Something in you
Hates something in me

There's nothing left
Of you and me
I held on so long because I believed
If I could take a little more pain
Maybe you'd stop hurting me

Finally I see
There's nothing in your eyes
When you're breaking me down
When you're watching me reel
Nothing

I don't know why I thought you would change
Is this hell my punishment
For wanting so badly to be loved
Is this what I deserve
For being so pathetic
Maybe I got what was coming to me

I thought by now I'd have the strength to leave
But here I am again
Looking out from the bottom of my grave
And all I see is rain
Too tired to climb out
I don't think I can escape
My worthless life
Circling the drain

But it all feels so far away

I hang in this suspension
Of liquid memory
Self-imposed stasis to keep
Change from corrupting me

Limbo - a kind of pergatory
Where I may be found
Endlessly searching for time
That I cannot get back

I couldn't be there today
I hope you know I'm sorry for that
I tried waking up
But I always turn back

Too tired to tell you why again
We've beaten this so hard
I'd say it's dead
You say I gotta have it my way
Do I?
My patience for your ******* is wearing thin
'Cause from where I stand
You're the one who can't
Come to terms with it
So much easier
To just pretend
Isn't it?

Feels like I'm talking to a ghost
But there's still blood under your skin
Thought that I was getting close
But you don't want to understand

How long?
How long?
How long?
How long do you think I'll be holding on?

Do you expect forgiveness?
Do you think I'm made of stone?
Do you think my heart's unbroken?
Don't act like I should have known

Feels like I'm talking to a ghost
But there's still blood under your skin
Thought that I was getting close
But you don't want to understand

I haven't called you in tears in awhile
You say I'm doing so well
You say you're so proud of me with a smile
Now there's no more worrying
No more waiting on me
Because everything's ok now, right?

No, and I know it's not
And I know it won't be

The truth is that every step I take toward strength and stability
Pushes me farther from everything that feels like home
And now here I am making everyone so happy
But inside I just feel ******* alone

I was never concerned
With how close I was to perfection
Until you asked me to change
Again and again
All for your love

And I did, in desperation
Till there was nothing left
Of who I really was
Or what I was made of

I guess nothing in this world comes for free
Oh nothing, nothing
In this world
Comes for free