Fallow fields and dust are bound
By a hollow earthly sound
Our last night has come to call
Away from time we all shall fall

There are things that I have seen
That made me question everything
But in this hour I know too well
The fracture of my mortal shell

A wasted curse lost in the wind
Worry not for those who've sinned
Blazing leaves in setting sun
All my life has come undone

With a cigarette hanging between my fingers
The perfume of liquor on my lips
I think to myself that maybe
I could've been more than this

Ugly, petty, and broken
Remnants of a knowledge still unspoken

To him maybe I'm someone else
To him maybe I'm not myself

But it's wrong of me
Believing in a promise of tomorrow
When I'm supposed to be
Already dead

He calls me an angel
Something like a gift from God
And he takes my hand,
Reverently
To tell me he believes in fate
To tell me that he loves me
Though I've been nothing but a sinner
All my lonely life

And he calls me his savior
For what I've seen him through
But I never have been able
To see God as saviors do

I've wondered, yes, I've prayed
To what, I do not know
I gave up questions of my purpose
Oh, so long ago

But in his eyes I see belief
In his eyes, I see redemption
For all the things I've done
For what I cannot mention
And I'll do my best to be
Myself, the best version

But I will not say
If I'll ever know with certainty
The value of my life
In doubt, until my death

I surely don't regret
The person I've become
The many wrongs I've done
That led me here to him
Still a soul mired in sin

He opens the door
And I begin to believe
There's more I'm here for

I'm closing my eyes
And I'm trying to believe
That for once I am changing
Climbing back out of my grave

But, though the fog is fading,
I know what lies beneath.
Under smiles and laughter
So many tears and this disease

I'm sure there's no cure
So I don't wanna hurt you, too
Because the day it comes back
I'll fall away from you

You say you want me
And I know you think it's true
So why does this fear remain
That I mean nothing to you

I guess I'm the fool
To fall the way I do
Trying to get closer
Closer to you

I don't even know
How this is meant to go
Emotions, racing heartbeats
Forces still unknown

And I've tried, oh I've tried
To tell myself it's not true
But I know when I see you
There's only one thing
One thing I wanna do