time
To spend on things that won’t even lyve-
in my day.

To worry is to fret
on things that have yet
to become existence or not
In place of things that ought
to become what's important in one's life
save our caring's, by saving our time
so emphasize our free choice in losing
weighted thoughts that destroy
the deepest potential to employ
our soul's growth to the fullest.
Realize the restrictions then release
the breath of euphoric relief
because to live freely is a gift from above
to live freely is to love.